#skip dinner get thinner
i’m upset bc this morning i had to break my 35 hour fast (it was supposed to be a 48 hour fast) bc when i woke up at 6 am i thought i was gonna pass out and my whole body was shaking..so what i ate was i had a caramel candy bc it was would get my blood sugar up fastest (70 cals) and like 4 or 5 strawberries (about 30 cal)
thats 100 cals at just 6 am :((
update: i also ate a 35 cal rice cake bc i still felt sick,, i feel a little bit better but i wish i didn’t have to eat all of that just to not pass out + ruin my fast :(
Water fasting: Day 8
Today’s thought: I can’t sleep because I’m so anxious at the moment for tomorrow’s family lunch out and i dunno what to do.
And yes, even though my mum bought me some sugar-free wheat bread I would still prefer “Plain *Ice cold* black coffee (Sugar-free)” because I trust what I see than what is labeled from the grocery. Yea I don’t trust food just like guys.
Mum gave me this… I don’t feel safe eating bread again this is not one of my *safe* food…
My breakfast for today…..
I woke up earlier than expected today, mum woke me for breakfast because she’s leaving again for tomorrow and we’ll not be seeing her again for the next three weeks. She requested to have breakfast with us, since I don’t really eat and I’m on my third day of Water fasting I only want plain black coffee.
Now I feel a little frustrated because we will be out for lunch later at my grandparent’s place and everybody is there, now I don’t know what to do it’s making me anxious about stuff.
This is a shirt when I was still at the larger size.. Now it is hanging and doesn’t embrace my body anymore the hang gave me a glance at my old self, it looks huge on me.. But a little bit of cringe because I still blame myself on indulging on food before made me realize how fat I was before.. Now I’m far from my starting weight.
Saw this on my screenshot.. God! This is how worst I am, even nuggets terrifies me a lot.. I was a the point on purging after that.. But end up jogging for 2 hours.
1000 jumps done, it’s been 2 weeks since I started this and still water fasting, this is a little bit exhausting because my vision is kinda funny. I also knotted both sides to add more weights on the rope.. This is a weighted jumping rope to begin with its just I want to spice a little bit on the jumping rope game so I knotted both sides and it heavier now. Overall its still worth it because there’s a lot of progress..
No one:
My vision whenever I try to get up:
This is the tricky part of water fasting, when you need to pee then suddenly your vision is messing up with you.
Happy Halloween then??
- I water fasted for more than 15 days now. I tried to lean on the wall because I felt a little sick today and a little dizzy getting up right away. I thimk another 10 days to go before I break my fast??? Then 7 days rest and back to water fasting again, maybe???
FACT:
NEVER… Yes N-E-V-E-R rely to someone or somebody on the progress that you want to achieve.. Most of the people I know in this community are either Pervert Ana Coach or playing cool ana coach low-key pervert acting like there’s no malice in their system but they are actually after for your body checks while you on the other hand don’t see it in a negative way without even realizing these bastards urge to jerk off..
Mum: What did you have for dinner?
Me: Pasta Alfredo with bread
The Pasta Alfredo with Bread:
(Plain black coffee no sugar as usual. ♀️♀️)
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having my pictures taken for my new id card is the best and only acceptabe kind of fatspo
i’m not eating ever again
i’m literally willing to die for getting rid of my fat cheeks
i really feel like fixing my mindset today
i’m gonna try only eating when i’m really hungry instead of at times i set up for myself and not obsessing around it but obviously staying in the low cal range
naturally skinny mindset here i come /lol i feel so delusional/
today is my birthday i’m turning 17 cals are on me today
i’m back at 55.8 which is both good and bad at the same time lol
i just want to get myself together again
next week i’m starting a new sport - pole dancing exactly - with my best friend i’m so excited about it
i’m leaving for Florence on friday it’s gonna be great
doing math just to keep my mind away from food :’)
I’ve just realized I usually relapse at the start of a manic episode so that’s fun lmao
Sorry I’ve been gone for so long, I’ve been having a tough time recently but, I’m back now lol and I’ll be back to posting as normal
I was just reading the can of my monster and it says to not drink it to replace food and to not to have more than one a day so that’s not good
Legitimately thinking of picking up vaping or smoking because I heard it suppresses your appetite.. this is a new low lmfaooo
I wish I didn’t feel the need to stop eating the week before my birthday, so that I can eat cake and still feel guilty about it but, here we are
Omg my friend sent me a message and it sounded kind of like a goodbye message so, obviously I freaked out and kept texting her making sure she was ok and, it ended up being a misunderstanding but we talked for like 10 minutes about how much we needed each other and, we both promised not to ever do that and I cannot stop crying I’m just realizing how much she needs me and we need each other so, I have a reason to stay now I guess
Currently really not loving my life lol but my birthday is in a couple of days and I don’t wanna die before my birthday ya know also I just want to be at school again so I can stop eating lunch at my dads but I really don’t wanna go back to school lmao
I got my braces wire tightened today cause, my orthodontist opened and, am I gonna use it as an excuse not to eat? You fuckin bet!!
Yesterday I ended up consuming a “normal” amount of calories and, same with today and I feel so awful yay so I’m gonna try to fast for 45 and half hours (very specific ik lmao) or more before I go to my dads and, I’m going to try to stay in my cal limit at my dads all week even though it’s really hard but, I lost 4.9 pounds this week (probably just water weight) and I’m planning to keep it off I don’t want it back Lmaoo and on another note my friend keeps unintentionally triggering me because, she has an ED and she’s trying to recover but, she keeps calling herself fat and, talking about weight gain and, weight loss and, restriction and, all that which makes me really insecure cause if she thinks she’s fat I’m a fucking whale compared to her so, I feel shitty lol.
I feel like an awful person rn cause my friend is in recovery for anorexia and it’s making me want to lose a lot of weight before the next time i see her so she’ll be recovered and I’ll be the skinny one and that is the shittiest thing I’ve ever thought of and I feel so awful about it but it’s just me ED talking I guess :(
I forgot to log the past two days so, on Wednesday I had a small bowl of cinnamon toast crunch and a splash of milk for 203 calories and then, I had tuna for supper for 154 calories and then, half a cup of ice cream for dessert 160 calories and then today, or I guess it’s yesterday now lol, I binged on mostly cinnamon toast crunch and oatmeal cookies with Pb and it came to around 2690 cals. Today my moms making me go out for supper so, I’m gonna try to find the least calorific thing on the menu cause the last two days I ate so shitty lol and then, the next two days after that I’m gonna try to fast.
