#kylo ren x yn
In the Center of Everything
Request: Hello love! Can you write with something like rebel and force sensetive reader and Kylo kidnaps her but he doesn’t want rebels to come so he takes her to Naboo instead? They spend time there and reader is nice person so they slowly start falling for each other? I was thinking like kinda fairytale setup like dresses he gives her, fancy meals etc. Picnic next to the waterfalls like Anakin and padme would be a nice bonus for @imaginesyes
Words: 3,260
Reading Time: 14 min
Category: Fluff
Warnings: None
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In the Center of Everything
There’s something sweet and almost kind
But he was mean and he was coarse and unrefined
It has been some time since I have been, how to put it… In captivity on this planet? It all started a long time ago, for several years I had done everything possible to try to go unnoticed by the war that was happening everywhere, I knew perfectly well that something in me made me different from others, and for that reason, I decided to live with a low profile, I didn´t want to attract the attention of anyone, not the separatist groups, or those who called themselves rebels and much less the First Order, at the end of the day I was sure that if someone noticed that peculiarity that I had, they wouldn’t hesitate to spread the word and eventually I would have someone behind me looking for me.
I realized that I was able to connect with the Force when I was a teenager and to be honest, at first, I was very scared, I didn’t understand what was happening or how I could do what I was doing, but with the passage of the years, I accepted that that was my nature and I couldn’t deny it, so I cultivated it as best I could.
When my parents passed away, I completely put aside the business and commercial life we had and isolated myself, I built a small cabin from scratch in a quarry near our town and dedicated myself to planting what I could, slowly, I became a self-sufficient person. All this time I stayed out of the conflicts that were happening outside, never in my life did I think that I would end up in the center of everything.
One night, I still remember it perfectly, while I was meditating, I connected with a strange energy. At first, I was very scared, I couldn´t understand what was responding to me, so I immediately cut my meditation. It took a few weeks before I was encouraged to do it again.
The next time I connect with that energy, try to prolong it as long as I can. Little by little, night after night, I connected with that entity more often. I didn’t know what it was, who it was, or where in the Galaxy it was, but I felt quite comfortable and intrigued to have made such a connection. I never suspected anything, I never thought that it could be something that would hurt me, I simply felt that it was someone like me out there and that, even with my self-exile in the middle, it made me feel accompanied… Until that night arrived.
It all started like a small whisper that intensified, “Where are you?”; A pair of eyes that pierced the gloom of the space that divided us. One question only. An answer from me that I would later regret “Cantonica”.
And now he’s dear and so unsure
I wonder why I didn’t see it there before
A couple of days passed until the consequence of my actions resonated. It was a day like any other, I never thought that something out of my routine would happen. I woke up, had breakfast, and planned my day: check and maintain my herbs, fetch some water from a nearby well, take the opportunity to wash some clothes, and go quickly to town to find some supplies that I had scarce.
When I returned home, it was already beginning to get dark, the door was closed and everything in my home seemed to be in order until I entered the living room.
A shadowy black figure was sitting on my sofa, slightly lit by the fire in the fireplace, which he had surely lit while waiting for my return.
I was completely paralyzed in place, the basket in my hands fell to the ground and some of the apples that I had collected during the day rolled on the ground, reaching his feet.
The silence was sepulchral, I could see how his body curved towards the floor and slowly, one of his hands took one of the apples that was at his feet. Immediately afterward, his entire body rose from my sofa, he was a huge black mass, I couldn´t distinguish any feature in his figure, his shoulders were wide, his entire body was covered by a black cape that seemed to blend with the shadows of the stay and his face was covered by a mask.
My only reaction was to try to run away. In seconds one of his hands grabbed my arm and my back hit his chest, where he wrapped both arms around me and lifted me off the ground.
I screamed, kicked, tried my best to break his hold on my body. Little by little I ended up getting tired, my mind kept bringing a thousand scenarios: He will it kill me? What is he doing here, what does he want? Who is he? Why me? Just when I stopped fighting him, he released me, and my feet hit the ground again, I immediately turned to look at him.
“Don’t you recognize me?” A distorted metallic voice came out of him, I shook my head slightly as I took a step back. My body was tired of trying to get rid of him, my legs were shaking, a cold chill ran down my spine and the room was slowly beginning to darken.
“It was you who brought me here…” He spoke again, at that moment I understood everything, that Beast was the source of the energy with which I had connected the previous nights, what had I done? At that moment, the panic completely seized me, with one last effort, I tried to run, but with a few steps he grabbed me again “No!” I yelled as loud as I could “What are you doing here?” I tried to separate my body from his with all my might “You know perfectly what I have come for” that metallic screech resounded in my ears with peculiar annoyance.
No, no, no. I didn´t want to, I couldn´t believe it, “Please…” the tears ran down my cheeks “Please… Leave me alone…” I sobbed uncontrollably, while my body collapsed on his, rendered by the struggle “Inside you, you know that I can’t” his arms held me tighter “Please…” my cry was already a single whisper “Just sleep” he passed one of his hands in front of my face.
He lifted me in his arms, while my eyelids closed completely.
The firelight was completely extinguished.
The last I remember of that night is the sound of his footsteps, I never understood why it had happened.
And now he’s dear and so unsure
I wonder why I didn’t see it there before
When I woke up I was in a foreign place. It was a small cabin, quite minimalist in the middle of a forest, surrounded by absolutely nothing but trees, I could suspect that near where I was there was a body of water since I could hear it, a small waterfall perhaps, or a small lake.
I walked a little through that small place, I had everything I needed, clothes, food, products for my care. Even though the place was a bit cozy, I felt quite scared, I still didn´t understand what was happening, however, I found enough comfort in the fact that that black figure wasn´t with me.
I spent a few days in solitude, days that I took the opportunity to go into the surroundings of the cabin. I wanted to know if there was a nearby place where I could ask for help, but I didn’t find anything.
One afternoon, returning home, I noticed that there was something strange, the door of the cabin was open, smoke was coming out of the chimney and a small light illuminated the main room, I understood that that black figure had returned and before entering I contemplated the possibility to flee, but where? Besides, if he had been able to trace me to Cantonica, he would be more than capable of finding me in this place, so, despite my desire to do so, I entered the cabin.
He was sitting again on a sofa in front of the fire, this time I could observe him better, he wasn´t wearing his helmet, so I could see his long, black and wavy hair “Where were you?” his voice sounded very deep, very different without that mask, I didn’t know what to answer so I remained silent “I asked you a question!” he yelled and his voice echoed through all the walls “I went out to see the surroundings” I answered fearfully, with a blow he got up from his place and in a few steps he reached where I was, one of his hands held my chin and looked at me in the eyes “You will never leave this place if I don´t allow it!” at that moment panic took hold of me again, my legs were shaking and I closed my eyes and a few tears escaped. His hand left my face and I could feel him walking past me “I left food in the kitchen…” I could hear a small sigh from him “I also left you some clothes and supplies in your room” and without saying more he left the cabin slamming the door.
These types of encounters were repeated a few more times, every time he came to see me he left me supplies, dresses made with fabrics that I had never seen before, and some other gifts, such as necklaces, bracelets, and sweets. I didn’t understand what was happening. Who was this man? Why had he brought me to this place? What did he want from me?
One of those many nights that he had come to see me I decided it was time to confront him, I appreciated the details he had with me, but I couldn’t say that I was grateful, at the end of the day, this man had kidnapped me and I still didn’t know why.
