#ana mood
I swear all my body fat is stored in my absolute DUMP TRUCK of an ass
Sup bitches, I’m back to give y’all a reminder that most of the people who are like “oh I only eat 500cal a day and never binge uwu” are lying. :)
I saved up my calories to purchase dinner at my work, because I work until 1am and I’m a slut for chicken nuggets.
Ate half and now I just,, don’t want the rest??
On one hand damn this is cool and it’s never happened before cause, again, nugget slut.
On the other I’m kinda salty cause I paid for them and am tight on money LMAO
As someone who’s been overweight their whole life. And as someone who’s belly stuck out always, making me seem like I was as round as I was wide…
seeing my belly look flatter in the morning feels.. wrong.
I don’t know if its dysphoria (because I have limited experience with this) because my hips look wider when my stomach looks smaller. But it feels so so strange.
aaaaand then I put clothes on and suddenly everything feels fine, so maybe I just don’t like seeing my body. WOOO
Ensure shakes are a godsend I SWEAR. They fill me right up and taste so damn good
Y’all please help I have some group chat invites but I’m new to tumblr and I don’t know where to find/accept them???
Aaaaahhhhhh pls help I wanna meet you guys
Great news everybody! I’m officially back on my BS!!
Me wanting to meet people who share my struggles irl? Wanting to give hugs to each and every person I meet on this website? Wanting to form real life connections with people? Heck yeah!
Needing to actually tell people a physical location that would be anywhere near me so we could actually meet? my paranoid ass says heck nO
The amount of support for a sort of “stuff I’ve learned in therapy” series was overwhelming! I’m excited to share this experience with you all and I hope it can help every one of use feel a little bit better about something <3
I’m trying to find ways of making these posts more accessible and easier for people to find, but I’m still a bit new to tumblr. So if you have any ideas please let me know! (I was thinking about tags but I wasn’t sure how to make that work )
Please stay safe everyone! Much love
-Lydle
Would y’all be interested in me posting some of the stuff I learn from therapy? I know a lot of us don’t have access to this kinda stuff and I’m a big advocate for talk therapy in certain situations. It’s helped me learn about myself and it’s made life easier to get through.
I just started up therapy again and my therapist is really damn good. I had my second session today and had THREE “Aw shit that’s why my brain does the thing” moments. It’s been v nice.
If you think that’s be something you’d want to show up on your dash like, once a week then interact or drop a like on this post❤️
Bit of a vent
My partner is smaller than me in every way. He is shorter, and lighter. And I’m constantly jealous.
He has never managed to get above “underweight”. I have never been below “overweight”
When he gets depressed he loses his appetite. When I get depressed I binge eat like there’s no tomorrow.
His ADHD causes him to forget to eat, but mine doesn’t ever let me forget.
I’m the biggest person he’s ever been with. I’m the only one who’s been taller, and heavier.
He can just eat whatever he wants. He can just forget to go the day without food and get dizzy the following night. I hate him for it.
He’s the love of my life, I don’t know where I’d be without him. We’ve been together for 4 years. But sometimes I can’t help but be jealous of all that he is, and I wish he could know what it’s like to not stand the site of us both standing in front of the same mirror
Yesterday was a horrible binge day, but today I feel fine?
I’m confident and ready to stay on track with my diet. I was sent a bunch of food from my family (including my favorite chocolates) but I decided to keep them and use it to practice portion control???
I’m looking at myself like damn who are they??? Where did this control come from???
Not to flex on you guys but I genuinely don’t taste the difference between regular coke and diet coke. Also off brand cola slaps and helps me to not spend all my savings on pop
Me-happy in recovery
Ed-
When I find out I’m getting a prom and I kinda gave up restricting.
Maybe after my friend relentlessly mentioned how small she is today, just maybe I’ll get back on my restricting schedule.
When the nightmare you had about bingeing was quite the yummy breakfast
Going back between recovery and not recovering is killing me cause I’m getting rid of progress and not fixing my mental health
Me hoping that I don’t feel the binge the next morning
When people start getting concerned and ur no where near your goal weight
hey babes not to be desperate or anything but I wanna have an ana friend/coach bc i wanna be skinni
My stats:
Height: 5′2(158cm)
Cw: 138(62kg)
Gw: 115(52kg)
Ugw: 105/100(47/45kg)
pronouns don’t matter to me, call me whatever, btw my name is Lee
I’m not gonna send nudes so don’t bother. I’m a minor but it doesn’t bother me if you aren’t just don’t be creepy. Idc what your stats are so dm me or interact with this post so we can become skinnyyy.
Me plz
When people wanting you to eat makes you want to eat less
Ayo looking for an ana buddy/Ana coach that’s doesn’t mind if I don’t send pics cause I just need motivation. I’m 5’6” sw:145, cw:125, gw:95
I also don’t care whether or not my Ana buddy has the same stats as me
When you take a break from thinspo and go on Instagram and you just see beautiful skinny people
I’m am actually starting to pray for a thigh gap, I just want it so badly. I’m so close but so far
I like waiting a week or two between weighing myself while restricting cause everytime I get such a seratonin rush when I’ve even lost half a pound
When u stop caring about life to the point where you forget you have an eating disorder and then you start caring and you realize the damage that’s been done
Pretending you love food so no one is suspicious
Me being jealous of my friend who has a small waist and loads of people who like her
I hate that I can pinch such a large portion of my fat, I just want it gone
