This was a year ago today. The portrait of Ted (Staffordshire bull terrier) was drawn while I was in day service at Evolve, Hull, for Bulimia Nervosa.
A lot has happened in a year, I am not out of the woods just yet but the progress I’ve made has resulted in my discharge from Evolve and awaiting Psychotherapy.
I want to thank everyone who has supported me and put up with Irrational Bekah over the past several years. And thank you to Sophie for documenting this specific moment in recovery, as it was the first drawing I had made in 8 months.
If you feel your behaviour towards food and your body is taking too much of a toll on your life, speak up if you are ready. There is no shame in your behaviours, just so long as you manage them and they don’t rule you you can be whoever you want to become.
To all those suffering, we need to stick together! All the love and light your way! My inbox is open if you want to talk to a stranger
The trouble with life is that too often things aren’t black and white enough. Nothing is ever just fantastic or terrible, it’s a sickening combination of both and the combination of the two just add up to life feeling… meh.
The easiest way to give an example of something good being mixed with something so bad is the podcast “How I Build This with Guy Raz.”
It goes without saying that whether your Chinese or Wai Guo Ren (foreign) you can’t say just anything you feel like saying while in China.
For as long as I can remember I’ve always lived daily life within a relatively thin bubble of restraint. While on a date for example (unless I’m drunk) I won’t say anything too offensive or too stupid (except a couple times).
Once you’ve moved to your dream city and have fled far away from the sticky confines of where you were born, sometimes it’s easy to get the feeling of entrapment in the full time job you took on to make the move possible in the first place.
Often the jobs we take on aren’t dream jobs, but are gateway jobs to a new life. So when that job starts to eat away all your time and strips chunks off your…
Is it just me or is ground beef the rarest commodity in the entire Middle Kingdom?
When needed I can easily source beef of various forms from any of the large and well stocked Chinese supermarkets surrounding my apartment. I can have it in shanks, steaks, cubes or jelly. I can have the feet, the ears – hell, I could probably have the tail.
But for the love of God why is mince such a rare thing?
I’ve been talking a lot lately about releasing a short e-book detailing my adventures up to this point moving to and living in China. The book isn’t ready yet and I’m beginning to feel impatient. So to remedy this impatience I dusted off an old e-book I wrote years ago about my first gig as a performer for Walt Disney World in Florida. I read it and laughed quite a lot, so I got out the scissors…
Well it’s time for the Chinese New Year Semester break, which means all who work in China get time off to go home, see their families and take it easy.
This week I finished off the last of my classes and for my oldest class we had our end of semester show on the second last day, rather than the last. This meant the final day would just be for games and revelry. Games are never straight forward…
Day 9 is over… And for the first time today (though still sick) I had some energy. I got up and did about 25 minutes of yoga this morning! Which is more activity (other than walking to and from work) than I’ve had since I stated. That was good enough for me. Looking forward to seeing how I feel tomorrow.
Day 6 I woke up from a weird ass dream with an intense head cold, a headache (that I must admit did pass after a few glasses of water) and some crazy diarrhea. TMI? I don’t care. I feel like shit and I’m super glad tomorrow is my day off. It’s interesting though because when we did the half Whole30 (around 2 weeks), I got sick around day 6/7 as well. Maybe it’s my body processing? I don’t know. But what I DO know, is this sucks and that I’m posting this from the toilet. ;)
Another day at the office. In love with Amsterdam! ❤️ #amsterdam #big #city #lights #night #job #working #ams #cactus #morning #coffeetime #office #hq #nolanova
Coffee is the best way to wake up… and Chase your DREAMS! #coffee #milk #chase #your #dreams #new #day #morning #happyday #quote #flower #perfect #working #almostweekend #cold #coldweather #smile (bij Amsterdam, Netherlands)
Note: I headcanon Lord van Zieks as left-handed, so here, I thought, I could show Asogi helping his mentor out with some paperwork after Barok injured his arm in some way.
I love Kazuma in his waistcoat and buttoned shirt. So cute
on a weekend in december 2014 i visited beautiful cologne and the esl tv studios where i designed the trophies during the winter season finals. it was such an exciting, nice, amazing weekend! though i’m not a guy made for a live show… hahaha…