“Who you are?” I asked before he went out the door again “That doesn’t matter” he answered without even turning to look at me, for a moment my blood boiled, I was tired of him appearing and disappearing without giving me explanations, without saying anything “Of course it matters!” I didn’t notice the tone of my voice, and yet he kept walking without saying anything to me “Is this all a twisted little fantasy of yours?”, he was about to reach the door when he turned his face suddenly, I could notice how his brow frowned “You´re exceeding a limit that you should not cross” he threatened me raising one of his hands and pointing one of his fingers at me, something in my stomach told me that I should stop with this confrontation, but I couldn't… “I need answers!” now it was me who was walking towards him with an outstretched hand and a finger pointing at him “I know you have brought me here because I manipulate the Force!” I yelled at him as my finger sank into his chest “But I don’t know why I’m here or why you’re doing this and…” his always stoic face, began to flood with a red color “I’m done! I will not continue with this! ” Suddenly a roar was present and all the furniture in the house went flying “You will do what I tell you!” he yelled as he paced back and forth “I’m not your toy!” Even though my body was shaking with fear and helplessness, my anger was even greater, “You can’t have me here” I threw it in his face once more “Of course I can and I will continue to do so” he turned his back on me once more and went out the door, I ran after him to reach him, but the darkness of the forest didn´t let me see him…
She glanced this way, I thought I saw
And when we touched she didn’t shudder at my paw
Once again, I was alone in that place, without knowing what to do or why, full of anger, anger, and fear…
A few weeks went by without him showing up at the cabin, so I take advantage of all those days to tidy up the house, clean, and review some of the things that he had brought. The truth is that I refused to wear several of the clothes that he had given me, as well as the jewels, so I had simply put it away without paying any more attention, but now, with many time alone, I looked closely at it and I could notice each one of it were quite exquisite.
The days continued to pass without knowing anything about him, for some strange reason, I was beginning to miss his presence, I hadn´t noticed before, but the truth is that he was quite a handsome man, although, every time this idea crossed my mind I felt quite guilty and angry at me.
The weeks became months, I began to wonder if I would see him again or if I had to accept the idea that I was stranded in that place with no one else around me. I began to have small panic attacks due to my loneliness and some nights I implored to see him again.
One morning I went for a walk to the nearby stream, indeed, it had a small waterfall, it was a comfortable place that filled me with tranquility, when I returned to the cabin, I noticed that the door was open and my heart jumped, I didn’t know if it jolts with joy or scared, but I ran inside right away.
There were a few pieces of furniture lying around, I started to feel scared. I kept going until I reached the bathroom, where I found him lying on the floor, he was injured. I immediately rushed to the ground and tried to hold him “Don’t touch me!” he growled as his hands tried to remove mine from his body “You’re bleeding!” I insisted holding his hands with mine “I don’t need your pity…” he growled again, I turned to see him, our eyes were fixed for a few seconds, I could see that he felt pain and I weighed all that we had previously experienced and I felt the need to attend to him “Let me help you…” I spoke softly “Please…” he nodded slightly and I took it for a yes, despite his pride wasn´t allowing him to say it, he wanted my help.
No it can’t be, I’ll just ignore
But then she’s never looked at me that way before
That night he slept in my bed. When I woke up the next morning, I assumed that it was likely that he was no longer in the cabin. I was so surprised to see him still asleep that a small smile spread across my face. He was a completely different person, calm. The little light that filtered in through the window finely illuminated the features of his face and my heart jumped slightly with a strangely warm, not out of fear or insecurity, so I left that room a bit confused by what I just felt.
The days went by, and he… He stayed with me in the cabin. Little by little, we began to exchange more words, although not many, he was a man who spoke little. He began to help me with the little chores of the house, although he was quite clumsy at first, he improved as the days went by. He even offered to help me with the little herb garden that I had started to build in the garden.
Slowly his laughter began to flood our meals, and his stories about his travels across the Galaxy catch me at night. I learned about things that I didn´t know existed thanks to him and my heart kept jumping every hour that I enjoyed his company.
On one occasion I asked him if he wouldn´t go away again, the only thing he answered was that there was no place out there where he belonged. At that moment I understood that the Beast that had appeared a year ago in the room of my old home no longer existed and it was in that moment that I decided that that place where we were, in the middle of nowhere and far from everything, was now the home of both, however, I still felt my doubts, what if the bond that we were beginning to have was just a product of my imagination.
New and a bit alarming
Who’d have ever thought that this could be?
One morning, after waking up next to him, I wanted to put a plan to the test: the night before I had prepared a basket with some food, my idea was to ask him to accompany me to the forest to find some berries to plant in the garden. That morning I fixed myself with one of the dresses that he had brought me during one of his first visits and that I had never worn. When he got up, I had everything ready.
"I’m going to need your help today…”, he just looked at me a little confused “Please get ready before we get late”. A few minutes later he left the room towards the kitchen where I was “Hold this” I gave him the basket, his face was full of confusion, he couldn´t understand what was happening, I walked to the door and turned to see him “What are you waiting? Let’s go!” and I smiled at him as I walked out the door.
We walked for a few minutes in the forest without saying anything until we reached the stream. Once on the shore, I spread the blanket, I approached him, took the basket, and sat on the ground, he just imitated my steps. I took out some of the bites that were in the basket and we began to eat, we never speak. When we finished, I looked back at him.
“I don’t know much about you…”, he just fixed his eyes on mine “And you don’t know much about me…” I started to take off my shoes “But we´re both… Living in this place…” the sound of the waterfall was like little sinfonie behind us “I didn’t get here of my own free will and I still don’t understand why…” I plunged my feet into the water “But I’ve grown to love this place…” I turned to look at him and a huge smile was painted on my lips “And I’ve started to take a strange affection for you, although I don’t know if I should…” and suddenly, everything changed.
The birds sang around us, the sound of the waterfall became louder, and his lips… His lips were on mine with an intensity that I had never felt. One of his hands was holding my neck, while the other was holding one of mine firmly. His caress was soft, however, somewhat desperate, but full of passion “Ben…” he whispered as a smile touched his lips and his hand caressed my cheek “My name is Ben”. At no time did his eyes leave mine and my heart burned completely “Well, Hello Ben” I went over to kiss him again “Welcome home”.
True that he’s not Prince Charming
But there’s something in him that I simply didn’t see
I leave you the list of Prompts for this season!
How does it work?
- Select 2 numbers from the list.
- Select the character you want the story about: Kylo Ren, Ben Solo, or Armitage Hux.
- Select the topic: Fluff, Smut, or Angst.
- They will be short stories of maximum 1,000 words.
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100 Prompt List
- You´re so beautiful.
- Can I hold your hand?
- Bite me!
- What are you thinking?
- Just this time.
- Will you stay?
- I promise I will never let anything bad happen to you.
- All I wanted was you.
- I don’t trust myself around you.
- Take me back.
- I´m just scared that one day you find someone better than me.
- It wasn´t supposed to happen this way.
- Please be careful, this is my first time doing this.
- I don’t understand why you get like this.
- It’s because I’m jealous!
- Just relax.
- Relax, everything will be fine.
- I’ll be in my room in case you need me.
- Just say it and I’ll stop.
- Because I love you!
- Don’t look to me to apologize.
- How could you do this to me?
- You will speak when I say you can.
- Who do you think you are?
- Please, forgive me.
- I’m nothing without you.
- You will do what I say!
- You like that, right?
- Please stop, you’re hurting me!
- I would like to apologize, but the truth is that I do not regret it.
- Do you think anyone knows?
- Who do you think you are to talk to me like that!?
- Just a little more.
- Are you trying to turn me on?
- Why are you looking at me like that?
- I hate that you behave like that!
- I’d give anything to kiss you right now.
- Never go near him again!
- You are just mine.
- Can you give me a cigarette?
- You don’t know what you are saying!
- I will never tire of looking at you.
- Could you teach me to do it?
- I would like to leave it all behind!
- You have no idea how I feel!
- I hate you so much!
- You’ve only manipulated me all this time!
- It is not what you think.
- You are reckless.
- I would like to freeze this moment.
- What we are doing is wrong.
- Things shouldn’t have happened like this.
- Everything they/he/she told you is not true.
- Can I hold your hand?
- Come here.
- Why are you so nervous?
- Don’t tell me what to do!
- Why me?
- I want to be with you no matter what happens.
- I would like to try it.
- Do not leave me.
- Let’s just enjoy this moment.
- It’s all your fault!
- None of this would have happened if I had done it right.
- Who did this to you?
- Tell me what you want.
- I am at your mercy.
- You’re bleeding!
- Let ‘me help you.
- I am worth much more than you think!
- I am not a trophy that you must win!
- You are such a nasty boy/girl.
- Open your mouth.
- On your knees.
- Next time I won’t be so nice.
- Do you think you deserve it?
- Shout my name!
- You’re going to cum when I say so.
- Who is your owner?
- Beg me.
- Not so fast, we have time.
- Let me take care of you.
- You will behave well.
- Go on, don’t stop!
- Just a little more.
- Only for this occasion.
- Someone can see us.
- I wish I had never crossed paths with you!
- Stay still for just a second.
- You, and you fucking pride!
