#miscommunication
You see me as a full human being. That’s why you are not attracted to me.
—Sally Rooney, At The Clinic.
I find it funny that guys will see me and say “hola!”
And then look disappointed when I reply in English, “hello!”
Sorry not sorry but I’m Samoan ♀️
that autism feel when people wont stop touching you when you’re literally saying don’t touch me
Louis gives Legosi a rexmas present
idk if this one’s too spicy for tumblr, so I’m just gonna roll the dice and see what happens
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Surgery update (in rant form. Sorry)
On Saturday, I had what’s called an EUA, or endoscopy under anaesthetic, in order to see what was going on in my jpouch. It showed the entrance was narrowed by a stricture and there was some liquid in it so they inserted a drain. The doctor who performed it tried to stretch the stricture with his finger (I didn’t know this until later).
Afterwards, all seemed fine for a bit until I started getting pains in my lower abdomen and near my rectum/pelvic floor. As it turns out, when try to stretch the stricture, the doctor had accidentally created a hole in my pouch and there is now an infection in the cavity behind it (to say my surgeon was not happy about this would be an understatement). “Fortunately”, the drain had gone through the hole as well and was trying to drain the waste that has leaked though. It was painful but they couldn’t do anything until the next day (Tuesday) at the earliest.
The plan, as far as I knew it, was to have an EUA so my surgeon could assess the damage. Once this was done I’d then have surgery to have a permanent stoma put in. I was told that I’d have the EUA this morning (Wednesday) and then the stoma surgery this afternoon.
That hasn’t happened. It turns out there was some miscommunication between my surgeon and another Dr. What is actually happening is my surgeon is performing the EAU this afternoon and I am last on his list. Fine. The stoma surgery will be scheduled for later this week, most likely.
What was said would happen but hasn’t (by the other Dr) is that I was first on the list to have the EAU and that it “didn’t matter” if the drain had fallen out this morning (which it did but hasn’t caused any issues). There was no mention of when the stoma surgery would be, only that they might not even have to do it. (My surgeon has already said going back to a stoma would be what’s best for me at this point).
I am struggling now as I’ve done nothing but lay around and wait for someone to take me for a test or scan or tell me some results. It’s tiring and I’m fed up. I want this fixed so I can go home and continue living
Out of Time
Description: John was Sherlock’s friend with benefits, but for John… Sherlock was everything. Only… Sherlock is a alpha and John is a beta. John always knew this arrangement between them couldn’t last. One day Sherlock would find an omega to mate with and then he’d have to let Sherlock go, no matter how it would destroy him. Omegas were the intended bond mates to alphas. Being a beta, John knew he held no place in Sherlock’s life, apart from being a second, and that would destroy him. That dreaded day came too soon. John was left with two choices… Become Sherlock’s second, or leave. John wasn’t a runner, but this… John couldn’t take this, so he accepted Mycroft’s offer and left Sherlock before the alpha could leave him.
Review: I’ve been wanting to read an omegaverse fic where they’re not “biologically compatible” so I was glad to find this fic! Sherlock has a secret upcoming arranged marriage and when John finds out he leaves, allowing Mycroft to hide him from Sherlock so he doesn’t get his feelings hurt all over again. Little does John know that Sherlock never actually married her.
Rating: E
Isosceles
Description: After solving a case for a major celebrity, Sherlock gets himself asked out. When John asks, he discovers that Sherlock has no intention of going, at least not until John agrees to coach him through whatever he might need to know for his date…
Review: I enjoyed every second of this fic. I’m a sucker for fics about Sherlock with other men and John being supportive yet jealous. Can’t get enough of it, there needs to be more. I particularly enjoy with this one how long the fic is and John’s struggles with his himself between wanting everything for Sherlock and letting himself indulge during their “coachings.” I also surprisingly liked the OC male character, which is always nice! Can’t recommend this one enough.
Rating: E
See also: Miscommunication and Misconceptions.
“Sleep well,” they say - and they mean sweet dreams but you hear threats of nightmares.
“Go away,” they snarl - and they mean ‘leave me alone’ but you hear ‘never come near me again’.
“Sorry isn’t going to fix this!” they shout - and they’re angry and weary but you’re shivering and contrite.
“Well, what do we have here?” they muse - and they are curious but you are terrified.
“We’re not friends,” they mutter - and they speak lies but you hear truth.
“Stay,” they order - and you hear the threat they didn’t voice or intend.
“Stop,” they sigh - and they are tired but so are you.
YES PLEASE
