total was 776 today not mad !

time to make another new impossible diet plan for myself even tho i know i probably won’t stick to it for more than 2 days lmao

also i wasn’t planning on restricting much today i was just busy

my goal is gonna be like 900-1200 i think. i wanna eat enough that i don’t binge and i feel like having my limit be higher makes me binge too so ? idk lol

lately i’ve just been switching between “fuck it, i’ll just binge 24/7 and if i get fat i get fat” to “i need to be skinny immediately i’m only allowed to have 10 calories a day” to “i just have to eat a normal amount and eat super healthy foods” and my head hurts :))

hi everyone, i decided i’m actually going to try to recover this time. i’ve started treatment and i actually feel motivated to get better!

if you’re seeing this, please take it as a sign to recover!!!! you deserve it!!!