I got a stomach virus and that shit was (it honestly still is) beating me up. However I did lose 12 pounds in 5 days but honestly idk if I can even really be happy about that right now cause I’m SUFFERING.

Thinking of doing a 5 day fast from Monday to Friday to celebrate the first week of school ☺️. My first time in a year and a half going back to school and I’m going back with a different ED. From borderline binge eating disorder to b/p and An0rexia. Im going to be on my grind this year so that I can lose all this weight and recover. I want to recover already but Ik that would be bad for me in the future. I don’t want to have to struggle through this for the rest of my teenage years so I’m going to work hard. Wish me luck ☺️<3

Hello?????? Worth all 40 cals!! It’s tastes good the only thing is I almost broke my arm trying to open it.

Second day complete Today went well i wasn’t hungry but I did have to drink some green tea because I was really faint eventho I took my vitamins. I might have to buy some electrolytes for my next fast.

W3ibo skinny challenges are overflowing with th1nspo also it might take a while to find but there is also kinda like a w3ibo proana community. You can also find diet and work out tips.

I cant wait till school starts to get so busy I forget to eat while simultaneously getting my steps up all the while not making any friends ☺️

I’m honestly really tired of this. I just want to reach my ugw and recover. I want to be normal and be able to enjoy things that people my age should be enjoying. Going to the movies with friends and actually being able to eat there. Eating dinner with my family. Going shopping and actually finding nice clothes. When I reach my ugw I’ll be able to do all the things I long for. It’s never really been about looking pretty or getting a s/o for me. I just want to love my body and wear all the clothes I want without having to worry about getting unwanted attention or looking fat. I’ve never been really sad or depressed while having my ED and I’ve been able to overcome my sh. I just want to enjoy my high school life and hopefully within a year I’ll reach my ugw and overcome this part of my life that is holding me back from really enjoying my life.

I was about to binge but i just had two pieces of brownie and stopped when i had at least 5 fast food places, cafes and shops etc around me. (Plus two frozen pizzas in the freezer) I feel guilty for the brownies but at least i stopped and if i fast for 24h i should be fine and not gain hopefully. I’ll try to burn 500 calories today as well. So far i’ve burned 272 so thats a good start (its 2 pm here)

27.03.2022

Daily Summary

Limit: 150

Calorie intake: 411

Calories Burned: 630

Total: -219

I’m not the happiest about today but could be worse i guess. I couldn’t count properly and my watch died before i got home so i could have burned more calories but idk so i hate it

24.03.22

Daily Summary

Limit: 300

Calorie intake: 287

Calories burned: 532

Total: -225

I did well today considering i had dance

23.03.22

Daily summary

Limit: 400

Calorie Intake: 506

Calories burned: 836

Total: -330

I’m not happy with how much i ate but at least worked out a lot to burn a lot! I’m scared of gaining weight tomorrow though

22.03.22

Daily Summary

Limit: 200

Calorie Intake: 219

Caloires Burned: 315

Total: -96

I didn’t hate today but i think i can always improve. Did not waste calories on hot chocolate like yesterday at least. Also weird fact about me I’m a dairy free vegetarian which makes it quite easy for me to restrict certain things!

And yes, even though my mum bought me some sugar-free wheat bread I would still prefer “Plain *Ice cold* black coffee (Sugar-free)” because I trust what I see than what is labeled from the grocery. Yea I don’t trust food just like guys.

My breakfast for today…..

I woke up earlier than expected today, mum woke me for breakfast because she’s leaving again for tomorrow and we’ll not be seeing her again for the next three weeks. She requested to have breakfast with us, since I don’t really eat and I’m on my third day of Water fasting I only want plain black coffee.

Now I feel a little frustrated because we will be out for lunch later at my grandparent’s place and everybody is there, now I don’t know what to do it’s making me anxious about stuff.

me? using my ed as a coping mechanism? naaah never

me, 3 minutes later, using my ed as a coping mechanism: ✌️

Ribs

I wanted this so badly, every bite less, every second of exercise made me feel good.

I wanted them to see my ribs and that they thought it was easy for me to be thin, that everyone would stare at me and smile at me because I was pretty.

But when they look at my ribs, they feel terrified, they beg me to eat, I made my siblings cry, they thought I was going to die.

This isn´t the kind of care I expected.

Gotta love constantly hating yourself ✌️

My dad just told me he’s gonna stop buying Diet Coke for me and I started crying in front of him….gotta love mental illness man✌️

Can someone please send me meanspo I swear to god I’m fucking desperate at this point I don’t know what to do

crystal-candy101:

Passed out today cuz I’ve been drinking Diet Coke for the past two weeks and the first time I drank water was to purge ✌️ I’m such a health icon