[only press next if you’re an adult minors do not interact with the bonus chapter]
an:THIS IS 7 MONTHS AFTER THEY GET TOGETHER BTW !! if you guys didn’t get it the title is in reference to jackie (yn’s pfp) wearing a shirt that says ‘I am so a virgin’ in her portrayal as the virgin mary in a christmas episode ha..ha.. anyways the bonus chapter (after this one) is for LEGAL ADULTSONLY -_- I’ll only be tagging blogs that have their age on their blog who I know are adults, making that clear right now !!
genre: fluff, slow burn, romance, slice of life, coming of age, college au
synopsis: you’ve made it clear that it was important he heard what you truly felt towards him, now it’s your turn to hear how important it is to him that you knew how he feels towards you.
an: we’ve reached the end </3 dw, some extra parts will be up
“Beomgyu, where the fuck are they?!” Renjun was past scared at this point. You never missed any of Makeout Creek’s performances yet you still weren’t at the venue when the entire show was almost over.
Not only would your spot be complete shit and make his proposal rather difficult but the off chance that you’d just miss the proposal overall was eating him alive.
“I don’t know! I don’t know, neither she nor Mark are answering their phones. All I knew before coming here was that her parents were angry so they’re probably holding her back.” Beomgyu was just as anxious, biting at his nails while trying not to be weak for your future boyfriend.
Renjun mimicked Beomgyu’s actions and bit at his nails, his eyes showing obvious fright while looking around the venue. In only minutes or at least after two more performers, Renjun and the rest of his friends would go up on stage but with you not even in the picture, it was eating him alive.
As in for you, now all you could do was anxiously lay in bed until your parents called you down. Your brother trying to comfort you by showing you his collection of vending machine stickers. “Do you want me to go spy and listen to what they’re saying to him?” He slowly spoke, still woozy from the anesthetics.
He felt slightly guilty; earlier he had gotten his wisdom teeth taken out and his bratty behavior had taken a toll on their parents. The older pair weren’t used to either of their children throwing tantrums from the lack of spending time with them so having their day ruined by one of them not being able to calm down, made them take it out on you.
Despite you taking care of him the entire break and dealing with the tantrums he throws with you to avoid your parents knowing how he is, you could only take solace on the one day of the week you were allowed to go out. Even the entire day when he didn’t want your parents in the same room or the food they gave him, you came to the rescue, knowing well what he liked and would consume.
It wasn’t enough for them though and when they saw you act peaceful compared to their state while getting ready for tonight’s event they laid it out to you that you wouldn’t be going out at all.
Even when you tried to explain that they had already said yes, that you never missed a performance, and Renjun was finally back in town so you wanted to see him— they still wouldn’t let you go.
That’s when they also noticed you throwing a fit. Your constant placement of your hand over your chest, your nails sinking onto your skin, and you cutting yourself off to not say something vile to your parents. There they agreed that they truly didn’t know their children well.
“No, it’s fine. I’m sure Mark can sweet talk them.” “He’s funny, I wish they would let him come around more often.”
You could only shrug with a sly smile on your lips. It was shameful that your parents never allowed any of the guys to stay for longer than half an hour and if they did, they had to be there. Kenia was the only lucky one to even know how your room looked besides FaceTime calls and pictures.
With a soft knock to your door, he opens it to find Mark making his way inside. “Okay, let’s go.” Motioning with his head, leaving your brother confused as to how he made it that far. “Really?!” Your excitement not noticing your brother’s concerns.
“Yeah, we better hurry before they process that they allowed me to come up to your room.” He smiled, ruffling your brother’s hair. “You’re right, oh my god— You want anything if we stop anywhere?” You asked your brother, gathering your sweater and purse, trying your best to hurry and not miss at least your friends.
He only nodded, gathering his own stuff and going to his room. Once gone, you turned to Mark, surprised that he could make your parent’s mind change. “Dude, what did you say to them?” Through smiles, you made your way down the stairs with him following behind, helping you put on your sweater.
“Don’t worry about it, I always find a way— You should get a jacket too, it’s actually really cold out there.” Agreeing you just grabbed the first jacket on the couch.
