#getting thinner

Kendall Jenner is SIMPLY ethereal!!!

Ariana-spo ‼

I WILL reach my next goal weight in a timely manner

I’ve just realized I usually relapse at the start of a manic episode so that’s fun lmao

I was just reading the can of my monster and it says to not drink it to replace food and to not to have more than one a day so that’s not good

Legitimately thinking of picking up vaping or smoking because I heard it suppresses your appetite.. this is a new low lmfaooo

I got my braces wire tightened today cause, my orthodontist opened and, am I gonna use it as an excuse not to eat? You fuckin bet!!

Forgot to log today but, I just had a couple veggie sushi’s and an iced coffee about 560 cals total anyway to the point of this posts lmao, does anybody else kinda want to go to the hospital or a psych ward cause, you could leave all your responsibilities and get away from your life or, am I just crazy???

Yesterday I ended up consuming a “normal” amount of calories and, same with today and I feel so awful yay so I’m gonna try to fast for 45 and half hours (very specific ik lmao) or more before I go to my dads and, I’m going to try to stay in my cal limit at my dads all week even though it’s really hard but, I lost 4.9 pounds this week (probably just water weight) and I’m planning to keep it off I don’t want it back Lmaoo and on another note my friend keeps unintentionally triggering me because, she has an ED and she’s trying to recover but, she keeps calling herself fat and, talking about weight gain and, weight loss and, restriction and, all that which makes me really insecure cause if she thinks she’s fat I’m a fucking whale compared to her so, I feel shitty lol.

I feel like an awful person rn cause my friend is in recovery for anorexia and it’s making me want to lose a lot of weight before the next time i see her so she’ll be recovered and I’ll be the skinny one and that is the shittiest thing I’ve ever thought of and I feel so awful about it but it’s just me ED talking I guess :(

I forgot to log the past two days so, on Wednesday I had a small bowl of cinnamon toast crunch and a splash of milk for 203 calories and then, I had tuna for supper for 154 calories and then, half a cup of ice cream for dessert 160 calories and then today, or I guess it’s yesterday now lol, I binged on mostly cinnamon toast crunch and oatmeal cookies with Pb and it came to around 2690 cals. Today my moms making me go out for supper so, I’m gonna try to find the least calorific thing on the menu cause the last two days I ate so shitty lol and then, the next two days after that I’m gonna try to fast.

i’m gonna start putting my cw and how much i need to lose on all of my posts to keep me motivated so CW: 119.6 9.6 to GW

i had to stay at my dads for an extra weekend and somehow i still maintained so i’m gonna try not to eat again this week and hopefully drop 5 pounds

what time is it where you live i’m curious lol

i’m so hungry

i had coffee, diet coke, and an energy drink today on an empty stomach cause i forgot i bought a drink so i was like hmm i should buy a drink and i did it twice and now i’m super paranoid cause i’ve had three caffeinated beverages on an empty stomach in one day lmao fuck

i’m at my moms and i’m planning on fasting all week wish me luck lmao

i just want to be thin

total was 776 today not mad !

time to make another new impossible diet plan for myself even tho i know i probably won’t stick to it for more than 2 days lmao

also i wasn’t planning on restricting much today i was just busy

my goal is gonna be like 900-1200 i think. i wanna eat enough that i don’t binge and i feel like having my limit be higher makes me binge too so ? idk lol

ok starting tomorrow i’m getting skinny again