Every single day it breaks me to pieces I’ve tasted defeat at the feet of my demons I’m such a fucking waste of achievement I should put this trigger to my brain and just squeeze it, Tell me what I did to deserve this pain Tell me what I did to deserve this hurt When all I ever did was put everybody first.
Made another pilgrimage to the City of Cortez, Colorado to see my best friend. We had so much fun together relaxing, watching movies, playing Minecraft, putting legos together, and cooking. I love going to see my friend because she is by far, with the exception of my future husband, who is equal to me in intelligence and wisdom. Im glad to have met her and I often don’t deserve her as a friend.
Ugh i missed my last hour of sleep bc I was having intense daydreams about Eerie and Connor hanging out in their hotel room before their Gala, one of my fav pastimes
They prob have to stay there 3 nights total. Want stuff like: Continental breakfast!!!! Room service. Connor taking an angry bubble bath and his legs barely fit in the tub
Connor horrified at Eerie plucking her shoulder feathers !!!
Connor coming into the room, Eerie looking at herself in her dress and him saying “whoa” and her going ??? And he’s like this Uhhh, this wallpaper is like… From the 70s. Whoa! ….. …… *side eye* ahem… nice dress btw?? Satin? Silk?
Eerie laughs, wanna feel??
He’s like YES I love touching cool stuff
He squats down and touches the bottom of her dress. He’s like oooh and takes off his glove. He is like oh it’s satin, what a good thread count!! Oh wow and these sequins… I love the pleating… this is really high quality… wow!! A dress meant to be touched…, beautiful !!
Eerie is like ahem and Connor realizes he’s been kind of feeling up her legs and he suddenly pulls his hands away and turns bright red from head to toe, frozen- he flies away from her and is like hey I’m gonna go get coffee want some ?? Hazelnut ?? Ok u got it!! And marches right out the door in his pajamas. He almost shuts the door but pokes his head back in, half his face shamefully covered by the door and whispers “I’m so sorry.” Eerie snorts “it’s ok.” He smiles. “It’s a beautiful dress.” “Thank you :)” “:)” and then he runs away to get coffee and sneakily eavesdrops on some people in his sleep shirt/boxers/socks/bed hair looking VERY inconspicuous in this 5 star hotel