Though you didn’t ask questions and let it all be, your parent’s looked from their room window. They didn’t mean to ruin your day so knowing how much it meant for you to keep your streak in the words of Mark along with Renjun’s plan— they changed their minds and allowed you to go.
It was nice to know their daughter was in good hands, how caring your friends were, and the lengths Renjun was going to to profess his love for you. So with just Mark’s sweet words they did it, lifting up whatever restrictions they had.
Mark giving you his jacket after realizing you had taken your brother’s only cementing how you did have people who cared for you.
“Here,” you gave him the jacket in the back seat just so he wouldn’t freeze over either. He took it with a simple thank you, driving off the driveway and to your destination.
Through shaky-shivering voices the both of you conversed, him hearing you complain about your day while he talked about how mild his was.
Nearly to the venue, Mark took a left, parking just right outside a convenience store motioning with his head to follow him.
Though you two were already late and you were scared of missing Chenle and Jisung, you just followed suit not questioning why he decided to stop. Probably because he wanted to get something for your brother.
“I got offered a job by one of my clients.” He smiled your way, his hand reaching for the hotteok packages that read ‘2 for 1’. You smiled at him figuring this was a celebratory snack.
You were ecstatic to say the least, any time he came to you with these news he was always so excited to explain what he was to do. The giddiness in his voice making your chest full with pride.
“Yeah, it’s like long term though. Something about having my own cubicle and all but I don’t know.” He softly smiled, grabbing cups of ice from the cooler, one for you and one for him.
Humming in response you looked through the tea pouches, wondering where it was all leading. “Because you prefer like your own space? Why don’t you bargain with them?” Showing him a pouch to ask if he was interested he just nodded, grabbing two.
“Like how? Ask her if I can get my own office?” He chuckled at the idea, walking to the register and putting the items down along with the ones in your hands.
You nodded in response, taking a hold of the items once they were scanned. “I mean yeah. If they want you that bad why wouldn’t they?” You continued, following behind as he put his card away and walked towards the car.
When he unlocked it, neither of you hesitated to hop in. Even with cups full of ice and on your way to drink the tea, you were still going to complain about being cold.
“I don’t know, I feel like I’ll push my luck. They’re already going to do so much just to get me there if I agree.” Pouring the tea into the cup, Mark’s phone lit up signaling it was charged enough to finally turn on.
Chewing the hotteok before continuing, your eyebrows knitted a bit confused, the neon lights of the store highlighting your features.
Maybe it was because you always tried to get the most out of a situation and never tried to feel bad that you didn’t understand but that was just you.
“I guess it feels silly? Like thinking of all the expenses of just getting me an office in their building or letting me work from home it’ll be kind of pointless cause in that case I might as well stay where I am.”
Confused at his last sentence, time didn’t let you question furthermore. His phone finally rang once again with the angry ringtone designated for Beomgyu.
Checking the time, Mark muttered a soft ‘shit’ before pulling out of the parking space and pressing a button on his steering wheel to answer.
“You’re on speaker.” Mark put in quickly to which Beomgyu’s angry questioning was cut off. “yn in the car?” The one in the other line asked, you responded with a ‘hi’.
“Okay well Chenle and Jisung already started, they’re about to do their second song and they’re only doing three, so hurry up!” His desperation was growing towards the end, Mark speeding to get there.
The venue wasn’t that far from the convenience store but there were multiple traffic lights that you’d have to get through and right now you were four away.
“Is Renjun there?” You cut in, your obvious main goal to be with your lover. “I don’t know, I haven’t seen him. I’m backstage, Chenle told me to stay for when you guys get here so you can get a better spot.” Mark didn’t react but he surely thought it was funny how Beomgyu’s voice got slightly high when he lied.
Disappointment settled within you. You truly did want to go for Chenji but you also missed Renjun so much and this was your only reassurance of seeing him after almost a month.
“Oh my god they’re starting the second song. Can you guys just call me whenever you’re outside so I can let you in? I feel like I’m about to shit myself.” Beomgyu confessed, making the both of you and those around him laugh.
Mark reassured that he was two traffic lights away and that he should calm down, that he was probably more nervous than ‘them’.
