#thinspi

help !! my friend wants to go out for lunch today and i wanted to fast ughhh

ngl i miss innocently flirting with someone and talking to them so much…i’m so lonely lmfao help

i just need someone to talk to :/

worthlessundead:

i’m upset bc this morning i had to break my 35 hour fast (it was supposed to be a 48 hour fast) bc when i woke up at 6 am i thought i was gonna pass out and my whole body was shaking..so what i ate was i had a caramel candy bc it was would get my blood sugar up fastest (70 cals) and like 4 or 5 strawberries (about 30 cal)

thats 100 cals at just 6 am :((

update: i also ate a 35 cal rice cake bc i still felt sick,, i feel a little bit better but i wish i didn’t have to eat all of that just to not pass out + ruin my fast :(

what if i was skinnier?? you’d like me better then, wouldn’t you?

they asked me why i wanted to change my body so bad

i said it’s because i wanted to feel loved and worthy. i just didn’t want to feel like a fucking loser anymore

they stared awkwardly right at me

i started laughing. “i’m just kidding” i said. “i’m just fucking kidding”

I just want my bellybutton to be like

|

Instead of

—

Yanno

*starts my period*

ed brain-

…… :(

rational brain-

you sick fuck

my mum just hugged me and said ‘I can feel your ribs… I shouldn’t be able to feel your ribs’ which made me happy until I realised there’s such a double standard for me and my sister like my mum would never say that to her and she’s skinnier than me but it’s because she’s always been skinny so they think it’s normal and healthy for her but I’ve always been fat so they think it’s unnatural and unhealthy for me (like yes I know I’ve lost weight in an unhealthy way but it makes me feel like I’ll always be seen as fat by the people who know me)

*trying to open up about my ed*

‘So do you just like not eat’

me: ‘obviously I eat’

‘Oh that’s good then, I’m glad it’s not serious’

In my head I’ve got a Megan Thee Stallion-type body but in reality I had to wear my size 0 jeans with a belt today bc they kept slipping down my a**

Gotta love body dysmorphia

Friend asked me (sounding kinda concerned but maybe I’m projecting) if I lost weight & I was just like ‘idk, I don’t own a scale’

And it worked!!!

Anya Taylor Joy my beloved

akyyuu:

Normal weight loss: I want to be within the green BMI range!

Me: I want my knees to be the thickest part of my legs

trulyneurotic:

im so ashamed how did i let myself get this big

allthesecretsihide:

I find pictures of male hands over a skinny stomach so triggering

Also stories of them commenting about their gfs bodies

They harden my resolve

Send them my way if you have any ~

you know you’re desperate when your youtube search history contains “subliminals”

0. crave attention and human touch like nothing else

1. think that everyone who shows you the tiniest amount of affection is in love with you

2. remember that you’re aromantic and everything romance related makes you highly uncomfortable

3. make elaborate fantasies about people who were kind to you once probably only because they’re decent people

4. feel embarrassed

5. push away everyone who is actually deeply interested in you because they would be disappointed if they actually knew you and you’re ugly and fat naked anyways

+1 suffer eternally

suspiciously specific

having my pictures taken for my new id card is the best and only acceptabe kind of fatspo

i’m not eating ever again

i’m literally willing to die for getting rid of my fat cheeks

i really feel like fixing my mindset today

i’m gonna try only eating when i’m really hungry instead of at times i set up for myself and not obsessing around it but obviously staying in the low cal range

naturally skinny mindset here i come /lol i feel so delusional/

today is my birthday i’m turning 17 cals are on me today

i’m back at 55.8 which is both good and bad at the same time lol

i just want to get myself together again

next week i’m starting a new sport - pole dancing exactly - with my best friend i’m so excited about it

i’m leaving for Florence on friday it’s gonna be great

my thinspo for this summer

have thinspo atm

sheissweetbutpsycho:

rapaziou:

hey guys i m attempted recovering again for a bit but i have myself now and my best friend is saying she wants to be a size 5 , i’m trying to lose more before it really triggered me so i’m back again ,

first meal of the day is rice cakes with cream cheese , and a granola bar

hey guys sorry i was gone for so long but i’m back now

I’m in need of a pro ana coach , i need and active one that responds quick and keeps me motivated to not eat snacks and will help me :)

i start school again and am a bit scared cause no one knows who i am but atleast i won’t need to eatas much

hey guys sorry i’ve been not active i’ve been very busy yet again but will try and be more active