i’ve binged. and then cut myself. great. i thought i was finally over this, but i guess i never will

all i need is a flat tummy for fuck’s shake

the amount of food i’ve consumed these past few days is insane. fuck family gatherings

i’m so tired of having to face the same problems over and over again. like seriously i’ve been struggling with my body image and relationship with food for 3.5 fucking years. i’m actually starting to believe that i will never escape this. fuck

i need to stop making up excuses to eat all the time… like fuck. how will i ever lose that weight, if i just keep stuffing my face??

what if i was skinnier?? you’d like me better then, wouldn’t you?

i feel so ashamed of myself right now and the only thing that can comfort me is starving

where’s my morning skinny??!!

i am bloated af. thanks, period.

my face is all puffy and massive and i fucking hate it

I NEED TO KEEP ON LOSING WEIGHT!!!

after all this time i’ve started feeling dizzy again. that means i’m doing fine, right?

my scale doesn’t work. like seriously why does everything go downhill? fuck

Today’s calories : 1389

will i ever escape the 4 digits?

why do i make everything so complicated? like why can’t i just eat a fucking meal and move on with my life or eat when i’m hungry and stop when i’m full? why can’t i just be normal??

Today’s calories : 2214

i just want this to be over

i binged. i’m so fucking ashamed and disappointed of myself. i wanna scream, but i can’t ‘cause they’re going to hear me and think i’m like insane. fuck

Daily log -10/07/21

Breakfast: 40 grams of low-fat cheese

Lunch:skipped

Dinner: fasting (for 16 hours, started at 4PM)

Water track: 6 glasses

Exercise: walking (around 10,006 steps)

Total calories:127

Burned:535

Dzień 15 waga: 79,7

Zjedzone: ok 580 kcal/600

spalone: nie wiem ile ale wiem ze trochę spaliłem

- pół drożdżówki z jabłkiem - 130

- oatjogu mango-148

- kawełek ciasta które upiekłom - ok100?

- vifon zupa pho - 184

Todo se está repitiendo, es como si volviera a mi peor momento