Beomgyu’s last scream of frustration was the cause of the phone call to end making both you and Mark laugh. “He’s more worried about my streak than I am.” You joked, struggling to grab the cup without freezing your hands immediately.
“We just want the best for you.” He didn’t turn to look at you but he smiled, the fluorescent lights of the city flashing by his complexion.
He was more quiet than usual which only led you back to the conversation you were having before Beomgyu interrupted.
There was no way to pinpoint anything though. After the happenings at the start of winter break, it had taken a toll on his demeanor so you truly didn’t want to push it.
He had told you how he felt and what he had done and though he was confident and aware that he had let it all go, you still wanted to know if he was truly okay.
You dropped the thought though. If he is sure he was okay then you should trust what he feels about himself.
“Fuck it’s full.” He complained once arriving to the venue. All the parking spots were full and he could only guess he’d have to drive down a bit more to find an open area.
He felt anxious now, not for you but because he didn’t want to miss a second of the performance either. As for you, he planned on dropping you off just right outside, calling Beomgyu and letting him know you were out the back door while he sped to find a spot.
“She’s out there? Okay— okay, shit, um… Park where the performers are parked and come get the permit real quick, I’ll take yn to where Keni and Hak are at and then I’ll come back for you. Guys hide, I’m about to let yn in!”
The last bit was directed towards DNYL, Beomgyu had taken control all night and right now he had his phone stuck between his cheek and shoulder while filling out some paperwork to get a permit for Mark.
Maybe things like these are why the sponsor had made him Chenle’s assistant.
Jaemin, Donghyuck, and Renjun had heard Beomgyu clearly when he told them all to hide, scrambling to hide behind panels and other performers.
As in for Jeno, he wasn’t fast enough, not when he had hardly heard Beomgyu and was on a quest to finish a level in one of his games.
So when Beomgyu had opened the door to let you in, it was too late for him to scram. His eyes widened in horror knowing Beomgyu would scold him now that you had spotted him.
“What are you doing here? I thought it was only for performers.” You teased, greeting the boy. “Special privileges, friends and family passes.” He lied, tucking his phone in his back pocket.
You feigned being hurt, “Wait does that mean I could’ve come back here every time? That’s not fair. I could’ve had more time whenever Jaehyun performed.”
That being your first concern was making Renjun bite at his knuckles from behind a panel where he crouched down. His pained expression making Jaemin and Hyuck struggle to not laugh out loud.
“Yeah, good luck. Last time you couldn’t even move and he was standing right next to you.” You rolled your eyes fighting the urge to childishly stick your tongue out at him.
Thankfully Beomgyu broke the conversation, pushing at your shoulders and out the curtains not even letting you say bye to Jeno, claiming he still had to get Mark in.
Upon passing to the general area and noticing none of the guys were there, you grew a bit worried considering Jeno was the only one back there.
“Hey! I was worried you weren’t going to come!” Kenia greeted you, taking you into an embrace before repeating those actions with Haknyeon.
Chenle and Jisung had already finished their song but they were talking everyone’s ear off seemingly making time for whatever they would do for their last song.
You felt guilty for missing the entire show but right now all you cared for was the fact that none of their friends were there, Mark was still out the venue, and that despite looking all around— there were no signs of Renjun and it was simply making your mood die down.
“Have any of you seen Renjun or the guys?” Your sulkiness was becoming more evident and it was making Beomgyu slowly worry before rushing back to let Mark in.
Kenia and Haknyeon had no say in what was planned. They weren’t aware of anything so they felt most compassionate, rubbing at your shoulder for moral support in whatever you felt when they said no.
Jisung had spotted you looking around, struggling to suppress his own pout. Just as he softly slapped Chenle’s thigh to look your way, Beomgyu and Mark rushed to where the three of you stood. The two men softly panting from rushing and getting the guys prepared.
With a thumbs up towards the boys on stage, Beomgyu braced himself. Getting the clue, Chenle turned back to the crowd, a wide smile on his face.
“Finally our last song. This is actually a special act— quite a sweet romantic act I’ll say. Now don’t laugh, this will be something new for us but I think I’ll let the coordinator speak about it.” The echoing of the mic drowned when he smiled again, moving from his spot to which the curtains opened slightly, revealing his other four friends.
