#trans ana
As someone who’s been overweight their whole life. And as someone who’s belly stuck out always, making me seem like I was as round as I was wide…
seeing my belly look flatter in the morning feels.. wrong.
I don’t know if its dysphoria (because I have limited experience with this) because my hips look wider when my stomach looks smaller. But it feels so so strange.
aaaaand then I put clothes on and suddenly everything feels fine, so maybe I just don’t like seeing my body. WOOO
throw back to that time in grade 9 in physics class our teacher wanted to do an experiment where everyone in the class had to weigh themselves infront of everyone and i was determined as hell to leave so i faked a back injury and convinced the nurse to let me stay in the sick bay for the rest of the day
todays log:
today was kind of a failed restriction day for me :( not a binge but did over eat
7 or 8 buttermilk rusks
soy hot chocolate
2 hotdogs and one vienna
gonna go cry now
todays log:
7:30 pm fish and chips with the rents
it felt like alot but im making the conscious decision to resist the urge to binge
stay safe yall ❤️
