If You Can’t Hang - Sleeping With Sirens

Maybe… The reason why it’s hard to let go of the past

Is that we can’t see our future.

cause we’re the masters of our own fate we’re the captains of our own souls 

My head is so full.

fuzzy duck… ducky fuzz

does he fuck? fuck he does

Lost in this moment

I felt someone

Touch my heart

But I’m not good with faces

I wouldnt know who you are

I’ve seen a hundred people a day

For the last year

So I’ll lose my mind

Trying to figure out

Where I know you from

And I’m not good with direction

Hand me a map

And I’ll lose myself

With no recollection

Of where I’ve been

I’m lost in myself

Stuck in my head

How could I love someone else

When my heart is broken

I am lost

And I dont know where you’ve gone

But I’ll miss you today

And I’ll miss you till dawn

Wherever have you gone

I’ve never felt as alone

As when I’ve found someone to love

I never buy ornaments

I’m not one for gold

And I’m not one to buy diamonds

But I added you to my collection

Of things I dont mind remembering

And I’ll never forget the end

- nail-in-the-wall ~ © ~ [14/9/19] (Just a thing I wrote whilst listening to a sad song.)

The Ghost of Past Love is haunting me…

I held something perfect

It was all I knew to be worth it

Then it fell from my hands

And I broke it

I loved someone

Till I lost them

To the bad parts of myself

How could I hurt you?

I never meant to

I only wanted to love you

Look what you made me do

I dropped you

Like I forgot you

But I was the one who fell

Truly, madly, deeply

In love with you

Why didnt I tell you

Before I ruined you

I will never understand

These things that I do

When I fall for someone

Like you

But lose myself

In spaces where I’m not with you

- nail-in-the-wall ~ © ~ [12/9/19] (Just wrote a lil something for no reason.)

My life is going right

I don’t have complaints

Things have gotten brighter

Compared to how dark it was back then

Yet I can’t bring myself to feel happy

Instead I find myself saying

“I don’t deserve this. I don’t deserve happiness”

I don’t want to feel like this

I want to feel like everything is okay

That I’m okay

That I deserve this

But my mind goes to thinking

“Should I let you go so you can find better?”

I don’t want to

I want to be with you

I want to be with my friends

I have this feeling that I don’t deserve you or them

I don’t know what to do

I’m stuck in this loop

This constant back and forth

I’m up

I’m down

I’m happy

I’m sad

I feel the darkness trying to consume me

Trying to claim me back as it’s own

I can’t go back

I don’t want to go back

Someone

Anyone

Save me from what’s inside

-D.S.

5/8/2018