All you mustered was confusion but still relieved Renjun was actually here. Your obvious happiness showed through the wide smile and low squeal that rested on your lips when he smiled your way.
Attaining his position behind the mic, Renjun cleared his throat. “I’m not quite the performer but this means a lot to me and I’m glad everyone involved— guys, Mark, Beomgyu, even those abroad—“ Referencing Yangyang, Renjun turned to you with a smile.
“Thank you for helping me in expressing what I want to say in a more poetic way. yn— this is for you.” An adorable wink your way once again, not helping you stop from squealing in surprise and excitement.
Furthermore as the lights settled and you turned to Kenia, the both of you squealed out of happiness for you, the guys laughing, finding it cute.
The melody was soft, the guitar emitting a peaceful sound that Jisung produced as Hyuck began, his voice catching you off guard for how harmonious it was when most of his singing outside of this were playful broken notes for comedic relief.
It was a sweet feeling within you, the words the boys spewed made your heart swell, pushing you to feel overwhelmed in a good way.
It wasn’t until Jaemin came on and his words followed by Chenle made your smile turn into a delighted pout, the overwhelming feeling pushing its luck. You were in bliss.
“You’re my missing puzzle piece, finally put together. Broken into pieces filled up even my heart’s wounds.” Placing his hand on Chenle’s shoulder and leaning their heads closer, Jisung continued.
“You have come to become my everything, my missing puzzle piece.”
They both placed their arms around their shoulder, their soft voices speaking about how the insecurities of being flawed plagued them but you being there helped ease them, helping them fill that void as they could fill yours (of course Renjun being the one with the sentiment).
Behind you the sniffling, making both you and Keni turn to spot Beomgyu and Haknyeon holding back tears or wiping them.
Once they heard yours and Kenia’s laughter they feigned the stuffiness causing congestion, Mark laughing at them as well before making you turn around to enjoy a performance special for just you.
With Jaemin reassuring you that Renjun always carried a piece of you (Referencing either the necklaces or film strips from your film photography days), you clutched at your own bracelet, a way to let yourself know you also carried a piece of him.
Yet with Renjun’s soft voice, your heart only seemed to ache furthermore. It wasn’t in a bad way but rather you have become overwhelmed now and to know someone liked you this much was doing it for you.
His arm hooked around Jisung’s waist, the rest of the guys surrounding the youngest as he sang: “you became a scenery in my world which I used to piece together alone.”
The lot turned to you as it seemed to come to an end and Jeno joined in connecting with Renjun; their words pleading you to not ever be apart from each other as you were his missing puzzle piece.
All that was left was Jisung continuing on strumming a few more strings, the guys smiling at each other feeling proud of themselves and hopeful for your response to Renjun.
When those on stage quiet down and Jisung placed his hand on the strings to signal he was done, the crowd cheered and applauded, thankful for yet another performance.
The lights had been turned off but to give their bows thankful for the cheers, the guys smiled at the crowd.
Renjun’s cheeks turned bright red when he spotted his siblings sitting at the bar and howling for him and his friends.
“Thank you for another night,” Chenle panted in between shy laughs, pushing hair off his face. “Would you want him to ask now or in private?”
Dismissing the crowd to turn to you, it was your turn to feel slightly embarrassed but your wide smile answering for you, barely able to say ‘now’.
The boys on the stage cheered when they knew your answer, patting roughly on his back and arms, pushing him towards the stairs to get to you.
Enthralled in the public commotion, the crowd followed his figure. “It’s quite overdue and I’ve been meaning to ask many times but something always stopped the plan but I truly want you in my life, forever if it’s possible—“
Holding his breath and his hands reaching for yours, Renjun smiled with an awkward laugh leaving his lips. “It would be a great honor if you agreed to be my… girlfriend. So would you?”
Renjun was still shy enough to ask the question, biting at his lower lip anxiously and his eyebrows living their own life as they contorted to his feelings.
You knew the question was coming but you still weren’t prepared to fully hear it coming from his mouth.
