#anor3x1a
I have a question?
Do we all set our final goal weight to be underweight, bc that’s what we think it’s pretty and healthy. Or we set it like that bc we want validation, we want satisfaction, we want recognition. We want someone to finally care even if that means to destroy ourselves. We want to see that at least one thing in our life’s is working, even if it’s killing us slowly. This thought has me on choke thinking that my ed can only be just an unhealthy coping mechanism.
But ether way I won’t stop
Tbh I set my goal weight to 80 cause there was a really skinny girl who was my height (at the time like 4‘9) and was 83 pounds.
This was in eighth grade tho so I probably should adjust it.
Also people usually think I’m lighter than I am. I don’t know if I’m the delusional one but people always guess lower.
having a relapse with Mia and ending up 7lb heavier than when you started? Fuck my life. Downloading this fastic fasting app, the long restriction begins, meaning I stocked up on monster, gum and disposable vapes. Can I learn my entire course in the next 2 months while literally starving?
It’s funny for me it’s the opposite.
I’ll go from like strictly mia b/p and fasting type beat to restriction. When I restrict I gain weight.
I actually made this mistake for three days in a row and now I’m relapsing back to mia lmao.
eating after a fast feels like shit :))
it makes me want to never eat again
me: I’m gonna fast
me: starts fasting
me: eats my whole kitchen
