i’ve binged. and then cut myself. great. i thought i was finally over this, but i guess i never will

all i need is a flat tummy for fuck’s shake

the amount of food i’ve consumed these past few days is insane. fuck family gatherings

i’m so tired of having to face the same problems over and over again. like seriously i’ve been struggling with my body image and relationship with food for 3.5 fucking years. i’m actually starting to believe that i will never escape this. fuck

i need to stop making up excuses to eat all the time… like fuck. how will i ever lose that weight, if i just keep stuffing my face??

what if i was skinnier?? you’d like me better then, wouldn’t you?

i feel so ashamed of myself right now and the only thing that can comfort me is starving

where’s my morning skinny??!!

i am bloated af. thanks, period.

my face is all puffy and massive and i fucking hate it

I NEED TO KEEP ON LOSING WEIGHT!!!

after all this time i’ve started feeling dizzy again. that means i’m doing fine, right?

my scale doesn’t work. like seriously why does everything go downhill? fuck

Today’s calories : 1389

will i ever escape the 4 digits?

why do i make everything so complicated? like why can’t i just eat a fucking meal and move on with my life or eat when i’m hungry and stop when i’m full? why can’t i just be normal??

Today’s calories : 2214

i just want this to be over

i binged. i’m so fucking ashamed and disappointed of myself. i wanna scream, but i can’t ‘cause they’re going to hear me and think i’m like insane. fuck

If you guys want a really low cal dinner recipe try ratatouille, it’s honestly amazing and one of my favorite safe foods ☺️ this is the “stew” kind so if you want to make it all fancy you can, here’s the recipe

Veggies

-1 egg plant

-2 zucchini’s

-2 yellow squashes

-2 Roma tomatoes

Sauce

-olive oil

-4 cloves minced garlic

-1 diced onion

-salt, pepper, and thyme to taste

-2 oz can diced tomatoes

-2 oz can tomato sauce

-as much basil as you want, it’s 0 cal

Cooking

-preheat the oven to 375° Fahrenheit (190° Celsius)

-add the olive oil in a small pot and cook the onion and garlic until the onion is soft, then mix in the thyme. Add the diced tomatoes, tomato sauce, and basil, then stir. Take out a food processor (or blender, it doesn’t matter) and add the sauce to it. Blend until semi smooth, and put it back into the pot to let it simmer

-cut the vegetables into chunks and set them in a baking dish

-pour on the sauce and mix together

-cover the dish with foil and bake for 40 minutes, then uncover it and bake for another 20 minutes

144 cals per serving (makes 8)

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