Woah? 2 years, thats the FASTEST. You wasted everything as in EVERYTHING. I thought this “thingy” will last forever. Toinks! I’m wrong. 2 years that’s the maximum? HAHA. Oh well what can i say? or what should i say?:’) 

My first love.

So i thought I’d been in love before, the butterflies, the kisses, the touching. I honestly thought I had fallen in love until I met this girl. She treat me like no one else ever did before, she made me cry with laughter, feel so complete and like the only girl in the world. People warned me away from her, even my own best friends because she had a “reputation” of playing people and hurting them bad. I didn’t listen because I believed every word that ever came out of her mouth. I believed her over my own best friend. I used to dream about relationships like this and I honestly knew it was too good to be true. She had the perfect body, perfect laugh, perfect eyes, perfect personality. I laid next to her and asked her every night… “you could have anyone in the world, why did you choose me?”. I still remember the first time she told me she loved me, the first time she kissed me, the first time she met my family. My family classed her as their own and loved her nearly as much as I did. Until she started changing. Hiding her phone, making excuses not to cuddle me or kiss me. Living together used to be so fun but all the laughter turned into tears. Finding out things I didn’t want to know from other people but I still believed everything she said. Without going into detail on the bad bits she broke my heart. The person I fell in love with turned into someone I didn’t know. I hated that person because of how she treat people, because of how she acted and didnt care about anyone but herself. I hated how she would be oblivious to everything around her. We haven’t seen eachother in a while and I don’t think I’d want to see her because she’s not the person I knew. She’s now a stranger but the person I fell in love with is still in my heart. I used to hate her for what she done to me but now I don’t. She helped me grow as a person, I became mature, She made me strong and successful at my job and I’ll forever be grateful for that. I’ve stopped being angry now I smile and laugh again, I don’t put my trust into people so easily. She taught me that you never really know someone and anyone could turn on you at any moment. I miss her a lot of the time, I think about how much I’d smile when Id catch her looking at me, how good i’d feel when she would grab my hand in public. I still listen to songs she used to listen too. I go to the places she liked to go. I eat the food she liked to eat. She introduced me to things that now make me happy and I’m now truly at peace with myself and my life. When I first met her never In a million years did I think that she would impact my life this much. My first love changed my life. I hated her for hurting me but now I thank her for making me the person I am today. This time 3 months ago I was broken but now I’m happy within myself, no more pain, tears or heart ache. It does get better. ❤️

: vintage-lesbiann

If you haven’t seen someone for a while you might think you’re over them.

But until you look them in the eye, hear their laugh, see their smile and feel nothing, that’s when you’re over them.

smile-suggestions:

You are not forever broken. You are not damaged goods. You are not your trauma. Your trauma doesn’t define you. It just shows how strong of a person you are to have made it through all of it.

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