#i want you to love me

You deserve someone that won’t leave even when it’s hard to breathe.

I know you’ll never love me the way I want you to.

I will never forget

The art that was

Learning to love you

Tracing every part of you

To see your eyelids flutter

In pure bliss

Lips apart, letting out a gentle

What if we fall

In love

In lust

Only in daydreams now

And wasn’t it tough

When you missed me

Did you feel

Just like you couldn’t breathe

Well how do you think

I feel now that you’re back

Tough guy

Did you think

That you wouldn’t break me?

Stupid girl

Why would he care

About your feelings

Or your pain

Why would he bother

With a useless piece of flesh

When he can have

Out of all people, his ex

Why did you think

He would lower his standards

For some stupid

Stupid girl

I want every part of you

But not just the fun

I want the gun

That you hold to your head

When you think too much

And feel not enough

I want the sadness

And I want the laughs

I want to be there

When you want to cry

I wanted you

To fall for me

I’d be there to catch you

But instead

I was too late

To catch my heart

As you dropped it

Rejected

Beaten down

To the ground

Why you’re too early

I’m still not over

Those few times that we kissed

And we were both sober

Now you’re high off of

Trauma and lust

While I’m drunk on

Your eyes and your touch

Your poison so sweet

It made me believe

I was looking into the face of an angel

Not that the Devil himself

Would come and tell me

To watch out for the look in your eyes

It tells nothing but lies

I hope you think of me

When you’re turning up your volume

And it lands on thirteen

You’ll change it up so it evens out

I hope you’re taken back

To when we both felt

That fives were the exception

Turns out we weren’t, though

What an odd, odd feeling

To be the only one

In love