Eyes widened and your smile bigger than ever, your hands gripping his even more whilst you began to nod. “Yes! Oh my god, yes! I’d love to.” Pulling him into an embrace that made him relax and fall into a pit of his own laughter, his friends cheered which ultimately caused the crowd to also join the rumble.
Perhaps the majority didn’t care but it was entertainment you were giving them all. The cherry on top when you went in for a kiss, Renjun’s grip on your waist tightening as he kissed back.
With the echoing calm laughter emitting from the speakers, Chenle spoke against the microphone. “Again, thank you for the support and for helping these two. Have a good night!”
All in all you were extremely overwhelmed, prideful that you had friends that went out of their way to bring this joy for you and Renjun.
With that added, you’re glad your first love was with someone who also loved you, loved you immensely and for that you’ll thank whoever is out there looking out for you.
yea so i’m kinda bored, the company banned me from spoiling and all that fun stuff. so instead i’m here to piss ya’ll off. why? bc it’s fun. i’m kiddingggg, im kidding. anyways, didn’t shower for 3 days now bc save the planet and all that. we wouldn’t want the world to end just yet, you get me? speaking of saving the planet, we should save energy too. that’s why i invited mark over for dinner, and i made him wash dishes. i love mark okay? he’s such cute kid, i would have adopted him if possible. oh hey, a bit of tmi for you guys. jeno and hendery played games yesterday and they were soooooo awkward lololololol-
you turn to your best friend, jisung. you share a confused glance as jisung gestures to your desk, you trail your eyes to the black velvety box with a single red rose next to it. you stare at the questionable sight, until your thoughts are interrupted.
“chenle’s here! do i look nice y/n?” you grimace as you watch your classmates take out their cosmetics. you nod nonchalantly, as this is a normal occurrence for you. everyone was attracted to chenle, you couldn’t deny it yourself either. he was a kind boy with a bright future ahead of him, he never let his wealth get to him. he was the mood maker of the class, who wouldn’t swoon for chenle?
class wasn’t starting anytime soon, and you were overly curious to see what was in the velvet box. you trailed your fingers against the corners, it felt.. expensive? you felt a bit guilty, knowing someone had most likely spent a hefty amount of money on you.
as you were admiring the rose, you felt a slight weight on your desk. you look up to see chenle standing in front of you, his hands on your desk holding him up. you watched the corner of his eyes crinkle, a slight smize.
“oh! hi, chenle. did you need something?”
he smiled at you with soft eyes, he always admired you. chenle was never good with his words when it came to his feelings.
when he met you, he felt like he could do anything. you were such a strong and lovable person in his eyes, he admired you for everything you did. chenle was more than infatuated with you.
you and chenle weren’t the closest, but you had jisung as your mutual friend. so, hanging out together was inescapable . before meeting chenle, you expressed your concerns, worrying if it would be too awkward. all of your concerns went down the drain the minute you met him. he felt like a breath of fresh air, you couldn’t get enough of him.
“oh no i don’t! just wanted to see what your secret admirer had got you” chenle wiggled his eyebrows with a smirk.
secret admirer?
you ultimately opened the box, revealing a silver necklace. you graze your fingers over the shining piece, your fingers slowly reach onto the locket in the middle. as you open the locket, you see a picture of you and chenle. you smile to yourself as you rub your finger over the picture.
you ultimately opened the box, revealing a silver necklace. you graze your fingers over the shining piece, your fingers slowly reach onto the locket in the middle. as you open the locket, you see a picture of you and chenle. you smile to yourself as you rub your finger over the picture.
you ultimately opened the box, revealing a silver necklace. you graze your fingers over the shining piece, your fingers slowly reach onto the locket in the middle. as you open the locket, you see a picture of you and chenle. you smile to yourself as you rub your finger over the picture.
you guys were at a cafe, jisung had insisted on taking a photo of you 3, with you in the middle. you reminisce on the feeling of chenle’s hand wrapped around your waist, how your burning cheeks were more than noticeable in the picture. you let out a soft giggle at the memory, now looking up at chenle.
you watched how tense he was. fidgeting with his hands, shifting from one foot the other. you let out a beaming smile, getting up to wrap your arms around his neck. you felt him slowly relax at your touch, feeling him sway you both back and forth.
he whispered in your ear, “i’m guessing you got the hint..”
you remove yourself from the crook of his neck, looking up at him with a sparkle in your eyes.
jisung clears his throat, waving his hands in between you guys. “um, hate to interrupt my best friends completely ignoring me for the past 20 minutes.. but wasn’t i in that picture too?” he trails his eyes back and forth between you guys, with a soft glare.
