#gaslighting
Biden did that!
Biden is forcing us into the Twilight Zone
I don’t know who needs to hear this, but please, please,pleasedo not use the term “gaslighting” in political debates or discussion. It doesn’t belong there, and using it in that context is doing real harm to abuse survivors.
Gaslighting is when an abuser attempts to make their victim question their own sense of reality through denial or fabrication. A parent telling their child, “No, I never sat you down and yelled at you for an hour because you didn’t take out the trash. Why would you even accuse me of something like that?” That’s gaslighting. One partner using emotional manipulation and vague claims to convince another that having a single beer after dinner is evidence of a drinking problem? That’s gaslighting. Someone countering your political opinions? A politician saying something you disagree with? Not gaslighting.
I get that things are contentious right now. I understand a lot of people are angry about a lot of things. But the word “gaslighting” is important to abuse survivors. It’s a powerful term, and the only one that adequately describes the mental agony of having someone try and rewrite your reality, of having them attack your own sense of self to try and make you depend on them to define what you remember and what you don’t, of wondering if the horrible things you remember even happened. When you take the word “gaslighting” and fling it around your political arguments, you cheapen it. You water it down. You turn it into just another buzzword used to shut people down on Twitter, to win a debate that is utterly meaningless by any estimation. (Hate to break it to you, but it’s true. Social media debates don’t change anyone’s mind and, according to most counts, have only ever succeeded in making everyone angry.)
When survivors, still in that fragile questioning phase where they don’t know if they deserve to use the word abusejust yet, see gaslighting used so casually, they’ll assume that what happened to them was no more horrific than one person disagreeing with another on social media. What’s worse, their abusers can now accuse them of gaslighting for something as simple as challenging their false version of events.
I won’t be hearing arguments on this. No “but it IS gaslighting because….” No “but when my parents argue with me, it feels like gaslighting.” Your feelings do not define a word. That word does not belong to you. Leave it alone.
this post hasn’t left my mind since i’ve first saw it
people jest but this is literally how i worked out i was gaslit for like 15 years of my life
A lot of the justification for the current system sure sounds like things an abusive parent or partner would say.
“Look at all I’ve done for you”
“This is how it has to be”
“Only I’m smart enough to understand”
“I will hurt if you leave”
hi. if you’re a young person or teenager who happens to be following me: write it down! keep a secret diary, a notepad, a blog your parents don’t have access to. write it down. keep a record somehow.
when i was a little kid and both my dad & i were being actively abused by my mom, he was familiar enough w her gaslighting that he instructed me at elementary school age to write down all the horrible things she did/said to me. it would be useful in court when custody was being argued and it would be useful to ME, years later, when my mom would try and convince me none of it happened. i had the proof, often word for word, that it did–and there was no hope in convincing my mom but a lot of hope in convincing myself and holding my stance against her. it was pivotal to advocating for myself and my feelings and eventually leaving her in my dust!
write it down!!! it’s so frustrating to have to deal with this bullshit, whether your parents are outright abusive or just fucking toxic/dysfunctional assholes. but you can do something for yourself and your mental health and that something is writing it down.
Protect brown girls who are told they’re overreacting or being sensitive or acting crazy if they express hurt, confusion, anger, a desire for accountability, or other negative reactions.
Protect brown girls whose families shout at them, insult them, ignore them, curse them, and then turn around an hour later and pretend nothing ever happened.
Protect brown girls who are accused by their own family of gaslighting, blackmailing, or being abusive themselves when they’re simply trying to voice their feelings.
Protect brown girls who feel like they can’t trust their own memories and emotions because they’ve been told so often that they’re simply wrong, or that they must be lying.
Protect brown girls who no longer feel safe or comfortable being authentic, expressing their emotions freely, and asking for what they need from their family because they know they won’t be listened to. Protect brown girls who feel guilty for experiencing this discomfort, or for having emotional needs in the first place.
It’s so difficult to reconcile how your family who purport to love you could simultaneously put you through so much pain. Please know that you are not wrong for having emotional needs, for wanting to be heard, for wanting accountability from your family, for seeking help from the people who you’ve been told your whole life can be trusted to help you. I encourage you to seek emotional support from other sources, and I encourage you to keep a record of your own experiences to look back upon and reassure yourself that your memories, your emotions, were real. I wish you luck in finding a support network and resources that can help you heal.
There are people who like to make others feel worthless. Some of them use the language of social justice to get away with it.
