I woke up earlier than expected today, mum woke me for breakfast because she’s leaving again for tomorrow and we’ll not be seeing her again for the next three weeks. She requested to have breakfast with us, since I don’t really eat and I’m on my third day of Water fasting I only want plain black coffee.
Now I feel a little frustrated because we will be out for lunch later at my grandparent’s place and everybody is there, now I don’t know what to do it’s making me anxious about stuff.
This is a shirt when I was still at the larger size.. Now it is hanging and doesn’t embrace my body anymore the hang gave me a glance at my old self, it looks huge on me.. But a little bit of cringe because I still blame myself on indulging on food before made me realize how fat I was before.. Now I’m far from my starting weight.
Saw this on my screenshot.. God! This is how worst I am, even nuggets terrifies me a lot.. I was a the point on purging after that.. But end up jogging for 2 hours.
How hard does it for someone to understand that ED is not just plain and simple as * GO… EAT!“ I will solemnly agree if you can heal a cancer patient with one session of chemotherapy!! This is so annoying! I’m so tired of this explanation cycle! God d*mn it!!
My anxiety level is so high at the moment, my mum cooked some fried rice and egg with tomatoes. I gave her the illusion that I will finish my food.. THEN… My ED be like: “ NEVER AGAIN… YOU’LL NEVER GAIN AGAIN… GOT THAT?
- I water fasted for more than 15 days now. I tried to lean on the wall because I felt a little sick today and a little dizzy getting up right away. I thimk another 10 days to go before I break my fast??? Then 7 days rest and back to water fasting again, maybe???
NEVER… Yes N-E-V-E-R rely to someone or somebody on the progress that you want to achieve.. Most of the people I know in this community are either Pervert Ana Coach or playing cool ana coach low-key pervert acting like there’s no malice in their system but they are actually after for your body checks while you on the other hand don’t see it in a negative way without even realizing these bastards urge to jerk off..
zjadłem jeszcze banana co daje 1000 kcal nie zamierzam już nic dzisiaj jeść. Byłem na spacerze długim ok. godzinnym i teraz mam zamiar poćwiczyć, mam nadzieje, że u was jest okej i życzę przyjemnego chudnięcia:)
A może nakieruje cie na naszego discorda, gdzie głównie panuje domowa atmosfera, jednak nie brakuje tam ani minimalnie profesjonalizmu i jakichkolwiek zasad.. Doba, te zasady są czysto humanistyczne jak np. Szacunek.. Lecz nie wydaje ci się, by było ci to potrzebne do właśnie tego? Do pokonania przeciwności i do dojścia w końcu do punktu docelowego? Mówię tu o sukcesie. Przyjmiemy cie z otwartymi ramionami.
A może nakieruje cie na naszego discorda, gdzie głównie panuje domowa atmosfera, jednak nie brakuje tam ani minimalnie profesjonalizmu i jakichkolwiek zasad.. Doba, te zasady są czysto humanistyczne jak np. Szacunek.. Lecz nie wydaje ci się, by było ci to potrzebne do właśnie tego? Do pokonania przeciwności i do dojścia w końcu do punktu docelowego? Mówię tu o sukcesie. Przyjmiemy cie z otwartymi ramionami.
A może nakieruje cie na naszego discorda any, gdzie głównie panuje domowa atmosfera, jednak nie brakuje tam ani minimalnie profesjonalizmu i jakichkolwiek zasad.. Doba, te zasady są czysto humanistyczne jak np. Szacunek.. Lecz nie wydaje ci się, by było ci to potrzebne do właśnie tego? Do pokonania przeciwności i do dojścia w końcu do punktu docelowego? Mówię tu o sukcesie. Przyjmiemy cie z otwartymi ramionami.
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the guys who invited me left for the bathroom but they’re just standing there looking at my direction and talking idk if it’s just the paranoia or they’re talking shit behind my back probably both tbh
i also scratched my shoes bc this little bitch who’s like 4'8 tall refused to sit in the middle of the backseat and forced my exactly a foot taller ass to squeeze myself into this tiny space
i mean that’s validating cuz they assumed i’d fit but yeah
when your mild friends invite you to a party after you had one with your wild friends and you inconsiderately say u snorted coke from a strippers’ buttcrack and they look at you like
yesterday was just really though but i’m better now hangover is gone and i finally got adequate amount of sleep
i made breakfast but my kitchen scale is broken so i can only estimate the cals also i’m tryna get that ‘naturally skinny’ mindset that i can be sure i didn’t overeat even without the scale lol
doing some self care right now and a workout then
it’s fall break rn so i gotta slow down a bit
i didn’t lose or gain this month at all which dodn’t happen for a long time so i need to get myself on track again
0. crave attention and human touch like nothing else
1. think that everyone who shows you the tiniest amount of affection is in love with you
2. remember that you’re aromantic and everything romance related makes you highly uncomfortable
3. make elaborate fantasies about people who were kind to you once probably only because they’re decent people
4. feel embarrassed
5. push away everyone who is actually deeply interested in you because they would be disappointed if they actually knew you and you’re ugly and fat naked anyways
i’m gonna try only eating when i’m really hungry instead of at times i set up for myself and not obsessing around it but obviously staying in the low cal range
naturally skinny mindset here i come /lol i feel so delusional/