- I can not continue with this!
- What can I do to make you feel better?
- You are so needy.
- This moment is just for you.
- What are you hiding from me?
- I don’t understand why you behave like this.
- Just shut up!
- I don’t want to leave, but I have to.
- And haven’t you ever thought that if I do it is because I feel something else for you!?
- Just tell me what’s wrong.
Let’s play!
All this weekend I´ll be prepared to answer all your questions about Armitage HuxandKylo Ren of any kind, whether it be flufforsmut, so shot your darkest and most perverted doubts or your sweetest and most tender concerns about these two gentlemen.
I promise not to keep anything at all.
Your darling (and mistress),
Black Diamond.
Y/N: Well, this is a nice change of scenery.
Kylo: It’s a prison cell.
Y/N: I was being sarcastic.
So she dances
@adamdriverfangirl666 asked: Fluff n° 1, please ღゝ◡╹)ノ♡
A/N: I hope you enjoy it. it’s a little something-something. It’s short and sweet.
Also- listened to Josh Groban while writing this. Low key inspired it.
Prompt:1. “How can you love a monster?”
WARNINGS: none. Fluff.
She took careful steps on the tips of her toes as she danced around the open room. Her dress was pale pink and her hair was a tasseled beautiful mess. In the moonlight, the tops of her cheeks glowed and her eyelids glittered. The room was silent but he could hear the music in her head, playing like a soft wind up music box. She smiled for no one but he felt like it was just for him.
Everything about her was graceful. He wanted nothing more than to take (y/n) into his arms but that would have meant for him to step into the light. He was not ready yet to stop watching her.
She was innocent, lost in her own little world. He could see the visions in her head. A grand ball on some planet, she the princess and he the one she’s been waiting for. They’re happy. So in love.
Kylo took a step out of the shadows. Her eyes meet his and her lips curled into a fresh smile.
“Dance with me,” she sang offering her hand.
“There’s no music.”
“There doesn’t have to be.”
He took her hand unafraid and spun her around before pulling her close. She was Petite next to him and her hands the size of a child’s in his. She followed his lead and he swayed her round the perimeter of the room. (Y/n) glided as if she was on air. They moved naturally together.
“I’m so happy you’re here.” (Y/n) sighed contently.
Kylo lowered his lips to meet hers, kissing her delicately. “What I wouldn’t give for it to be this way all the time.”
“Me too.”
“I must admit, I’m not the best version of myself without you. I’m messy, angry all the time, and have murderous thoughts. I’ve done bad things while away from you. Things you would not approve of. I saw the scavenger and she called me a monster. She’s right. It’s what I am.” He frowned. “How can you love a monster?”
She cupped his face in her hands and kissed both his cheeks. “You are not perfect and neither am I. Kylo Ren I don’t think you’re a monster. I just think you’re a creature that wants to be understood.”
Kylo lifted her into the air and spun her around. “You are the absolute love of my life and I don’t deserve you.”
“It’s not about what you deserve,” (y/n) stopped to pull him flush against her. “It’s about what you need. You need me as I need you.”
“I love you.” He leaned in halfway.
“I love you too.” She met him in the middle.
This is just a cute Kylo x Reader idea that I came up with. Enjoy!
“I know you’re there,” you whispered.
“I am,” Kylo confirmed.
“I don’t want to talk right now,” you sighed resting your head against your knees.
“Y/n, I-”
“Please, don’t” you cut him off. You didn’t have the mental capacity to do this, not now. You didn’t want to do any of this anyone. No more light side, no more dark side, no more force. You were tired of fighting this unbeatable battle. You were tired of fighting him.
“You’re not alone,” he replied, sitting across from you. He had never seen you look so hopeless or defeated before and it made his chest ache.
But weren’t you though? You have been for as long as you could remember. And now the resistance only cared about you because of what you could offer them. They didn’t know you, no one did.
“I do,” Kylo said.
You didn’t realize that he could read your mind through the force connection. You looked up at him, he was staring at you with such sincerity and softness. Something you liked to believe he reserved only for you.
“Why are you here Kylo?” you asked tiredly.
“You needed me,” he replied as if it was the most obvious thing in the world.
After a moment of not receiving a response, he asked, “Where are you? I can’t see your surroundings, just you,”
“We can’t do this,” you whispered softly.
And it was true, whatever ‘this’ thing was that connected you, you could never act on it. You couldn’t go to the dark side and he wouldn’t come back to the light. That is one reason that your feelings for him scared you so much. You had watched him do horrible things, but when you looked at him there was no room for hatred or fear. You simply wanted to be with him and to save him from the cruel world that you were both forced to be a part of.
“Don’t be afraid, I feel it too,” he said reaching out his hand towards you.
You felt so safe in his presence and part of you wished that you could stay like that. You wished that the two of you could stay there in that room together and forget about the First Order and the Resistance.
You stared at him for a moment before returning the gesture. Your fingers touched and that is when you saw it. The outline of the future, the two of you fighting together, and you felt a consuming loss. You wondered if he felt it too, but when your eyes met his he merely smiled at you for the briefest of seconds.
Then Luke barged in and yelled for you to stop throwing you backwards with the force, not realizing how much his fear had magnified his power. Your head hit the stone and everything around you faded.
Kylo watched in horror as he heard his old master and saw the fear in your eyes. He watched you being thrown backward and then the connection was broken.
“Y/n?” he reached out with his mind, but it was no use.
He needed to know that you were alright. He wanted to yell, not out of anger but out of fear. He felt so helpless. What was the point of the force connecting the two of you if he couldn’t protect you?
Then the conflict within him started again. Why did he care? He wasn’t supposed to. He was supposed to be a part of the dark side. No emotions, no mercy. Only power. And he did want to be powerful like his grandfather, at least he thought he did.
But then there was you. He couldn’t explain or understand the way he felt around you. It was like he was more. More than Ben Solo or Kylo Ren, more than the dark side or the light side. Just more. His feelings for you were the source of the growing conflict in him and it was tearing him apart. The only time that he didn’t feel it was when he was with you.
He waited, still sitting criss-cross on the floor of his room. He was struggling against everything, his humanity getting the best of him. That is when he felt it. You were back, he immediately took in your appearance. Aside from some blood on the side of your head and your eyes being red, you seemed to be fine.
“Neither are you,” you said sitting across from him again.
“What?”
“Earlier you said that I was not alone, neither are you,” you explained.
“Are you okay?” you both said in unison.
“Me? I’m not the one who was just attacked by Luke Skywalker,” he said confused.
“I’m fine, he didn’t mean it, he was just scared,”
“Why do you do that?” Kylo asked staring at you again.
“Do what?”
“Why do you refuse to see the bad in people?”
“The world isn’t just light or dark. People aren’t all bad or all good. They are a chaotic mix of the two. As long as they are alive there is always hope,” you explained.
There was a pause as he looked at you again as if really seeing you for the first time. You really were unlike any other person he’d ever met.
“Are you okay?” you asked breaking the silence.
“There is something that I have to do, but I don’t know if I have the strength to do it,” he revealed looking down at his hands.
“Whatever it is, you don’t have to do it alone,” you promised.
“I know,”
“Y/n I lo-” he started
“I know,” you smiled.
“I have to go, I’ll see you soon,” he said before the connection ended.
You didn’t have to ask, somehow you knew that he was going to Snoke, prepared to end him. You wouldn’t let him go alone and quickly prepared to leave. You thanked Luke for everything and boarded your ship directed towards the Supremacy.
So I watch all of the Star Wars movies for the first time and I figured that there was no better way to jump start my return to tumblr than with a Star Wars imagine. So, here we go!
Here you were face to face with Supreme Leader Snoke. This is where you were going to die, Kylo had seen it happen in his dreams. This is where it was always meant to end.
Regardless of how bleak the entirety of the situation had seemed, you refused to lose hope. You fought back with everything you had in you and resisted giving in to the torture. You would rather die than to join the dark side.
Kylo struggled to watch as your face contorted in pain. He didn’t know why he cared. He wished that he could understand it because maybe if he could understand it he could put an end to it once and for all. He was Kylo Ren, grandson of Darth Vader. So why was he struggling with your inevitable demise?
