getting everything physical except weight loss

squatting while trying to force myself to poo is not where I saw myself at 24 tbh

my friends at work are now no longer speaking to me over my notice but like they’re short staffed so like I ain’t really sure how cutting me out is going to make me want to stay when they know the reason why is my ED especially

feel like food is the only thing I’ve got control over rn and I can’t even starve myself correctly lmao

anyone else just like take mega long baths to avoid eating?? my housemate must think I’m a fucking fish

my work are so supportive in getting me help and then I’m just like lol no x

I’ve got work in 43 minutes and I’m in a vegan low calorie wormhole lol

ngl not eating after 7pm is working wonders for me atm x

moved in with my friend and there’s something rlly satisfying about declining food when they offer it

POV: u get invited to something but it will mess with your set eating times/ fast/ weekly binge and purge x

gonna treat myself to so many clothes when I go down a size - don’t think my bank account is ready

Its gross but its interesting :/

Measuring health by weight is total ass but I dont have one of those things that measures your body fat %

Weight sucks lol I just wanna look skinny and attractive, that’s all.

my body isn’t even

my left upper arm is 1 inch larger than my right

my right thigh is 1 inch larger than my left

I don’t know why this is, and it’s hard to come to terms with. especially when clothes don’t fit right. also??? why is it not that one side of my body is bigger than the other?? what’s up with this weird criss cross ?? hello??

gotta just remember that it’s a thing that happens sometimes. I just hope I even out at least a little bit in the end (cause im tired of my SLEEVES ONLY FITTING ONE ARM AHHH)

so hey if you’re in the same (or similar) boat as me and struggling, I hope that knowing there’s others out there helps.

…..I’m also sending good vibes your way and they can’t be stopped

>:) <3 :0

me —-> you

If I see ONE MORE OF YOU posting pictures of fresh sh c*ts without a TW or CW I’m going to LOSE MY SHIT.

Especially if you’re posting it under ED tags, like, dude, what the actual fuck?

ALSO IM JUST GONNA SAY IT.

Slapping a tw UNDER A PICTURE IS NOT ENOUGH!

USING A TW FOR A PICTURE BUT THEN NOT ADDING THE “read more” OPTION IS NOT ENOUGH.

Seriously, I’m so tired of seeing stuff like this. You can’t choose to just not see a picture if it’s something you’re scrolling past. I love you guys but fuck you if you do this.

Well back at school and already relapsing, maybe if this school wasn’t filled with the skinniest boys I’ve seen, but oh well zero is already back on my phone

The world must be telling me to starve myself, my school was selling these really good sandwiches and literally as I got to the front of the line they run out. All they had was low cal fruit water and mini rice cakes

That bot really be trying to make me feel better, like ha imma feel better when my thigh dont triple in size when I sit down

Tricked my parents into buying me some monster energy by telling them I need them so i can stay awake after school

Imagine having a panic attack because you cant get to the last beltloop, couldn’t be me

Took me this long th realise that my mother, “wanting the best for me” was really just fat shaming, who knew