#anorexxix

getting everything physical except weight loss

squatting while trying to force myself to poo is not where I saw myself at 24 tbh

my friends at work are now no longer speaking to me over my notice but like they’re short staffed so like I ain’t really sure how cutting me out is going to make me want to stay when they know the reason why is my ED especially

feel like food is the only thing I’ve got control over rn and I can’t even starve myself correctly lmao

anyone else just like take mega long baths to avoid eating?? my housemate must think I’m a fucking fish

my work are so supportive in getting me help and then I’m just like lol no x

I’ve got work in 43 minutes and I’m in a vegan low calorie wormhole lol

ngl not eating after 7pm is working wonders for me atm x

moved in with my friend and there’s something rlly satisfying about declining food when they offer it

POV: u get invited to something but it will mess with your set eating times/ fast/ weekly binge and purge x

gonna treat myself to so many clothes when I go down a size - don’t think my bank account is ready

me: I’m gonna fast

me: starts fasting

me: eats my whole kitchen

stg never has a drink this nice made me shit so much they have a mocha version too which is also mint xx

need to shop but I’m using rain as an excuse not to in reality I’m just scared of buying things out of my comfort zone

completed my first 24 hour fast in agesss! get to try sleep now and aim to beat my 9 day record:)))

me drinking salsa from the bottle cause it’s yummy: mmm zero calories

brain: actually-

me a little louder: mMMM ZERO CALORIES

I have been attempting to lose weight since August 31st when I started at 190 lbs.

I was doing good at first and even got down to 180 lbs towards the middle of September, but lately things have hit the fan.

I’ve been sick, I’ve had to deal with my problematic family (extended family), and this past week I’ve been binging like it’s no ones business.

I feel like such a failure.

I have still been going to the gym this whole time (minus the two weeks I was sick) and now I’m back at 188 lbs :((. I was hoping to lose at least 20 pounds before a wedding I’m attending Oct 23 but I don’t think that’ll happen :((. I will still try and post results!!