“oh yeah! i cropped you out!” chenle smiles innocently.
jisung dramatically clenches his chest, slowly stumbling back at the attack he had received.
“chenle.. you are dead to me.” chenle giggles at his best friend’s reaction.
chenle looks at the seat next to yours, rolling his eyes at jisung’s backpack. he shoves it to the side and makes himself comfortable in his new self assigned seat.
“this is mine now! thanks jisung, for keeping it all warm for me!”
jisung sighs as he slides into the seat behind you, watching with a playful smirk as you plan your first date with chenle.
Pt. 2 to the first NCT reactions to significant self harming or their scars during intimate times
Haechan
He’d make it worst before he made it better. He’d feel it, and would instantly probably tear up (he’d deny this heavily though) and would leave the room. If you went after he might blow up on you a little bit, act bratty but won’t explain why he’s acting like that, he’ll just leave you in the dark. It would definitely take Johnny or Taeil explaining to him how he’s hurting you., and even then it might take him a day or two to get over his pride. Once he does however, he’ll be groveling at your feet for forgiveness. That’s very new he’s never experienced something like that before, and his reaction was very emotional due to him caring about you so much. You’ll both explain your sides, and once he knows how he can help or what he can do to help he will do it instantly without any question. It wasn’t the best start, but Haechan will absolutely make up for it every way that he can.
Taeil
I’m not too confident on how he’d act, but I feel as if in the moment he definitely wouldn’t say anything. My man does give me sub vibes, so I feel like you’d be riding him, or he’d be a power bottom and he’d run his hands over the inside of your thighs and feel the marks. You’d react faster than him tbh, you’d tense up when you felt him touch them, kinda waiting for his reaction but he wouldn’t do anything. He’d massage your thighs so you’d relax and then just continue. Afterwards you’ll be having an extremely important and serious talks. Taeil wouldn’t be judgmental in any way and would probably even throw in some (albeit poorly timed) jokes just to break up the tension and get you to laugh. Afterwards it would never be a problem, but if you are ever sad or even look upset and won’t come to him directly about your feelings he’ll make sure to do whatever he can to make you laugh so you’ll at least get your mind off of it.
YangYang
Mood would change., if he’s being extremely bratty he’ll tone it down a notch, if he’s being a hard dom he’ll definitely become soft for the rest of the night. There’s no way in hell this man would ever pass up the opportunity to fuck, or become fully submissive even for something like that. But if he was being a brat all evening, teasing you, ignoring your commands until you forced him to listen he might dial it back, he’ll listen to your commands after the second time. You won’t have to punish him for the rest of the night, and if he’s a dom he won’t care if you ignore his commands, or cum when you’re not allowed he’ll be more focused on your pleasure. He knows the best time to confront you is directly afterwards, when your still relaxed and pliant after your orgasm. He does everything right, allows you to talk at your pace, holds you if you cry, wipes your tears and make sure you know that he’s supporting you and constantly there for you even if he’s busy with work. 10/10 find you a YangYang
Kun
We all know and love him, he is definitely stopping in the middle, turning on the lights, cleaning you up and giving you a fresh pair of clothes. This is now a therapy session, he is no longer your boyfriend but your therapist. Will go to the kitchen, grab some water, tea and snacks and will place them all on the bed and waits for you to tell him what you’re comfortable with. Will rub your back soothingly if you start to cry, and remind you that there’s no pressure to talk about tonight, you could talk about anything else. Will offer you support or advice depending on what you’d like, and whole heartedly listen to your problems even if they don’t revolve around your self harm. Afterwards would turn on your favorite movie, and would spend the night cuddling albeit with a little bit of tears on your side as you remember why you’re so grateful to have him.