His inner conflict was supposed to die when he killed his father. That was supposed to sever all ties he had to the light side and cement his commitment to the dark side. He should be well on his way to conquering the universe and dismantle the resistance. You were a Jedi, he was a Knight of Ren, opposition was your destiny. He most certainly should not be having any sort of hesitation in watching you die. But as he watched the scene unfold in front of him he realized that he didn’t want to kill you, he wanted to know you.
The two of you had only met a couple of times, but there was an undeniable connection between you. Your fire enchanted him. You were so passionate, brave, strong, and resilient. When you were with him he didn’t feel fear or hate radiating off you. It was something else entirely. It made him feel a draw, not necessarily to the light, but to you. It brought him a connection to his past that wasn’t accompanied by guilt or hatred. This feeling he got gave him hope for a future where he could be something more.
So when the Supreme Leader had placed you in front of him and ordered him to complete his training by ending you and the Jedis once and for all, he knew what he had to do. He looked you in the eyes as he drew his light-saber. Even facing death, you were not afraid of him, you didn’t hate him, if anything, you felt bad for him. You simply closed your eyes waiting for the blow that would end it all.
The expected blow never came. Instead, you were shocked to see that he used the force to activate your light-saber and kill the Supreme Leader. He gestured for it to come to you and together the two of you fought the Praetorian guardsmen. Your mind was racing about what this meant, however, you found it hard to think too much about it as you were both fighting for your lives.
The fight was intense, but together you persisted. You were in a one on one with one of the guards when you noticed Kylo was being overtaken completely unarmed. You didn’t hesitate to throw him your light-saber while using the force to summon his. In the mere seconds, it took to appear, your attacker managed to slice at your stomach. You immediately retaliated ending the fight in one strike. You made your way over to Kylo who was just ending his own battle.
You stared at him, briefly at a total loss for words. Your brain couldn’t comprehend everything that had just happened. He met your glaze and there was so much tension between the two of you.
“Thank you,” you spoke mentally cursing yourself for not coming up with something better.
“What?” he asked as your voice drew him out of his own thoughts.
“I said ‘thank you’, you know for saving my life and all” you repeated.
“Of course,”
“So, what happens now?”
“Join me,” he says softly.
“What? What about the Resistance and the First Order?”
“Forget them. We can leave all of it behind, just you and me against the galaxy,” he answered looking at you hopefully.
“I can never go back to the Resistance not with everything I’ve done. I’d never be able to look my mom in the eyes again. And I don’t belong here on the dark side. I can see it now, it’s a losing battle, just the past repeating itself. But it doesn’t have to be with us. We can leave here today and create our own future. When this ship crashes, everyone will think we were on it. We won’t have to be pawns in their game anymore.”
“I-I don’t know,” you answered mind racing at the possibility.
“Come on Y/n, you can’t tell me you don’t feel this connection between us. Come with me, please,” he begged as he reached out his hand.
The two of you were running out of time. It wouldn’t be long until someone discovered you or until the ship crashed. It was now or never. You had to make a decision.
You were torn between going with your heart and your sense of duty. You owed your life to the resistance and believed in their cause, but Kylo was right about the undeniable connection between the two of you. Deep down you knew that if you didn’t leave with him that your paths would continue to cross until one of you wound up having to kill the other. And he was right, he could never join the resistance, they wouldn’t trust him and if the dark side found out he spared you they would kill him. He had risked everything to save your life, maybe this was how you would save his.
“Okay,” you decide, taking his hand.
His entire face lit up, he was so relieved that you weren’t abandoning him. There was so much that he wanted to say to you, but there wasn’t enough time. Instead, he simply nodded and led you away. The two of you boarded a ship and made it out into free space far away from all of the action. Kylo was familiarizing himself with the controls and set-up of the ship, taking a moment to breathe still slightly in denial after what had just happened.
You were scoping out the resources on the plain and your adrenaline was beginning to wear off. For the first time, you were beginning to feel the extent of your injury. You glanced up to make sure you were still alone and proceeded to lift up the top of your outfit to access the damage. There was a lot of blood and the wound seemed deep. You reminded yourself that it most likely wasn’t as bad as it looked. The previously dull ache was quickly escalating into fiery agony and your breathing was becoming shaky. How had you not noticed this earlier?
You quickly re-positioned yourself and tore off some fabric to wrap tightly and apply pressure to the wound. Everything was going to be fine, you just needed it to stop bleeding. It’s fine, you reassured yourself.
Meanwhile, Kylo had asked you where it was that you wanted to go. When he didn’t get a response he realized that you hadn’t returned from exploring the ship’s resources. He still couldn’t believe that you had agreed to join him and that the two of you were actually going to do this. You were going to get out of this messed up fight once and for all. He was busy thinking about the life that the two of you could create when he felt it. Something was wrong, something was wrong with you. He immediately went in search of you.
When he saw you, he cursed himself for not noticing your injury sooner. You were semi-reclined struggling to apply pressure as the exertion of the day and the consequences of your injury were combined and working against you. Your face was covered in sweat and the palest he’d ever seen it.
“Why didn’t you tell me?” he asked as he sat across from you.
“It’s not that bad,” you answered.
“Of course you don’t think it’s that bad,” he chuckled, “let me have a look,”
He lifted your hands and removed the already red fabric. In his presence allowed yourself to relax. You wanted to let go and give in to the exhaustion, knowing you were in good hands.
“Hey now, I’m going to take care of you, just stay awake,”
He then put his hand on your wound which caused you to groan in pain jerking away from his touch. He apologized and then closed his eyes to focus. He used the force to slowly heal your injury. You watched in utter awe. When he finished his eyes met yours and you both smiled.
“That’s the second time you saved my life today,” you spoke.
“Just evening up the score,” he replied moving to sit next to you. You rest your head against him and just took in his presence.
Kylo was slightly caught off guard by this action as it was completely foreign to him. He quickly decided that he liked it.
“So, what happens now?” you asked.
“Now, we make our own destiny,” he answered taking your hand in his.
The Sun and The Moon
(Kylo Ren/Ben Solo x Reader)
Episode III: The Five Mistakes of a Jedi
- Summary: “You were one of the 12 Padawans that Luke Skywalker taught. There, you met the love of your life. Your first best friend, your first lover and your first boyfriend; Ben Solo. Everything was perfect. That is, until the Jedi temple was burned by Ben Solo himself. 5 years pass since you last saw him and he isn’t the man you used to know. The Moon preferred darkness and in that darkness, Kylo Ren was born.”
Warnings: some swearing, murder and NSFW content.
The Sun and The Moon Masterlist
18 years old
“Hey Y/N, wake up,” you heard a voice whisper to you. You let out a moan, snuggling deeper into your bed. “C’mon, wake up.”
Your eyes fluttered open to see Ben with the widest smile ever, holding a plate of pancakes drizzled with chocolate syrup and whipped cream. Candles with the number ‘18’ was stuck on top of the breakfast creation.
“Happy birthday my Sun,” he spoke, moving over to kiss you on your forehead. You hummed in approval. “I made you something.”
“I can see that,” you grinned, getting up from your bed to grab the delicious looking plate of pancakes. “It looks amazing.”
You begun eating, moaning everytime you have the syrup mixed in with whipped cream. Ben sat down, watching with a grin on his face. “Can you believe you are finally 18?”
You slowed down eating slightly, an uneasy look settling on your face. Ben took notice of this look and grabbed your hand. “Hey, what’s wrong?”
“Nothing, it’s just-“ you put the plate down, shaking your head. You then rubbed your temple before facing the love of your life. “I’m 18. You’re almost 21. You should’ve become a Jedi this year with Almec, Daario and Leirra and gone with Luke to the Resistance base. But you didn’t. Why?”
“Y/N-“
“Why?”
Ben sighed, letting go of your hand. “If we become Jedi, it means we must potentially end things with one another. And- and I don’t want that.”
“We don’t have to, we can keep everything in secret,” you told him. Ben let out a bitter laugh, getting up from his seat.
“Please, you’re telling me Luke wouldn’t know? He already knows and he won’t let us train with each other as Padawans,” he spoke, brushing his hair back. “Imagine if we were Jedi? He would banish the both of us. Shame us. Because God forbid that I, Ben Solo, am ever happy and found someone who actually loves me.”
