#ed trigger
College has been so so so good for my ed. No one tells me I have to eat, no one has to know if I eat anything or not. If i skip out on going out to dinner everyone assumes it’s just cus I’m a broke college student (which i am). EUPHORIC
Tell me how my entire family has an eating disorder lmao
Fuck, I’ve been binging since Saturday. As soon as my meal plans go out the window for a day, I turn into a mess
Why THE FUCK do eating disorders have to ruin everything. EVERHTHING
Can’t wait until I’m skinny enough for my eating disorder to be taken seriously.
Anorexic panic. I’m going to C R Y
He is so sweet though.
I’m driven by everything that isn’t inside
Defining my worth by every half calorie I bite
Dragging blades along my size 6 thighs
Because they aren’t pretty enough
I’m not sick enough
If i lose 50 more pounds
Maybe I’ll finally deserve to be loved
He said I was his world. How do I tell him my world revolves around an eating disorder and not him?
Started showering with my clothes on again
everytime I start feeling good about staying on track with my restrictions, my father decides it’s the perfect time to essentially force feed me fast food. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself.
I only have 200 cals left in my budget for today and I have to go out to eat tonight. I can’t keep doing this.
Why is my whole life falling apart when it’s all supposed to be coming together? I just want to be little, loved, and pretty.
I’m so hungry I feel like I’m about to throw up. None of this is fun. Fuck people who glamorize this shit. I’m so tired.
I want to be so little that when he picks me up he worries about how light I’ve become
Back on my bullshit ladies and gents. feel gross. Gained back a lot of the weight I lost from dec.-march. Devestated
POV: you’ve been on a week long binge and avoiding tumblr at all costs. I’m back bitches. Unfortunately.
Woke up: decided “fuck it I’m going to recover”: just went on a huge binge: now planning how much I can starve this week. Classic.
I feel disgusting
The sick sense of pride this gave me
Jessica Alizzi via Instagram.
was preoccupied all day by real life thinspo, the oscars.
Kendall Jenner via Instagram Post - 08/02/20
