I was about to binge but i just had two pieces of brownie and stopped when i had at least 5 fast food places, cafes and shops etc around me. (Plus two frozen pizzas in the freezer) I feel guilty for the brownies but at least i stopped and if i fast for 24h i should be fine and not gain hopefully. I’ll try to burn 500 calories today as well. So far i’ve burned 272 so thats a good start (its 2 pm here)
I’m not the happiest about today but could be worse i guess. I couldn’t count properly and my watch died before i got home so i could have burned more calories but idk so i hate it
I didn’t hate today but i think i can always improve. Did not waste calories on hot chocolate like yesterday at least. Also weird fact about me I’m a dairy free vegetarian which makes it quite easy for me to restrict certain things!
I just had a panic attack (and was literally sobbing uncontrollably on the kitchen floor til my parents found me) cause I had planned to have soup and boiled eggs for dinner and I couldn’t find the right spoon and the eggshells didn’t peel off smoothly enough…. Like…Umm wtf…..it’s not that deep babes xo
my mum just hugged me and said ‘I can feel your ribs… I shouldn’t be able to feel your ribs’ which made me happy until I realised there’s such a double standard for me and my sister like my mum would never say that to her and she’s skinnier than me but it’s because she’s always been skinny so they think it’s normal and healthy for her but I’ve always been fat so they think it’s unnatural and unhealthy for me (like yes I know I’ve lost weight in an unhealthy way but it makes me feel like I’ll always be seen as fat by the people who know me)
How hard does it for someone to understand that ED is not just plain and simple as * GO… EAT!“ I will solemnly agree if you can heal a cancer patient with one session of chemotherapy!! This is so annoying! I’m so tired of this explanation cycle! God d*mn it!!
A może nakieruje cie na naszego discorda, gdzie głównie panuje domowa atmosfera, jednak nie brakuje tam ani minimalnie profesjonalizmu i jakichkolwiek zasad.. Doba, te zasady są czysto humanistyczne jak np. Szacunek.. Lecz nie wydaje ci się, by było ci to potrzebne do właśnie tego? Do pokonania przeciwności i do dojścia w końcu do punktu docelowego? Mówię tu o sukcesie. Przyjmiemy cie z otwartymi ramionami.
A może nakieruje cie na naszego discorda any, gdzie głównie panuje domowa atmosfera, jednak nie brakuje tam ani minimalnie profesjonalizmu i jakichkolwiek zasad.. Doba, te zasady są czysto humanistyczne jak np. Szacunek.. Lecz nie wydaje ci się, by było ci to potrzebne do właśnie tego? Do pokonania przeciwności i do dojścia w końcu do punktu docelowego? Mówię tu o sukcesie. Przyjmiemy cie z otwartymi ramionami.
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I got my period. At least that explains the bloat recently.
Also I’m 110.2 now. It’s lower then I’ve been but it hurts knowingly I was 98 before. Oh well, I’m moving on the right direction.
Also being at home is hard. Having to convince everyone that I’m doing so well is difficult. Especially since my mother is being nice. She even let me keep my food separate from the family’s. It eased my mind a little. Still I feel like it’s all gonna be eaten up by other people.
