#i will be skiny

ollieithink:

The worst thing about having an ed is that the memes are hilarious but you can never send any of them to your irl friends :\

How hard does it for someone to understand that ED is not just plain and simple as * GO… EAT!“ I will solemnly agree if you can heal a cancer patient with one session of chemotherapy!! This is so annoying! I’m so tired of this explanation cycle! God d*mn it!!

can i hurry up and lose this weight so i can get to the maintenance stage i’m so TIRED

i refuse to try recovery until my body looks somewhat acceptable to me

do people really forget about their problems when they starve themselves?

like ofc it’s a coping mechanism so it helps feel in control despite all the shit in our lives but for me it’s not to the extent where it helps me cope or forget. if anything it causes me more stress. maybe it’s because i’m getting older and the whole honeymoon phase has been over for years or maybe i’m doing it wrong idk anymore

the guys who invited me left for the bathroom but they’re just standing there looking at my direction and talking idk if it’s just the paranoia or they’re talking shit behind my back probably both tbh

i also scratched my shoes bc this little bitch who’s like 4'8 tall refused to sit in the middle of the backseat and forced my exactly a foot taller ass to squeeze myself into this tiny space

i mean that’s validating cuz they assumed i’d fit but yeah

i’m attending a halloween party in a shisha bar tonight sounds fun but some bitch who hates my face is also coming so that’s gonna be interesting

i’m also a fat fuck so my possibilities in terms of costumes are limited : /

i participated in my first ever horse riding competition and i won

i got a nice trophy and ribbons

i celebrated with a kfc wrap i try not to feel guilty about it

when your mild friends invite you to a party after you had one with your wild friends and you inconsiderately say u snorted coke from a strippers’ buttcrack and they look at you like

️=️

since i have bangs i often forget how pretty my forehead is

pretty and adequately sized for an excruciating headache

yesterday was just really though but i’m better now hangover is gone and i finally got adequate amount of sleep

i made breakfast but my kitchen scale is broken so i can only estimate the cals also i’m tryna get that ‘naturally skinny’ mindset that i can be sure i didn’t overeat even without the scale lol

doing some self care right now and a workout then

it’s fall break rn so i gotta slow down a bit

i didn’t lose or gain this month at all which dodn’t happen for a long time so i need to get myself on track again

three words: zero cals alcohol

i hate it here i hate it everywhere

you know you’re desperate when your youtube search history contains “subliminals”

0. crave attention and human touch like nothing else

1. think that everyone who shows you the tiniest amount of affection is in love with you

2. remember that you’re aromantic and everything romance related makes you highly uncomfortable

3. make elaborate fantasies about people who were kind to you once probably only because they’re decent people

4. feel embarrassed

5. push away everyone who is actually deeply interested in you because they would be disappointed if they actually knew you and you’re ugly and fat naked anyways

+1 suffer eternally

suspiciously specific

i’m back and full of questions

at first why is it so hard to not eat while on holiday?

second

will my cheeks ever not be chubby?

thanks

having my pictures taken for my new id card is the best and only acceptabe kind of fatspo

i’m not eating ever again

i’m literally willing to die for getting rid of my fat cheeks

i really feel like fixing my mindset today

i’m gonna try only eating when i’m really hungry instead of at times i set up for myself and not obsessing around it but obviously staying in the low cal range

naturally skinny mindset here i come /lol i feel so delusional/

today is my birthday i’m turning 17 cals are on me today

i’m back at 55.8 which is both good and bad at the same time lol

i just want to get myself together again

next week i’m starting a new sport - pole dancing exactly - with my best friend i’m so excited about it

i’m leaving for Florence on friday it’s gonna be great

Why am I so triggered by being told to be quiet… like wtf.. I’m such a fucking child

notrecovered:

having a relapse with Mia and ending up 7lb heavier than when you started? Fuck my life. Downloading this fastic fasting app, the long restriction begins, meaning I stocked up on monster, gum and disposable vapes. Can I learn my entire course in the next 2 months while literally starving?

It’s funny for me it’s the opposite.

I’ll go from like strictly mia b/p and fasting type beat to restriction. When I restrict I gain weight.

I actually made this mistake for three days in a row and now I’m relapsing back to mia lmao.

Im in my iced coffee era

I will do better

Not Me

COLLARSBONES COULD CUT DIAMONDS

this is what I want. Collarbones are hot.

I will have collarbones that cut diamonds

I will have collarbones that cut diamonds

I will have collarbones that cut diamonds

(If you struggle with an eating disorder and are in recovery please block me. I am not pro eating disorder I just have a different understanding)

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❣️Yabs