“Ben-“
“All my life, I felt like I had to prove something to my Uncle. That I’m not like Grandfather. And everytime, he always spits on my face, trying to get rid of everyone I love. But I won’t let that happen, no, that won’t happen. Because I won’t let it,” Ben continued on. He then looked at you, seeing your eyes looking at him in confusion. “But let’s not talk about that now. Today is your birthday. And I have a surprise for you tonight.”
You let out a small laugh, still a bit taken back by his little rant. He was breathing deeply, his eyes moving around your room like he regretted the words coming out of his mouth. His eyes looked at yours, desperate to hear you say something, anything.
“I can’t wait.”
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Ben sat patiently on his chair, nervously bouncing his knee. He had spent hours trying to arrange this; a table near the edge of the cliff, rose petals scattered across the table, a candle illuminating the environment and a gourmet meal that he had prepared himself.
It would’ve been quicker to arrange, if he had help by a friend. But he didn’t. No one liked Ben, or in his mind he thought no one did. In his mind however, that did not matter. You were all he needed.
But see, the thing is, when you rely on one person, that person becomes your whole life. Your day doesn’t start until their’s does. What you do depends on what the other person wants to do. Your thoughts, behaviour, is affected by their’s. And that concept is dangerous. Because once that person exits their life, whether by death or purpose, their own life crashes, burns. And they are left with nothing but ashes, a reminder of what was.
And then, their lives have no purpose but what the next person asks them of. That is what it means to be dependent.
And that is how Ben was. You both never noticed at that time, but he was someone who relied heavily on you. Maybe you should have realised, when you saw the way his eyes lit up the moment you walked towards him in a white, silky dress, pearls adorned on your hair.
“You look amazing,” Ben spoke breathlessly, watching how the candle accentuated your features. You smiled lovingly at him, walking over and pressing a kiss on his lips.
And then the last night you would ever spend the with him, unbeknownst to you, went on. Many laughs and kisses were shared. It was a night you would not forget. And it wasn’t because you lost your virginity to the man you love on your 18th birthday, you wished that reason was why this night was so memorable.
But that might, you had made fivemistakes.
“I’m ready,” you spoke in a quiet voice, looking at him in awe, like he was the one who created all the things in the galaxy. Ben scrunched his eyebrows in confusion, not understanding what you were hinting. “I want you to make love to me, Ben Solo.”
That was your first mistake.
Within a flash, you were pressed against the wall by Ben in your room, kissing like you haven’t seen each other in years. His hands were grabbing you wherever he could, both of you panting like starved dogs.
He picked you up before gently lying you on the bed, his lips trailing down your neck, leaving kisses along the way. You let out a breathless moan, your hand tugging at his roots. Ben then looked up, his eyes half lidded. “Are you sure?”
“More than I’ll ever be.”
And that was the night you lost your virginity. You hadn’t slept that night, too giddy with emotions that you couldn’t stop thinking how happy you were as you smiled, drawing shapes on Ben’s back. Wind quietly howled as your window was left open, stars bright in the sky.
But, as fate had willed, you had felt thirsty. Your mouth felt dry. So you quietly got up from your bed, trying not to wake up Ben. Putting on a robe, you begun walking outside to go fetch a bucket of water from the well outside.
That was your unnoticed mistake.
As you begun to attack the bucket onto the rope, you felt a buzz against your neck, feeling a presence behind you. Turning around, you were shocked to see who it was. “Almec?”
“In a flesh,” he spoke, but it sounded a bit dry, like he was wounded. You smiled at him, pulling up your robes more as you realised how you may look inappropriate right now with just a pink silk robe.
“When did you come back from the Resistance base?” You spoke, trying to make a conversation out of an awkward situation. The wind picked up, making your hair fly everywhere. Yet, you still did not hear a response from Almec. “Almec?”
“You know I loved you,” he confessed, taking a step towards you. You moved hair out of your way, looking at Almec in shock. You watched as he kept moving towards you, a broken look on his face. “I loved you. I still love you. And- and I came back to tell you that I left the Jedi. I’m no longer a Jedi. Because of you, Y/N. I want to be with you.”
“Almec-“
“But you slept with him. You slept with that little fucking bastard-“
“Almec-“
“Who fucking killed a bird when he were little and he convinced you he didn’t kill him when I saw him do it with my own eyes! I saw it Y/N! But you always want to believe him. Only him. It’s always him. It will always be him. And one day, he’s going to fuck up. But it would be too late. It will be too late for you,” he spoke, his face now mere inches away from yours. “But even then, you’ll still come running back to him. In the end, you always do.”
Tears were streaming down your face as you looked at him in anger. You looked at him with all the anger you could muster, but you didn’t say anything. You just looked at him like he had betrayed you.
That was your weakest mistake.
Because that quiet little moment, that moment of what could’ve been filled with words defending the person you love, was replaced by a kiss. A kiss you did not want, a kiss not initiated by you. A kiss you had wanted to pull away from, your sense of loyalty kicking in, but couldn’t because Almec’s arms were wrapped around you.
But it did not matter what you wanted to do. Because when someone walks by and sees, they’ll see merely two people kissing.
And that’s exactly what Ben saw. You did not see him, he made his presence known by pushing Almec away from you.
“Ben!” You screamed, as you watched him continuously punch Almec, his eyes black as night. That had taken you back. “Ben stop it! Ben please stop it!”
He did not listen as Almec’s blood splattered against his face. And he didn’t even flinch. You watch, now even more horrified. The most horrified you’ve ever been in your life. You could tell that Almec was in the verge of death. This man, a man you’d known for ages, was going to die in the hands of your lover if you did not intervene.
So you did what you had to do. You used the force against him and pushed him away. Far away from you and Almec. When you made sure he was far away, you ran towards Almec, cradling his head in your arms as he let out a groan. You looked at Ben, who looked just as horrified as you did. “Y/N-“
“Leave,” you spoke, the tone in your voice holding a strict seriousness within it. Ben stood up, gulping as he looked at you, his eyes shining like he was trying to hold back tears.
“Y/N-“
“Leave!” You screamed as you stood up, the wind picking up from the strong aura of the force that surrounded you. Ben looked at you one last time before nodding, turning to look away.
And you did not chase after him.
That was your worst mistake.
You should’ve ran after him. You should’ve been there with him at his most vulnerable state, a state where he could be manipulated by anyone and anything.
As you patched up Almec at the infirmary, not wanting anyone to find out about what had just took place, your mind was thinking about Ben. And how Almec was right about you always running back to him. But you won’t. Not this time. Not looking at Almec’s face, his barely unidentifiable face.
“Y/N, I’m so sorry,” Almec spoke, his voice coming out a whisper due to his probably broken ribs. You ignored him, moving water through the force to ice out his injuries. “I- I didn’t mean to. To cause a rift between you two. I- I just love you so much, and-“
“Okay, that’s done. Just make sure you apply a new bandaid every 6 hours after putting on disinfectant,” you instructed. Almec nodded, taking the hint. You gave him one last look before walking off to your quarters.
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It was 4AM when you finally fell asleep. It was hard, but eventually you felt yourself drifting into oblivion.
‘You wanted to kill me!’ You heard a voice cry out. You stirred in your sleep, barely awake as you clung onto your blanket. The wind howled even stronger as your windows begun to ruttle. ‘You will pay for this!’
‘Ben, no!’ You heard another voice yell. You let out a groan, fluttering your eyes open as a full-blown headache consumed you. You got up from your bed, holding your head as you let out a cry. You felt darkness consuming your body, filling your veins.
‘Ben does not exist. He is weak, a young boy clinging on love,’ you heard Ben speak. Your hand went to your mouth as you realised what was happening. The darkness that Ben had warned you about was starting to consume him. The one moment you weren’t there for him, he had invited darkness.
‘I am Kylo Ren.’
You then heard yells from outside. Running over to your window, you let out a cry as you see the temple on fire. The crackling sound was louder than the strong gust of wind. You gulped, knowing the person who started this fire.
Your hands trembled as you grabbed your lightsaber, ready to do what was necessary. Not because you were a Jedi, but because this was something only you could do.
Grabbing your cloak, you then ran over to the the temple, the heat of the fire getting hotter and hotter. You breathed in the smoke, before lifting your arms and slowly bringing it down, allowing the fire to simmer before completely evaporating. You then swallowed the nerves stuck in your throat, a tear rolling down your face as you realised what had enfolded.
