Its crazy how wrong you can be about a person…

You are everything I thought you never were!

If you woke up tomorrow and found out that I had killed myself, would you even care?

And here I am again.. Just thinking how to survive this hell called Love.

Why would they? Its just me right?

Seeing my scars fade is one of the biggest triggers of my life

You cut because you‘re angry, depressed, sad, frustrated and desperate

but then

you start cutting even without a reason you only want to feel the pain, see the blood and to have a scar

omg i just found out why my ex best friends dropped me! it’s because i was being too “negative” all the time (aka depressed and literally suicidal) and she didn’t want to deal with me! because it’s not her responsibility! (her exact words btw) But when she was “depressed” i would talk with her for 2+ hours on the phone to make her feel better. the other one dropped me because me and my family “treated her like a pet” ???? what does that even mean. does she mean when we drove to her house at 10 at night to pick her up because she was having a panic attack? or does she mean the trip i took her on for my birthday? maybe she means when we took care of her for a week when my mom cleaned up her dogs shit and piss all over the floor. It’s like i treat people with the utmost respect and love. then they treat me like i’m some disgusting freak of nature. :P