#4am thoughts
Because everything changes. Nothing stays the same for long. The minute you’re used to something, the minute you think, “oh, this is how life is,” life finds a way of surprising you. You never know what life is gonna throw at you. And you have two choices: Run from it… or run at it.
~ colorfulbiscuithandsdiplomat
“I don’t think I have the words to explain how much you mean to me. You’ve helped me more than any other person has ever in my entire life. The long walks to nowhere, the long nights of laughing at what seems like nothing and everything, the pep talks, the ego checks. I haven’t many people close, but I’m happy I let you in. You never fail to slap me in the face with reality when I need or deserve it, nor do you hesitate to give me a helping hand when it’s obvious that I can’t do it on my own. I don’t know what I’d do without you.
I love you”
- colorfulbiscuithandsdiplomat
“It’s okay.
Saving me was never your job anyway.”
~ colorfulbiscuithandsdiplomat
Of course she has a loud voice, of course she is always yelling, because at home no one is listening to her.
~ colorfulbiscuithandsdiplomat
It’s weird to think that in this very moment someone is lying alone in their deathbed, balancing between life and death or reuniting with an old lover, tightly wrapped in a warm embrace or writing a suicide note, pondering different ways to say goodbye, right in this moment someone’s heart is fluttering from a first kiss and someone’s is breaking from a goodbye.
~ colorfulbiscuithandsdiplomat
“And then I felt sad because I realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they can’t ever be fixed, and that is something nobody ever tells you when you are young.”
~ Unknown
“Do you ever get that feeling when you’re sitting in your room alone, your thoughts wander, you’re not crying but you just feel sad and empty, replaying moments from your life and wondering. Where did it all go wrong?”
~ colorfulbiscuithandsdiplomat
“I’m beginning to realize how little I mean to everyone.”
~ colorfulbiscuithandsdiplomat
“I’m that person everyone replaces after a while.”
~ colorfulbiscuithandsdiplomat
“but if I sit in the rain, maybe I can drown in something other than my own thoughts.”
~ Unknown
“Never have I dealt with anything more difficult than my own soul.”
~ Unknown
“I don’t always wear black, sometimes I wear nothing.”
~ Unknown
“Don’t let people treat you like a cigarette, they only use you when they’re bored and step on you when they’re done. Be like drugs, let them die for you.
~ Unknown
“This is the part of my life where I silently remove myself from anyone who hurts me more than they love me, drains me more than they replenish me, brings me more stress than they do peace, and tries to stunt my growth rather than clap for it. I think that I’ve done more than enough talking and trying to make things work with certain people… I’m done!”
~ Unknown
“My thoughts are all over the place as I fall asleep, and images of clouded roses and angry green eyes flow through my dreams.”
~ Anna Todd
“I know this happiness that I feel isn’t going to last, and I feel like Cinderella, waiting for the clock to strike and end my blissful night.”
~ Anna Todd, After
“Roses are red, violets are blue,
sugar is sweet and perhaps so are you.
But the roses have wilted, the violets are dead,
the sugar bowl’s empty, your wrists are stained red.
The sun isn’t shining, the sky isn’t clear;
there’s no silver lining cause you’re no longer here.
Rain keeps on pouring, there’s no end in sight.
you’re laying there frozen, so far from the light.
Your beauty’s unreal, your smile the sun,
but time can’t be turned, nor actions undone.
The words that you wrote that only I read;
“I love you so much; please don’t cry when I’m dead.”
A bond that we formed, a love that ran deep,
a pain that we shared; a friend I could keep.
I wanted to hold you, wipe the tears from your eyes,
been there the moment you said your goodbyes.
I want to forget, but most times I don’t.
I want to let go, but I know that I won’t.
Tears on my face, memories burned in my head;
The roses are wilted, the violets are dead.
~ 4 am thoughts, Unknown
I know, you’ve had your heart broken. Your love was tossed all over the place and your innocence and joy was stolen by that one person whose memory lives in the songs that you keep skipping in your favorite playlists. The places which you used to love so much became so hostile to you, as they bombarded you with the memories that you desperately want to forget. The person who became your home suddenly left, and you felt like you were wandering alone in the streets, looking for a higher purpose. All you wanted to do for so long was to hurt people, in the same way that you’ve been hurt, and who could blame you really? After all, even clouds can take so much until they burst into a pouring rain, washing away everything that comes its way. You tried to find love someplace else, in a place where your mind led you, and everything felt good and comfortable. Yet it never truly felt like love… like home. You may have spent nights, crying yourself to sleep and blaming yourself for being a bad person, feeling broken for the fact that you couldn’t fall in love. And whilst your friends talked about their new hair, you daydreamed those conversations away by stirring your coffee and thinking that you may never fall in love again. But as a lighting blade strikes a tree, that’s how love will strike for you. It will be unexpected, and quick, but it will leave you feeling alive yet again. And I promise you, that whatever hyperbole you’ve been taught about your first love, will be irrelevant compared to this love. Because this person, they will complete you. They will have the missing piece of the puzzle that you had been trying to figure out for so long. Your first love did not complete you, you were way too young to even know yourself. Your second love broke you, yet paved the way and matured you for your third and real love. And you will feel their love, on an atomic level. You will physically feel it lightening up your chest, warming your heart, and they will feel even better than home. They will feel like you, and like your own being. This person will not only fall in love with every single one of your flaws, but they’ll make you fall in love with those same flaws too. And when you hug them, you will want to hold onto that hug forever, absorb their essence into yours, and stay in that state for an eternity. And for an eternity you will live to embody each other in the way that no one can understand but you two.
“Our love was spontaneous. Like when you’re driving on the highway while raining and you pass under the bridge. All of a sudden the incessant rain stops, making you feel safe and comfortable. But this bridge only lasts for so long, until you’re out in the pouring rain again…”— via flashypegasus(viaflashypegasus)