Often, this comes in the form of proclaiming to hate allies and then demanding unbounded deference from allies. This is typically conflated with accountability, but it’s not the same thing at all.
Hatred and accountability are different things. Accountability as an ally means, among other things:
- Listening to the people you’re trying to support instead of talking over them.
- Making good-faith efforts to understand the issues involved and to act on what you learn.
- Understanding that you’re going to make big mistakes, and that sometimes people you’re trying to support will be justifiably angry with you.
- Accepting that your privilege and power matter, not expecting others to overlook either, and taking responsibility for how you use both.
- Facing things that are uncomfortable to think about, and handling your own feelings about them rather than dumping on marginalized people.
- Being careful about exploitation and reciprocity, including paying people for their time when you’re asking them to do work for you.
- Understanding that marginalized people have good reason to be cautious about trusting you, and refraining from demanding trust on the grounds that you see yourself as on their side.
When people use the language of social justice to make others feel worthless, it’s more like this:
- Telling allies explicitly or implicitly, that they are worthless and harming others by existing.
- Expecting allies to constantly prove that they’re not terrible people, even when they’ve been involved with the community for years and have a long track record of trustworthiness.
- Berating allies about how terrible allies are, in ways that have no connection to their actual actions or their actual attitudes.
- Giving people instructions that are self-contradictory or impossible to act on, then berating them for not following them.
- Eg: Saying “Go f**ing google it” about things that are not actually possible to google in a meaningful way
- Eg: saying “ shut up and listen to marginalized people” about issues that significant organized groups of marginalized people disagree about. https://www.realsocialskills.org/blog/the-rules-about-responding-to-call-outs-arent
- Eg: Simultaneously telling allies that they need to speak up about an issue and that they need to shut up about the same issue. Putting them in a position in which if they speak or write about something, they will be seen as taking up space that belongs to marginalized people, and if they don’t, they will be seen as making marginalized people do all the work.
- Giving allies instructions, then berating them for following them:
- Eg: Inviting allies to ask questions about good allyship, then telling them off for centering themselves whenever they actually ask relevant questions.
- Eg: Teaching a workshop on oppression or a related issue, and saying “it’s not my job to educate you” to invited workshop participants who ask questions that people uninformed about the issue typically can be expected to ask.
- More generally speaking: setting things up so that no matter what an ally does, it will be seen as a morally corrupt act of oppression.
Holding allies accountable means insisting that they do the right thing. Ally hate undermines accountability by saying that it’s inherently impossible for allies to do anything right. If we want to hold people accountable in a meaningful, we have to believe that accountability is possible.
Someone who believes that it’s impossible for allies to do anything right isn’t going to be able to hold you accountable. If someone has no allies who they respect, you’re probably not going to be their exception — they will almost certainly end up hating you too. If someone demands that you assume you’re worthless and prove your worth in an ongoing way, working with them is unlikely to end well.
If you want to hold yourself accountable, you need to develop good judgement about who to listen to and who to collaborate with. Part of that is learning to be receptive to criticism from people who want you to do the right thing, even when the criticism is hard to hear. Another part is learning to be wary of people who see you as a revenge object and want you to hate yourself. You will encounter both attitudes frequently, and it’s important to learn to tell the difference. Self-hatred isn’t accountability.
Tl;dr If we want to hold allies accountable in a meaningful, we have to believe that accountability is possible. Hatred of allies makes this much harder.
Your girl serves many purposes, but don’t forget that she can provide a great deal of personal amusement.
One such form of entertainment is gaslighting. By making her question her own memories and even her sanity, she’ll keep you entertained for hours.
Make sure you’ve both signed a consent agreement before you do it to her, but by gaslighting her until she thinks she might be losing her mind, you’ll find she bends more easily to your will and is more interesting to be around.
-VIS
Devotional Training: Most effective and entertaining.
The homophobes be calling the LGBTQ+ community entitled meanwhile we’re over here asking the sea double you to please acknowledge our existence without senselessly slaughtering us in their representation only to be consistently exploited for profit and then ignored. It’s not okay.
Good girls know…
How much fun it is to gaslight your friends
“You should go blonde!”
“Stop being so shy around guys!”
“It’s ok, it’s just us girls here!”