Walking around the temple, sadness consumed you as you realised how little was left of this place, how there was nothing. You then let out a cry as you see 10 of the Padawans and Jedi members who had come back from Luke’s mission. They were now just blackened skeletons lying on the floor. One in particular was your friend Leirra, whose necklace was still around her neck. You sobbed as you unclipped her necklace, placing it in your pocket.
“I see you’re finally here,” you heard the now Kylo Ren speak. You let out a cry slowly standing up as you felt like your legs were about to give up on you. “I was going to kill Almec, but he ran away just in time. But now that I’ve killed all the Jedi, he can live out the rest of his days in regret before I eventually kill him.”
You stopped crying, a looking of nothingness on your face. You then turned around, looking at him. “Are you really gone, Ben Solo?”
“I killed that bird,” Kylo spoke, his face showing no remorse. “I’ve never been Ben. I’ve always been Kylo. I was showed the true power of the force. But I can show you, Y/N. I can show you the force. And together, we could rule the Galaxy.”
“You really aren’t Ben Solo if you thought I’d say yes to that,” you coldly spoke. Kylo looked slightly upset but quickly masked it. You then turned on your lightsaber, the mechanical hum coming to life. The white light of your saber illuminated your face and Kylo knew from the expression on your face that you weren’t coming back to him anytime soon.
“Would you really kill me, my Sun?” Kylo spat out the nickname he had for you bitterly as he took a step forward, challenging you.
“For the Jedi?” You spoke, thinking of all the people Kylo killed, including your friend Leirra. You took a step forward, pointing your lightsaber towards his neck. “Without question.”
Kylo pulled out his blue lightsaber, waiting for you to attack. You let out a war cry, running towards him. He quickly dogged you before swinging his lightsaber at your figure. You quickly slid down, avoiding the pulsing light by a millimeter.
You then swung your lightsaber the same time he did, your lightsabers letting out a loud hum as they made in contact with each other. You both looked each other in the eye as you tried to overpower each other. You felt the darkness within him, but you also felt his loneliness, his slight regret yet knowing it was too late to go back.
Eventually he overpowered you, pushing you towards the floor. Your lightsaber fell out of your hands as you tried to crawl away from Kylo who stopped you by using the force. You looked at him, now scared. Kylo had seen how afraid you were and for a slight secound, his face fell. He knew it. He knew you were scared of him. You were scared of him like everyone else was.
“Master Luke was right,” Kylo spoke, his lightsaber now millimeters away from your neck. “I did go too easy on you.”
Kylo breathed in, trying to do what he was told to do, what he was destined to do. The look of fear of him only delayed that so he looked away from you. When he finally breathed out, he swung the lightsaber back but hesitated.
And in that slight hesitation, Master Luke had swooped in, using the force to push Kylo away. He then faced you urgently, a look of seriousness in his face. “Run!”
“No, we can still save him!” You told him, as you saw Kylo get up, rubbing his head groaning.
“You cannot save him!” Luke yelled at you, his eyes wide in fury at your lack of cooperation. “Now run!”
You looked at Kylo one final time. The final time you’ll see him for years to come. His eyes made his way towards you. And the face you had made would be engrained in his face for eternity; the face of betrayal.
You turned around, before quickly bolting. You knew that Luke had a spaceship, so you’d get it in and get the hell away from the island. You will leave this island, forget about being a Jedi, about falling in love with Ben Solo. You will forget him. You have to forget him. You will leave this island and never look back. Because you could never go back to how things used to be. You could not save him.
That was your last mistake.
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Let The Devil In - Chapter (Four/?)
Pairing:mafia!Kylo Ren X fem!Reader
Series Summary: You had never thought that you would ever find someone you wanted to love for the rest of your life, then you practically fell into his arms.
Chapter Summary: Your date with Kylo doesn’t go too well and he feels really bad about that.
Warnings: Mentions of the reader being cheated on and abused in a past relationship and Kylo accidentally makes the reader cry
Once arriving at the fancy restaurant Kylo had picked out, the two of you were led to your table. You kept your shaking hands hidden behind your back the whole walk there, not wanting your nervousness to be too visible.
You were seated in a very secluded area of the restaurant that took walking down a long hallway to get to. This room was dimly lit and there was only one other couple in there.
The second you arrived at your table and the hostess had set down your menu’s, Kylo quickly pulled out your chair for you, making you smile at him while he then pushed the chair back in.
You smile again when Kylo sits down and his eyes meet your own, he smiled back and sent you a quick wink as he could see your waiter coming down the hallway that lead to the room you two were in.
“I’m Fin, I’ll be your waiter tonight. What can I get started for you two?” the waiter said as he started to stand in front of the table and set down the two glasses of water he brought with him down, quickly taking out his notepad and pen just moments later.
You ordered your favorite drink and Kylo ordered the most expensive whisky the restaurant had in stock like he didn’t care about expensive it could end up being.
And once the waiter left to retrieve your drinks, Kylo decided that this would be a good time to ask you some questions about yourself to get to know you better.
“So, what do you do for a living?” he asked you after he took a slow sip of his water, his dark gaze never leaving your face.
You smiled at his interest in you, “I’m a journalist and you?” you answered, still kindly smiling at him.
Kylo hesitated for a moment before he finally answered your question, “I own a few businesses.” he told you, hoping that you wouldn’t pry for more answers about what he did for a living.
You simply nodded in response prior to you taking a sip of your own water, causing you to notice that your hands had finally stopped shaking for the second time tonight.
Some air quietly exited your lungs and you let your back rest against your chair when your waiter had come back to your table, now holding the drinks you two had ordered less than ten minutes ago.
And once he was gone again to deliver to your orders to one of the chefs, Kylo asked you some more questions about yourself. You were truly fascinating to him and you thought the same of Kylo.
“Where did you grow up?” he asked, slowly reaching out to hold your hand over the table, you accepted his soft touch.
You began to rub your thumb along the back of his large hand as you started to speak again, your actions comforting you both greatly. Kylo now felt himself starting to feel more comfortable around you.
“Connecticut, I lived there my whole life until I started college. How about you? Where did you grow up?” you answered, still holding Kylo’s hand in yours in a comforting manner.
He hesitated again before he spoke and you noticed this, making you feel a bit concerned but you assured yourself that he was probably feeling nervous during this date as well.
“I’m from New York, although I have considered moving away from this city several times.” he told you with an awkward laugh.
“How old are you?” he promptly asked.
“25, and you?” you answered.
“30.” he simply said in response.
Not wanting to make him feel worse, you began to silently comfort Kylo once again and then brought up another topic you two could use to get to know more about each other.
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The two of you continued to get to know each other and talk even as the waiter came back with the meals you had ordered. Talking came so easily when you were around Kylo. He never made you feel ashamed or nervous to tell him anything.
A little while after the waiter had disappeared once more after delivering your meals, Kylo started to ask you about your dating past. You were currently on a date with him after all.
“Have you ever been in a long-term relationship before?” he kindly asked you, his eyes still locked on yours even as he ate.
This question caused you to grow quiet and your smile to leave your face as you set down the fork you were using. Tears had quickly started to pool in your eyes as you then removed the napkin from your lap and set it on the table next to your almost empty plate.
You then looked at him once as tears started to fall down your face then speedily walked out of the restaurant with your head down. You wanted to avoid the possibility of anyone seeing you cry.
Kylo’s question had reminded of you your last long-term relationship, which was somewhat towards the end of college. Kylo had accidentally reminded you of your ex who ended up cheating on you then later verbally abused you.
Kylo felt horrible for making you cry, he didn’t mean to make you upset and he wanted you to know this. So, he put a random high amount of cash on the table to pay for the meal then left the restaurant as well.
Once exiting the restaurant, he found you leaning against a nearby wall as you attempted to discreetly cry without anyone seeing or hearing you.
He then slowly approached you and lightly rested his hand on your shoulder that was now covered by a jacket you had brought with you, causing your sad eyes to look up into his as he began to frown.
“I’m so sorry, dove. It was not my intention to make you cry, I promise.” he told you, his hand slowly shifting to one of your cheeks to make sure that your eyes stayed on his.
“Just take me home, please. I’ll explain everything in the car.” you quietly told him as you wrapped your arms around yourself, letting him wipe your tears away even though the makeup you were wearing transferred onto his hand.
Kylo then softly took your hand in his again and you let him lead the way back to his car, tears still falling down your face as you walked, the moonlight making them more obvious.
