“Qui autem civium rationem dicunt habendam, externorum negant, ii dirimunt communem humani generis societatem; qua sublata beneficientia, liberalitas, bonitas, iustitia funditus tollitur.”
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Cicero
Those who claim that we must take care of our own citizens, and ignore foreigners, they break apart the universal harmony of humankind. And once that is gone, kindness, generosity, goodness, and justice are altogether destroyed.
the worst part about reading ancient roman philosophy is that sometimes you’ll read something expressly saying that people shouldn’t do something that you do frequently and it’s like diogenes threw a plucked chicken at you from 2000 years ago
My whole life I’ve struggled to understand why certain loved ones or so called friends didn’t like me, or treated me unfairly. Since I’ve never carried myself in a manner that warranted this kind of response I’ve been left confused for so long. I was left to feel like there was something wrong with me. Why was I affecting so many people so negatively?
It is only now in my adulthood that I’ve come to the realization that I am a MIRROR to these people. I inadvertently reflect their mistakes, and lack of ambition back at them. How? Simple! Since we come from the same place, whenever I level up it proves to you that there are no excuses. You’re confronted with the fact that you could’ve did exactly what I did to get where I’m at. But you didn’t.
The saddest part is I unconditionally love these people, and would give up everything I’ve earned to see every last one of them flourish. I’ve even offered my advice on many occasions, and instead of accepting or declining my advice you’ve chose to slandered me behind my back instead, and told ignorant ears that I act like I’m better than everyone.
That’s why our conversations go stale whenever I express my plans for my life, and exactly how I’m going to execute that plan. That’s why you’re seemingly unhappy with me whenever I’ve made some sort of progress. My dreams are your nightmares.
But you know what? That’s never been my responsibility to bare. That’s all you, and will always be ALL YOU. It’s not my fault that you’ve chosen to remain stagnant for so long. It’s not my fault that you rather run from your challenges instead of taking them head on, and it damn sure isn’t my fault that you seek comfort above all else, even above taking the small but necessary daily steps to changing your circumstances. Like I have.
I’m done acting like I have to be quiet about my accomplishments. I work so fucking hard for everything I have. Every single day of this miserable fucking life. Even when I’m completely depleted of energy I find the strength to get out of my bed, and get to it. And you know what?! I don’t need anyone to be proud of me. I’m proud of my motherfucking-self.
We as people honestly need to let go of that competitive mindset. There are people in better positions than you, and that’s fine. The beautiful thing is you can 100% be happy for someone who has accomplished something you haven’t yet. Likewise you can also be happy for someone who has accomplished something you’ve already did. The only person you should be in competition with is the person you were yesterday.
Life is already a struggle to live. For all of us. It damn sure isn’t getting any better by tripping up the next man. Focus on you, and everything will fall into place. I say what I say with love. Thank you to all who read this. ♥️
Change brings uncomfortable situations. Uncomfortable situations allow you to get to know and understand yourself better. Understanding yourself better brings growth, and with growth, comes healing.
