#ptsd survivor

Yes I am angry. I’m furious. How dare you take my whole life away from me the way you did. For years I beat myself up about it; thinking all this was my fault. But its not and it never was. Its yours and it always will be. And guess what? 5 years on and I’M STILL GAY. So yeah that thing you were trying to prove? Proved absolutely nothing. I’m now 18 years old, I still struggle to sleep some nights, I still remember your face clearly, and sometimes I don’t think I can do this. But you know what? I can do this and I will. Not just for me, but to prove to you that I can survive all the pain, hurt and confusion you put me through. And I will say this loud and clear because I’m not afraid of you anymore, you can’t hurt me. I am a survivor, not a victim and I will conquer this fight and come out so much stronger