#ed thots

why can’t i just eat one damn thing and not trigger a fucking binge?!

Today’s calories : 1905

my stomach hurts sooo bad

i successfully fasted for 17.5 hours, i’ve consumed less than 800 calories and now everything is fucking ruined ‘cause my family is like “let’s get takeaway for dinner” -_-

i’m so mentally and physically drained, but no one seems to notice. how sad…

Today’s calories : 1442

fml i just can’t

today’s calories : 1503

i’m a pathetic fucking loser

today someone asked me if i was dieting, ‘cause i looked skinnier. i said i wasn’t

overeating is like the worst feeling in the whole damn world and nothing can change my mind

Today’s calories : 1190

i really need to get my shit together, if i want to make any progress

my body hurts all the fucking time and i wake up about 3 times every single night, because of those binging nightmares. i’m fine though :-P

October 8th calories : 1527

October 9th calories : 1395

Todays calories : 762

sorry for not being active these past few days. i’ve been feeling pretty much like shit, due to the way i’ve been stuffing my face :’(

today’s calories : 1264

why am i such a failure??

i’m freaking out ‘cause i NEED to lose 10kg until October 23rd. ughh i can’t

today’s calories : 585

i’m really proud of myself :)

they asked me why i wanted to change my body so bad

i said it’s because i wanted to feel loved and worthy. i just didn’t want to feel like a fucking loser anymore

they stared awkwardly right at me

i started laughing. “i’m just kidding” i said. “i’m just fucking kidding”

today’s calories : 1382

that’s just embarrassing. i’m done with this shit. i’ll eat less than 600 cal tmr and nothing can stop me

doing math just to keep my mind away from food :’)