Chenle
I know some of y'all saw his ‘thirst trap’. Feeling the scars wouldn’t be enough to stop him. he wouldn’t even change his mood or how he acts, would just continue as if it’s any normal night. he trusts you enough to let him know if you aren’t okay, he also knows you well enough that stopping is the last thing you’d want. would continue as usual, and I know I said he wouldn’t change anything, but he might be a little hesitant before spanking you, or punishing you for cumming without permission. Afterwards he might up the aftercare, taking a shower with you while also showering you in compliments and kisses, his hands would gently scrub your body making sure your clean, and he’d go as far to dry you off and apply lotion. Once he’s finished he’d pull Daegal into the room and think of a way to confront you while you’re sleeping. He can act “impulsively” but for this situation I think he’d truly think of the best way to go about it, because he knows this is serious and he wants to help you, not harm you through his reaction.
Chenle is one of the louder members, he’s always talking and always is very sure of himself and acts confidently due to this. even with the strongest or most confident people they do still have moments of insecurity and vulnerability
Chenle has problems being vulnerable with the team members due to all of them seeing him as a strong, confident, self assured people but with you he is easily able to just allow himself to talk and feel even when he’s not positive he actually knows what he’s saying
moments like those the two of you just lay on the floor of his apartment, daegal curled up on Chenle’s stomach while his head lays on his wrap, his eyes are closed as you play with his hair only because he still doesn’t want you to see him cry
those moments despite being so serious will always end silly due to neither of you liking just how serious the mood is (this doesn’t mean that they go away, both of you know the appropriate time to kill the mood) and will typically end with daegal either climbing up to lick his chin, or with her leaving him to come get pet by you
the times when daegal is too busy sleeping or playing with toys to break the mood, you’ll offer to play video games today (normally PUBG, but any game will do) and the both of you will get engrossed in the game letting the seriousness fall away
he may believe the tiniest bit that money buys happiness. buys you an overabundance of food whenever you say you’re hungry, constantly offers to buy you anything that you could possibly want (read anything that you look at for more than 2 seconds when you’re together) and it leads to some arguments
when you’re upset he might metaphorically throw money at you, instead of taking the time to help you figure it out or offer an actual method to fix it he’ll offer to give you money or buy you something instead, which causes you to get upset because it feels like he’s neglecting you. and yes he comes from a loving family, but he’s still young, and some of the fans comments about him being so rich get to him and he doesn’t know what to do
will always apologize if he hurts you, sometimes it might take minute because he’s so stubborn but he will eventually put his pride aside because he doesn’t want to lose you. apologies are also on the costly spectrum, but it’s typically sending you flowers, or a teddy bear along with some type of jewelry to apologize. he only does it for the really, really bad arguments where he refuses to put his pride aside and it leads to weeks of you not talking
but when everything is good it’s great. this man does plan dates, and some of them are costly such as you mentioned you’ve never been on a proper tour of Seoul and he’ll hire a helicopter to take you sight seeing. but you’re usual dates are normal, visiting the Zoo just so that he can make fun of you and relate you to every animal there, or bowling where he makes fun of you for not being able to bowl before teaching you how to bowl
proud believer that he would never simp for anybody, but when it comes to you? this man is the biggest unconscious simp. if you look uncomfortable, he’ll instantly try and fix whatever is preventing you from relaxing. if he hears anything about your relationship has been leaked he won’t rest until he figures out who leaked it, and get’s them fired and the articles taken down.
he has no shame in confronting czennie if they talk badly about you, he cares about you more than his career or the managers chastising him. this man will straight up go on live and just “stop trying to bully my significant other. I love them and if you really were a fan of mine you’d love them just because they love me and make me happy.”
swoon worthy, just periodt
sometimes he likes to act out in front of the boys, not kissing or cuddling you because he wants to keep his little bit of credibility he has around the group, but when it’s just the two of you (three if you count daughter daegal) he’s still not the biggest baby lol. but Chenle will occasionally beg you for cuddles or kisses if work is especially stressful, and if you aren’t staying the night at his apartment? he will stay on the phone with you all night because otherwise he just can’t sleep.
rich slightly tsundere boyfriend Chenle for the win
