Lydia Deetz has always been one of my absolute favorite characters, but never have I related to her so much as I do in this moment.

sparrow-ceiling:

sparrow-ceiling:

reblog and put in the tags what comes up when you type “i want”

i love being op of this post bc most of the time its either “i want to scream” “i want to cry” or “i want one” (with the person then being perplexed by what “one” is referring to) but then you get shit like this

someone tell me what happens when you take anti depressants for the first time please.

Jonathan

I want to message him but I’m not sure if I should. I want to talk to him but I’m not sure if he wants too. The last thing I said to him was that he’d never hear about from me. Or about me every again. I was upset. I was mad at what he did. I didn’t mean it. I still dont. I wish I never meet him. I wish he was never in my life. I want to die. And hes the reason why. Yet hes the reason I’m here. I dont know what to do.

Sometimes I go to sleep on time and wake up refreshed, other times I lie in bed at 12:30am staring at the wall thinking about just how my life has progressed into my username.

As my eyes open in the morning, my mind cries out to just go back to sleep.

To sink into the black void and hide away.

Dragging my body out of my bed is like dragging boulders across a continent.

Looking into a mirror makes my mind shatter into despair.

I hate myself.

I don’t change my clothes.

I put a hat on to hide hair that hasn’t seen a shower in weeks.

I don’t brush my teeth.

I don’t smile anyways.

Walking out my door makes my body try to curl into itself and hide.

My mind whispers my terrors in my ear as I open the door.

Every day is a war in my head to stay alive.

I don’t want to do this anymore.

I am fighting a mind and body that does not what to fight anymore.

I want to give up.

I must give in.

I suppose I’m losing the war now.

I do not want to be alive anymore.

I just want to lie in my bed and sleep for the rest of my life. I’m tired. So so tired.

Happy days always end with darks nights.