Once reaching the car for the second time that evening, Kylo gave you a gentle kiss on the back of your hand before he closed the passenger side door and walked over to the drivers side of the car.
You were quiet for the first few minutes of the drive, but eventually you got the confidence to tell Kylo the truth about tonight, about why such a simple question made you cry.
“When I was in my junior year of college, my boyfriend at the time began to be verbally abusive after a girl from a nearby sorority told me that my boyfriend had cheated on me several times with some of the girls in that sorority.” you paused for a moment to let out a shaky breath and as way to silently tell you to keep going, Kylo took your hand in his again and started to comfort you like you had comforted him earlier.
You took a deep breath before continuing on with your story, “And when I confronted him about it, he had thrown all sorts of insults my way and made me like it was my fault he had cheated on me. And though I knew that I should’ve left him then, I didn’t because he was all I had at that point in time. For the next year after that, he continued to abuse me and cheat on me and I didn’t actually leave him until graduation because I knew he’d be going back to his hometown.” you made known, letting out another shaky breath once you had finished your story.
Kylo felt tears well up in his own eyes as he listened to what you had to say. The fact that someone you loved and trusted had treated you like this made him feel incredibly angry and sad. You didn’t deserve that kind of pain whatsoever.
“I’m so sorry you had to go through that, (y/n). You deserve so much better than what that man gave you and again, I’m sorry for reminding you of him.” he said as he looked over into your eyes, those pesky tears never actually leaving his eyes.
You pressed the back of his hand against your cheek and you met his gaze and responded to him, “It’s alright, Kylo, it’s not your fault. I forgive you.” you told him as your tears dried up, a smile on your face instead of a frown.
Kylo then pressed a quick kiss to your cheek and put his brown eyes back on the dark narrow roads ahead of him.
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After Kylo parked his car in front of your apartment building, he kept you close to his side as he walked you home. And as you walked, he couldn’t help but pay attention to how red your cheeks and eyes still were.
He continued to feel absolutely horrible for making you cry tonight, even if it was on accident.
You slowly let go of Kylo’s hand as you got closer to your front door so that you could grab your keys from your purse and unlock it.
“Goodnight.” you quietly tell Kylo, still not facing him as you feared you would start crying again if you did.
And just as you were about to walk into the safety of your cozy home, Kylo quickly grabbed your wrist in his hand and spun you around so that you had no choice but to look at him.
He started to hold your pretty face in both of his hands and pointed your face up slightly. He placed a very light kiss to the tip of your nose then spoke again.
“Let me make it up to you. How about the two of us have a picnic in a park I own tomorrow afternoon?” he anxiously proposed to you, reminding you of how the weekend would be starting the following day.
“Okay.” you whispered in response with the nod of your head, just wanting to be truly alone in your home in this moment.
Kylo pressed another quick kiss to your forehead and disappeared just as quickly as he had the day you bumped into him.
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Let The Devil In - Chapter (Three/?)
Pairing: mafia!Kylo Ren X fem!Reader
Series Summary: You had never thought that you would ever find someone you wanted to love for the rest of your life, then you practically fell into his arms.
Chapter Summary: You and Kylo prepare for your first date.
Warnings: One curse word but that’s it lol
Kylo stared at his reflection in the tall full length mirror in front of him as he put a pitch black blazer on over the dark grey dress shirt he had picked out. He chose these colors because he wanted you to smile and remember the day you two first met when you saw the similar looking shirt and blazer he was wearing.
He then buttoned the sleeves on his blazer and headed to his expensive looking bathroom, dark granite surrounding him, making him look like some sort of god as the light bounced off of his jaw and cheekbones.
Kylo stared at himself again as he brushed out his hair, making sure to run a moisturizing hair serum through the ends of his hair, which added a subtle shine to his hair. And once his hair looked perfect in his eyes, he brushed his teeth and applied a specific cologne that he thought you would like.
He thought you would like the cologne he had put on because it wasn’t too overwhelming but instead enchanting and comforting, like you.
And as Kylo continued to get ready, all he could think about was how it would be to see you in person again instead of just talking to you through text or over a phone call. He wanted to see how your face reacted to the things he would say to you.
He didn’t know how the rest of the night would play out. But there were two things that he was absolutely confident about, one, he would make sure that tonight would go perfect as his abilities would allow and two, he was going to hide his involvement in the mafia from you for as long as possible.
All he wanted besides you was to keep you safe and he knew that he had to hide his involvement because he couldn’t risk his enemies getting their hands on you. He couldn’t risk you getting hurt if they found out about you and him.
But if ever came down to that, he would protect you with his life.
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The second Kylo finished getting ready, he hopped in his sleek all black car and basically sped over to your apartment building, not wanting to risk being late just because he got caught up in his thoughts.
And just to his luck, your apartment was only twenty minutes away from his house. But as a result of his speeding, he made it there in only ten minutes.
In this moment he was glad that he had frightened the police enough to the point where they would no longer go after an intimidating looking car with the name ‘Ren’ on the license plates.
Once he exited his car, he quickly fixed his hair using the reflection on the hood of his car then began to jog up the stairs that led to your small apartment.
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As for you, you were still quickly getting ready, your heart pounding in your chest as you watched the clock get closer and closer to the time Kylo promised to show up by.
You were excited to see him again and actually talk to him in person but that still didn’t dissolve how nervous you felt at the same time. You just wanted him to like you.
But little did you know, you’d never have to worry about that because he was already head over heals in love with you. The only thing he felt for you was love and he hoped that this feeling would never fade.
You were wearing a long black dress that had a somewhat long slit over your right leg. You were wearing black eyeliner paired with a bright red lipstick.
And as you stared at yourself in your own mirror, you slowly took deep breaths in a desperate attempt to stop your hands from shaking so that you could put your earrings in.
Luckily for you, for times sake, they finally stopped shaking a couple minutes later and you were able to successfully put them in without accidentally poking yourself.
You then ran into your closet and slipped on your favorite pair of heals. They were your favorite as they made you nearly five inches taller than you normally were and always added a bit more confidence to your walk.
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Your heart almost stopped in your chest when you heard Kylo knock upon your front door. So, you quickly grabbed your purse, made sure you hadn’t accidentally messed up your makeup and then headed over to the door.
You went as fast as your tall heals would allow you, not wanting to make Kylo wait too long for you.
And as you opened the front door, your purse resting against your side, Kylo’s breath hitched in his throat and his eyes widened at the sight of you. You looked so gorgeous, angelic even and you quite literally took Kylo’s breath away.
He didn’t know what to say, so he just spoke from the heart the best he could in this moment.
“You look so beautiful, dove.” he told you as he softly took one of your hands into his, his eyes never leaving you.
He lets go of your hand a second later whilst he watches how his words made you smile and blush as red as the lipstick you were wearing, “Thank you, Kylo.” you paused for a moment then met his eyes, “You look very handsome.” you told him, another smile on your face.
He accepted your compliment as his own cheeks blushed and he offered you his hand again, you took it in yours immediately. 
You then pulled away from him slightly to close and lock your front door before letting Kylo lead you back to his expensive car. And as you two walked back to his car, you smiled up at him again and pressed a kiss to the back of his hand, leaving another reminder of you on his body.
And as he watched you do that, he eyes seemed to sparkle while he stared at you, simultaneously smiling at you as he felt himself fall more in love with you. You were everything he had and would ever want and he wasn’t going to let you go.
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During the whole drive to the restaurant Kylo was taking you to tonight for your date, Kylo kept letting his brown eyes drift over to you. You were his dove and he never wanted to look away from you, even while he was driving.
“You should put your eyes back on the road, dove.” you jokingly said with a laugh, teasing him by using the sweet nickname he had for you.
And to your surprise, he laughed at your shitty joke. His smile was the most beautiful thing you had ever seen, apart from him. It seemed to light up the whole car and now you were the one who couldn’t stop staring once Kylo had put his eyes back on the road.
Kylo felt similarly about your own laugh and smile. Your laugh was like a pretty symphony to his deprived ears, he wanted to hear your laugh and see you smile for the rest of time.
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Let The Devil In - Chapter (Two/?)
Pairing: mafia!Kylo Ren X fem!Reader
Series Summary: You had never thought that you would ever find someone you wanted to love for the rest of your life, then you practically fell into his arms.
