#tw ed related
need my ed to kick back in in full force so I can lose a few kilos quickly
i feel so ashamed of myself right now and the only thing that can comfort me is starving
where’s my morning skinny??!!
i am bloated af. thanks, period.
my face is all puffy and massive and i fucking hate it
I NEED TO KEEP ON LOSING WEIGHT!!!
after all this time i’ve started feeling dizzy again. that means i’m doing fine, right?
my scale doesn’t work. like seriously why does everything go downhill? fuck
Today’s calories : 1389
will i ever escape the 4 digits?
why do i make everything so complicated? like why can’t i just eat a fucking meal and move on with my life or eat when i’m hungry and stop when i’m full? why can’t i just be normal??
Today’s calories : 2214
i just want this to be over
i binged. i’m so fucking ashamed and disappointed of myself. i wanna scream, but i can’t ‘cause they’re going to hear me and think i’m like insane. fuck
Okay, when is it my turn to be this skinny ?
Daily log -11/07/21
Breakfast:45 grams of low fat cheese
Lunch: 1 pot (0.5 oz) blueberry yoghurt
Dinner: fasting (16 hours, started at 4PM)
Water track: 5 glasses
Exercise: Walking, around 11,530 steps
Total cal:207
Burned:600
It be like that.
Daily log -10/07/21
Breakfast: 40 grams of low-fat cheese
Lunch:skipped
Dinner: fasting (for 16 hours, started at 4PM)
Water track: 6 glasses
Exercise: walking (around 10,006 steps)
Total calories:127
Burned:535
Daily log -09/07/21
Breakfast: 80 grams of low-fat cheese
Lunch: grilled flounder fillet
Dinner: fasting (for 16 hours, started at 4PM)
Water track: 5 glasses
Exercise: walking (around 10,062 steps)
Total cal:380
Burned:523
Daily log -08/07/21
Breakfast: 8 thin slices of pastrami
Lunch: 1 cup of watermelon
Dinner: 70 blackberries
Snack: 1 beer
Water track: 4 glasses
Exercise: around 10,600 steps
Total cal:506
Burned:558
Water fasting: Day 8
Today’s thought: I can’t sleep because I’m so anxious at the moment for tomorrow’s family lunch out and i dunno what to do.
And yes, even though my mum bought me some sugar-free wheat bread I would still prefer “Plain *Ice cold* black coffee (Sugar-free)” because I trust what I see than what is labeled from the grocery. Yea I don’t trust food just like guys.
