to all the girls/guys on this app trying to cope with an ed, PLEASE be careful of the people on here that ask to be your “ana coach” and ask for body checks because they fetishize eds. 

ily stay safe <3

not me trying to convince myself that I like my coffee black..

Its really sweet of her.. I just hate having to make up a new lie every time she asks and it gives me anxiety that she’s going to find out. 

If anyone needed motivation to drink water

Today was the first time I saw my boyfriend since he has to quarantine for Covid.

I lost 15 pounds in those two weeks and I thought he wouldn’t notice but he’s called me tiny like 6 times and he told me I look skinny

I ate normally today because I didn’t want him to be sus to I’ll just have to work it off when he’s sleeping or something

I’ve just realized I usually relapse at the start of a manic episode so that’s fun lmao

I wish I didn’t feel the need to stop eating the week before my birthday, so that I can eat cake and still feel guilty about it but, here we are

I got my braces wire tightened today cause, my orthodontist opened and, am I gonna use it as an excuse not to eat? You fuckin bet!!

i’m so hungry

i’ve been fasting since sunday and today i woke up 3.8 pounds lighter and i’m really happy about it but i’m going to my dads tomorrow instead of sunday like i usually do so i’m really scared to gain everything back

my mom bought a bunch of junk food but she also bought a bunch of safe foods and that really made me realize its up to me if i want to be skinny or not

i’m at my moms and i’m planning on fasting all week wish me luck lmao

I could’ve been skinny by now

total was 776 today not mad !

time to make another new impossible diet plan for myself even tho i know i probably won’t stick to it for more than 2 days lmao

also i wasn’t planning on restricting much today i was just busy

my goal is gonna be like 900-1200 i think. i wanna eat enough that i don’t binge and i feel like having my limit be higher makes me binge too so ? idk lol

lately i’ve just been switching between “fuck it, i’ll just binge 24/7 and if i get fat i get fat” to “i need to be skinny immediately i’m only allowed to have 10 calories a day” to “i just have to eat a normal amount and eat super healthy foods” and my head hurts :))

hi everyone, i decided i’m actually going to try to recover this time. i’ve started treatment and i actually feel motivated to get better!

if you’re seeing this, please take it as a sign to recover!!!! you deserve it!!!

i was so sick today from having a migraine that wouldn’t go away and barely ate and (unintentionally) threw everything up i lowkey wish i could weigh myself in the morning

i got weighed for part of an assessment at the ed clinic but they wouldn’t let me see it :(