getting everything physical except weight loss

squatting while trying to force myself to poo is not where I saw myself at 24 tbh

my friends at work are now no longer speaking to me over my notice but like they’re short staffed so like I ain’t really sure how cutting me out is going to make me want to stay when they know the reason why is my ED especially

feel like food is the only thing I’ve got control over rn and I can’t even starve myself correctly lmao

anyone else just like take mega long baths to avoid eating?? my housemate must think I’m a fucking fish

my work are so supportive in getting me help and then I’m just like lol no x

I’ve got work in 43 minutes and I’m in a vegan low calorie wormhole lol

ngl not eating after 7pm is working wonders for me atm x

moved in with my friend and there’s something rlly satisfying about declining food when they offer it

POV: u get invited to something but it will mess with your set eating times/ fast/ weekly binge and purge x

gonna treat myself to so many clothes when I go down a size - don’t think my bank account is ready

just asked my guy friend if he wants to hang out with me for the first time (as friends) and he said “ew never” he knows i have no other friends. not gonna eat for the next 3 days. that shit burned. i’m not even attracted to him or anything. i’m just that repulsive i assume.

Okay you guys, my timeline be dead asf for some reason (maybe some of y’all got term or something). If you’re and ed account follow me or like this post so I can follow you.

I am wayyyyy too insecure to post body checks but for any one curious about my progress, here’s a before and after of my face.

208lbs v.s 138lbs

I am nowhere near where I want to be but before and after helps me to stay motivated

If you’re opposed to saving bodychecks but regularly save thinspo without knowing where it came from… boy do I have news for you

Anyone else get triggered/jealous of their among us character body stats?

Like she’s 92 pounds? And for what? What’s her secret?

Drawing thinspo is my new favorite past time

Ariana-spo ‼

me drinking diet ginger ale because every time i drink it it makes me throw up so we’ll see i guess ✌✌

please don’t dm me anything anything gross. i am still a minor and it’s extremely disturbing when i’m getting dms about my by body in a sexual manner.

bruh when you realize that normal people can just …

0 cal broth

(ok it’s probably like .5-1 calories but…)

ok so i get a bowl of hot water maybe ½-¾ a cup of water.

then get you some tajin (7 cals per tsp)- you don’t need too much, maybe like 1/8 tsp

then *i know most people don’t have this but they sell it for pretty cheap on walmart or online* jalapeño salt(0 cals) and really sprinkle that shit in there

it’s not too flavorful or anything but if you are fasting/ feeling like bingeing it is really good :)

you can also add garlic powder, hot sauce(make sure it’s zero cal) or other spices too.

I want to look like this so thin and perfect I aspire to be this, I hate every pound of my body the way my thighs touch, the way my stomach looks everything! I want to rip all the fat of my body and be skin and bone. 86 pounds would be perfect. i won’t feel my thighs touch and I’ll feel so light and free.

Legitimately thinking of picking up vaping or smoking because I heard it suppresses your appetite.. this is a new low lmfaooo

Currently really not loving my life lol but my birthday is in a couple of days and I don’t wanna die before my birthday ya know also I just want to be at school again so I can stop eating lunch at my dads but I really don’t wanna go back to school lmao

total was 776 today not mad !

time to make another new impossible diet plan for myself even tho i know i probably won’t stick to it for more than 2 days lmao

also i wasn’t planning on restricting much today i was just busy

my goal is gonna be like 900-1200 i think. i wanna eat enough that i don’t binge and i feel like having my limit be higher makes me binge too so ? idk lol