#bpd problems
On a roll today
This is 100 percent me lately
Question
Has anyone else who’s borderline also been diagnosed Bipolar? Just when I have one thing figured out life throws me something else.
I am fucking broken.
I do not understand basic communication.
Meeting you was the cruelest thing that ever happened to me.
BPD POST #26
Overspending, overeating, over doing whatever it is to fill the void inside, knowing that it’ll slip through and you’ll feel emptier than you did in the beginning.
Mean Girls
Your bum is attached to the cold, hard plastic seat beneath you
Your eyes are glued to the string in front of you and you hope that one day you’ll become a charm on that string
but until then, your eyes are glued to her.
Your voice changes
You mimic and follow
Your hair is different now
Even the way you walk is different
You reek of some odor that is too floral and fragrant and it makes you stink, but why don’t they?
Pieces of metal hang from your ears.
Congratulations, you’re a charm on that piece of string now!
But you’re a black charm. Not pink.
Hey! At least you’re next to the biggest one right?
No. You’re the only one on the left side. The pink charms are all glued together on the right.
You try to join the other pink charms, hoping they’ll paint you pink like them, but the big charm in the middle blocks you.
The only way to make it to the other side is to come off the string.
But wait, you won’t be apart of the string anymore.
Exactly.
the thing is i’m nobody’s first choice, i’m just a backup plan for when people are bored or lonely. no one is afraid to lose me. nobody cares.
i’m so mentally exhausted, it’s so tiring
just existing
who are you supposed to talk to when you feel like shit and you have no one lmao
anyone know any good distraction techniques for when your mood is low?
why do people always abandon me? :(
i’m so alone & it makes life so miserable :/
imagine having normal, fluid, multifaceted emotions and not going for a turbulent rollercoaster ride of earth shattering excruciating devastation and completely deprived self-encasing emptiness
my two moods are:
“sex is gross pls dont ever touch me”
“suck my COCKiness lick my PUSSuasion”
being treated right feels so???? unfamiliar????
