Since primary school I was shy and an overthinker. Now I’m 20 years old, I have social anxiety and I’m still an overthinker. Not much progress has been made.
Saaame, I feel like I’ve missed a lot of opportunities because of that. I mean I just can’t get myself to live my life and be social.
I think the scariest thing I’ve ever learned in Psychology was about a long study where people who reported low satisfaction in their lives at a young age almost always reported the same outcome toward the end. This was despite having similar lives to the subjects who reported being happy and reported the same happiness at their end of life. Not to say there isnt hope for unhappy people, but the fact that your biology can affect how you perceive the world that much is awful and scary.
“Am I saying that right things” “oh god I’m too quiet! I must start a conversation” “how did I sound?” “I have no idea what they’re talking about.. I should know that topic. They hate me now” “how can they talk so freely?! Without micromanaging everything they say??”