#live life
“Life is the one great indulgence; death the one great abstinence.”
~ LaVey, Satanic bible
“Why are you so depressed?
I don’t know. maybe because at 4 am, I’m alone. maybe because this world is so fucking cruel. maybe it’s just because I’m so tired of living.”
~ m.g.
“The truth is, I stopped talking to you, not because I don’t like you anymore, but because I thought I was annoying you.
And I’m just waiting for you to say that you miss me, Because I miss you everyday, every hour, every minute every second.
And it hurts.”
~ ar
“Roses are red, violets are blue,
sugar is sweet and perhaps so are you.
But the roses have wilted, the violets are dead,
the sugar bowl’s empty, your wrists are stained red.
The sun isn’t shining, the sky isn’t clear;
there’s no silver lining cause you’re no longer here.
Rain keeps on pouring, there’s no end in sight.
you’re laying there frozen, so far from the light.
Your beauty’s unreal, your smile the sun,
but time can’t be turned, nor actions undone.
The words that you wrote that only I read;
“I love you so much; please don’t cry when I’m dead.”
A bond that we formed, a love that ran deep,
a pain that we shared; a friend I could keep.
I wanted to hold you, wipe the tears from your eyes,
been there the moment you said your goodbyes.
I want to forget, but most times I don’t.
I want to let go, but I know that I won’t.
Tears on my face, memories burned in my head;
The roses are wilted, the violets are dead.
~ 4 am thoughts, Unknown
I just feel the need to write about how I feel, because nothing is more clear to me as it is in this moment. Here and now.
I don’t know if what I felt was love, I can’t say it, I just feel the need to be with someone, as everyone is hoping or looking for, it’s just that they don’t admit it.
Is it too difficult to just realize you need to be with someone to feel fullfilled? I think we just need to be honest with each other. Even a whore wants to feel love or “wanted” by someone. Each one of us wants that feeling, each one of us wants to feel FULLFILLED.
When I say I love you more, I don’t mean I love you more than you love me. I mean I love you more than the bad days ahead of us, I love you more than any fight we will ever have, I love you more than the distance between us, I love you more than any obstacle that could try and come between us. I love you the most.