She’ll be happier once she accepts it.
hi. if you’re a young person or teenager who happens to be following me: write it down! keep a secret diary, a notepad, a blog your parents don’t have access to. write it down. keep a record somehow.
when i was a little kid and both my dad & i were being actively abused by my mom, he was familiar enough w her gaslighting that he instructed me at elementary school age to write down all the horrible things she did/said to me. it would be useful in court when custody was being argued and it would be useful to ME, years later, when my mom would try and convince me none of it happened. i had the proof, often word for word, that it did–and there was no hope in convincing my mom but a lot of hope in convincing myself and holding my stance against her. it was pivotal to advocating for myself and my feelings and eventually leaving her in my dust!
write it down!!! it’s so frustrating to have to deal with this bullshit, whether your parents are outright abusive or just fucking toxic/dysfunctional assholes. but you can do something for yourself and your mental health and that something is writing it down.
Yeah bury it in a box in the woods and write in it once a month if you have to, but write that shit down. I wish to fuck I had.
[Image caption for original post: bus on a road by a cliff meme, with the sad guy facing the cliff labeled “people remembering their childhoods”, and the cheery guy facing the open view labeled “their moms being like ‘that’s not how I remember it’.” End caption.]
You were born with the ability to see a person’s true form. You didn’t really think much of this, until middle school when all of the demons and dragons were missing from the Biology Textbooks. Maybe this explains why calling Mrs Miggins a Demon got you sent to detention…
Eliza had known for as long as she could remember that you weren’t supposed to describe people how they actually looked. It was one of those deep, half unconscious social rules, like wearing clothes in polite company.
Her parents only seemed to think it was a little rude. If she talked about scales and wings on Mr. Wilmington next door, they laughed indulgently, signalling she’d said something wrong but delightful.
She watched and listened, and learned that polite adults all somehow memorized a specific description for each person. She wasn’t sure how they learned it so quickly, and always got it right. When Eliza invented her own fake description for someone, others always knew she’d gotten it wrong.
She did her best to memorize the lies like everyone else did. It was harder than learning people’s names. Usually, she preferred to tell the truth instead of messing up on the lie.
It wasn’t until first grade that she learned how taboo that kind of honesty really was.
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Interlude part 2: Hero Finds Out
CWs:child abuse (whumpee is 16), beating, guilt tripping, emotional whump, emotional abuse, verbal abuse, blood, injuries, gaslighting.
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Sidekick didn’t sleep all night. When the morning sun broke through his window, the anticipation was painful. Any second, now, Hero would go downstairs to find Villain missing. And then what? Would he be able to claim innocence? Would it even matter? He would be in deep trouble, no matter what he did. He watched the minutes tick by on his alarm clock.
5 am.
He got hungry, but didn’t dare to move out of his bed. If he just stayed here, under the blankets, maybe he could delay the inevitable a little longer.6 am.
He tried to remember how kind Hero had been last night. It was just like before Villain arrived. It would be difficult for a moment, but he was sure Hero would calm down eventually.7 am.
He was probably going to have a terrible headache from the serum. Sidekick winced at the poor timing.When he heard Hero scream his name at 8 am, he was flooded with relief and a nauseating fear. There it was.
He curled up tighter under the blankets, shuddering in fright, as he heard Hero storm up the stairs. The bedroom door hit the wall, and he flinched.
“Where the fuck is he?” Hero yelled, still wearing his pyjama and dressing gown. His curls were unstyled, which only made him look more explosive with anger. Sidekick sat up and pretended to wipe sleep from his eyes, like he’d just been startled awake.
“Wh-Hero? What do you mean, where is who?”
Hero’s dark blue eyes were alight with fury. His mouth was a tight line, and he stomped over to where Sidekick sat.
“Don’t you dare play dumb with me,” he hissed. “I can smell the guilt on you, and this is your last chance before I really get angry. Where is he?”
Sidekick held up his hands, and pressed his back against the bedroom wall.
“Please, Hero, I don’t know what you’re talking about! I haven’t done anything, I swear!”
He had to at least try to insist on his innocence. But just like he feared, that only made Hero angrier.
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WHY DO I LOVE GAS LIGHTING SO MUCH!!!
Enjoying Gaslighting
That moment when you notice they’re manipulating you, and you just let the gaslighting happen because if you’d ask for honesty they’d give it to you. They know you’re getting off on it and they’ve made you feel safe to the point where you’re just smiling nodding, letting them mindfuck you into thinking this was all your doing.
And in a way it was.
Because they cared about what you want and what you don’t. You built this together. The thought “Well that’s the gaslighting talking, you dummy” turns from something scary into the most enticing pleasure.
You’re safe and you can stop and they want you to know that.
So that you can just give in and melt <3