#notproforanyonejustforme
HIT MY SECOND GW LETS GOOOOOO
omg i just found out why my ex best friends dropped me! it’s because i was being too “negative” all the time (aka depressed and literally suicidal) and she didn’t want to deal with me! because it’s not her responsibility! (her exact words btw) But when she was “depressed” i would talk with her for 2+ hours on the phone to make her feel better. the other one dropped me because me and my family “treated her like a pet” ???? what does that even mean. does she mean when we drove to her house at 10 at night to pick her up because she was having a panic attack? or does she mean the trip i took her on for my birthday? maybe she means when we took care of her for a week when my mom cleaned up her dogs shit and piss all over the floor. It’s like i treat people with the utmost respect and love. then they treat me like i’m some disgusting freak of nature. :P
just asked my guy friend if he wants to hang out with me for the first time (as friends) and he said “ew never” he knows i have no other friends. not gonna eat for the next 3 days. that shit burned. i’m not even attracted to him or anything. i’m just that repulsive i assume.
everything is going downhill lmao
that includes my weight
(not me lmao)
To the bone left me wondering…how many calories in boogers?
Turns out they are 25 cals in half a cup. Yum. (jk ofc)
some thinsp0 <3
some shitty ED memes <3
☆.｡.:* Low calorie fruits and their properties .｡.:*☆
Ps: please don’t read if you’re easily triggered.
★ Strawberries (53 cals per cup) : great source of vitamin C. High water percentage and fibre, therefore they won’t cause a big spike on blood sugar levels.
★ Peaches (60 cals per cup) : great amount of antioxidants, therefore aiding your body against disease. They aid digestion because of its fiber content. Finally, peaches have been shown to reduce allergy symptoms,
★ Grapefruit (74 cals per cup) : Because of its high vitamin C & A content it boosts your inmune system. Aids weight management,
★ Raspberries (64 cals per cup) : This fruit, my favorite out of the list, has an amazing amount of nutrients (all of this are measured by cup) ; 8 grams of fiber, 54% of the daily vitamin C intake and 41% of your daily Magnesium intake.
All of my sources for further info:
https://www.myfooddata.com/articles/low-calorie-fruits.php
https://www.healthline.com/nutrition/peach-fruit-benefits#TOC_TITLE_HDR_7
https://www.healthline.com/nutrition/foods/strawberries#benefits
https://www.webmd.com/food-recipes/health-benefits-grapefruit#1
https://www.healthline.com/nutrition/raspberry-nutrition#nutrition
I hope this helps, stay safe, ily.
☆.。.:* Things to do instead of eating .。.:*☆
Ps: this is to avoid binges, please don’t read if you’re easily triggered.
★ Reading.
★ Paint your nails.
★ Bake something for someone.
★ Go for a walk.
★ Go shopping.
★ Play a videogame.
★ Clean your room.
★ Cleo your closet.
★ Donate old stuff.
★ Watch mukbangs.
★ Dance.
★ Do your makeup, take some selfies.
★ Wash your dishes, clothes etc.
★ Take a nice bath.
★ Try a new hairstyle.
★ FaceTime a friend.
★ Take a nap if you’re tired.
★ Finish up some homework.
I hope this helps, stay safe, ily.
call me eli the way i approximate the amount of calories in a meal
i’ve tried venting to my bf but yeah nevermind, tumblr will do the trick for now n 4ever
i b mad when workout burn but i cry when they don’t
my bf was genuinely the only thing holding me back from relapsing from this ED but oh well!!!! ramadan is soon anyways i can easily hide it
i honestly thought the abc diet was randomly named that and had no other meaning behind it for so long
my bf asked for my weight n when i asked why he basically said it was to use me as f@@tsp0000 i’m so done
today has all been about the way i look and EDs in everyone and every1 worrying for some1 that isn’t me i’m so tired why can’t i ever reach for help im at my serious limit i hate this so much i know i don’t show signs iknow it’s my fault it always is why am i always like this why can’t i be normal why why why why can’t i b a good s/o whag is wrong w me i’m genuinely so close to killing mshelf there’s always something wrong w me
man i wanna die
when i’m at my best i say : i fucking hate this illness!!!!!
when i’m at my worse i say : I HAVENT EATEN IN 48HOURS WOOOHOOOOOOO
happy ( well more unhappy ) 1y to me developing my 3rd ED
i started getting acne all over my chin like rlly bad acne so i started overdrinking again n now i relapsed
my life is a never ending cycle of
relapse —> pass out —> stop caring —> relapse again
woahhhhh huge urge to kms all of a sudden
CAUSE IM ANOREXIC MY GUY WHY ELSE LMFAOOOO
never ending cycle
IM GONNA KILL MYSELFFFFFFF YEAH YEAHHHHHY
anorexia made me crazy but the bones r worth it
when i wanna cry i just go on tumblr and look at my collarbone n then all of a sudden everything’s alright
i’m going to kill myself ( affirmation )
i love cassie cause she’s JUST LIKE ME, likes yes girl i have anorexia n self murder thoughts too n go for horrible ppl too n want to run away to nyc too like yassss
having anorexia is so funny like ur telling me when im at my **technical** worst im having the most fun ever cause im skinny? like yes ik im doing technically HORRIBLE rn but im having fun at the same time