Chapter Summary: You and Kylo become a bit more familiar with each other.
Warnings:Like one curse word but that’s it
As you began to run to work once more this morning, you finally realized what happened to you when you and Kylo’s eyes first met. You had fallen in love with this man at first sight.
Prior to this morning, you thought that love at first sight moments were bullshit and fake. But now that you had bumped into Kylo and fallen into his strong arms, your perspective had been changed completely.
You now believed in the idea of ‘love at first sight’ because you had experienced it first hand and it was nothing like anything you had ever experienced before.
You never wanted to let Kylo go now that you had him, loosely in your comforting grasp.
And as you continued to run to work, you wondered if you over thinking all of this. You wondered if you were already too attached this man as you hadn’t even had a proper conversation yet.
But you quickly shook these thoughts away as the building your worked in came into view. You worked at The Mustafar Times and was just starting the second half of your first year with the successful company. You were still surprised that they had even hired you in the first place.
Everything that happened to you today felt like a dream and you didn’t know what to think or feel whatsoever. You were already beginning to grow lost into the pit of quicksand that was Kylo Ren. But you weren’t complaining at all.
You wanted to love this man, not caring how weird all of this may seem from an outsiders perspective.
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Once arriving on the floor you worked in within the tall building, you nervously walked over to your bosses dark and gloomy office.
“Mr. Hux?” you softly said as you knocked onto the door to his office that was open just a few inches.
“Come in.” he coldly replied, not looking up from whatever he was working on, not even for a second.
You started to speak again once he had invited you into his office, “I apologize for being so late this morning, sir. I accidentally woke up la-.”
Your boss interrupted you as he held up his index finger to silence you, “Just get to work, Mrs. (y/l/n).” he said, still not looking up at you.
You then nodded in response though you knew he wouldn’t see your response and put the door back in the position you found it in prior to going in there to talk to Mr. Hux.
From your point of view, he was just a small man hungry for money and power. But you were still grateful for the fact that he had hired you at the most successful newspaper in all of New York.
So as a compromise with yourself, you kept your mouth shut and pretended to like him so that you wouldn’t have to worry about ever loosing your job, knowing you wouldn’t be able to afford to rent your apartment anymore if you were unemployed.
You sat down in your cubicle minutes later and then pulled out your phone as well as the business card Kylo had given you so that you could introduce yourself to him. And before you even turned your phone on, you peered over your shoulder to make sure that Mr. Hux was still distracted by his work, which he was.
You then typed Kylo’s number into your contacts and sent him a friendly sounding text.
You:
Hi! I’m (y/n), the woman who accidentally bumped into you earlier this morning. :) Sorry I got lipstick on your shirt by the way.
He responded almost right away, his heart pounding in his chest as he speedily re-read the text you had sent a few times before he responded.
Kylo Ren:
It’s alright, (y/n), don’t worry about it. It’s nice to formally meet you.
What he had said caused butterflies to appear in your stomach once again even though they were simply just words on a phone screen.
You:
Hopefully the lipstick will come off easily in the wash. And it’s nice to meet you too, I hope that I’ll bump into you again sometime soon. ;)
God, you were horrible at flirting and you hoped that Kylo understood the message you were trying to get across. Which he did, he thought that your attempt at flirting with him was cute and only made him start to like you even more then he already did.
Kylo Ren:
Again, don’t worry about it, dove. It’s okay, I promise.
His nickname for you made heat sprint your to cheeks, the areas of skin now a light pink while you smiled to yourself.
He sent another text just seconds later, making you feel more excited because of how quickly he was responding to you. You craved this kind of attention from a man like him.
Kylo Ren:
Let me take you out to one of my favorite  restaurants in the city tomorrow night, I’ll pick you up at 6:30pm. Dress formally.
You had to admit, you liked how straight forward he was with you. You liked that you didn’t have to beat around the bush when speaking to the handsome man.
You:
That works, I’ll see you then, Kylo. ;)
You then sent him the address to your apartment and shut your phone off, carefully slipping his business card back into your bag. And as much as you’d like to continue to talk to Kylo, you knew that your boss would catch you in the act eventually.
And as your fingers got settled on your somewhat old keyboard and you turned your computer on, your close work friend, Rey, startles you a bit by popping up and leaning on the barrier that separated your cubicle from hers.
You let out a noise of surprise as she began to pester you about the person you were texting as well as your tardiness this morning.
“Soo, who were you talking to?” she asked you, poking your arm as she talked to you, a grin on her face.
“No one.” you quickly said as you looked up at her with a nervous look in your eyes, her mind waiting for any possible gossip.
Rey then gave you a knowing look and settled back down into her seat, leaving you alone to process every single thing that had happened to you this particular morning on your own.
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Let The Devil In - Chapter (One/?)
Pairing: mafia!Kylo Ren X fem!Reader
Series Summary: You had never thought that you would ever find someone you wanted to love for the rest of your life, then you practically fell into his arms.
Chapter Summary: You and Kylo accidentally meet for the first time on your way to work one morning.
Warnings:None :)
Thanks to your somewhat weird sleep schedule, you ended up waking up an hour later than you normally did every morning. You decided to skip breakfast today as you quickly packed yourself lunch and anything else you would need to have with you at work today.
You then speedily got dressed, not really looking at yourself but still hoping that your boss, Mr. Hux wouldn’t be upset about your tardiness and that you would look at least somewhat decent.
And once you were completely ready for the day ahead, you quickly locked the door to your apartment and ran down the old concrete stairs outside of your tall apartment building.
Your heart was racing as you began to run down the sidewalk, tightly holding your tote bag at your side. You absolutely hated being late to anything and you hoped that this wouldn’t reflect badly on you. Especially because your still in the beginning of your hopefully long career as a journalist.
And as you continued to run to work, you began to loose touch with your surroundings, causing locals in the city to yell at you as you accidentally brushed past them at a very quick pace.
While you became closer to the end of this part of the sidewalk, you were looking over your shoulder and apologizing to the business man you had slightly bumped in to, causing him to drop his fancy looking brief case.
Your body then collided with a very tall man’s wide chest, accidentally leaving a light print of the lipstick you had on right next to the pocket on his dark grey button up shirt.
To anyone else that might interact with this man, the lipstick wouldn’t be noticeable at all, but to you it was extremely obvious. This made you feel really guilty as a result, you didn’t want to ruin a strangers clothes.
You both apologize to each other right away as you looked up to meet each other’s gaze.
As you start to back away from this man, the thin heal of your shoe gets caught into a small gap on sidewalk, causing you to drop your bag as you tried to get your shoe free. You then tripped a bit and before you even had the chance to fall onto the ground, this man slid one of his muscular arms under your back and helped you get back up on your feet.
And once you were back on your feet, he bent down briefly to free your heal from the sidewalk, making you smile and blush at this man while he retrieved your bag for you as well.
If you were being honest, he was the most beautiful man you had ever seen in your whole life and you kind of felt like you fallen in love with him the second his eyes had met yours just minutes ago.
He could feel your deep gaze on him as he did those two things for you, but he didn’t mind it and used this chance to slip his business card into your bag while you were still distracted by his pretty brown eyes.
“Here.” the man says as he kindly hands you your bag, happily smiling back at you.
You thanked him as you started to walk away, but before you could get too far away, this handsome man placed one of his large hands on your clothed shoulder, stopping you in your tracks.
“Call me.” he simply said, a smirk on his face in place of that adorable smile of his.
“Huh?” you quickly responded with furrowed eyebrows, raising one of them for just a second.
He then lifted his hand from your shoulder and pointed to your bag prior to him basically vanishing into thin air after you had looked down.
You looked inside of your bag to see his business card sitting on top of all the things you had quickly packed today. According to the card, his name was Kylo Ren and you weren’t sure why but something about that name made butterflies appear in your stomach.
Whilst Kylo walked away, he couldn’t help but brightly smile to himself at the thought of you. You were soft, kind and beautiful. And up until today he had believed that there was no such thing as ‘love at first sight’. But you easily proved him wrong.
And just as his smile began to fade from his face, he looked down at the mark your lipstick had left on his shirt and just like that he was smiling again, earning confused looks from his Knights while he approached his car.
Initially, Kylo had come to this part of the city to take a walk. He wanted the sounds of the city to fill his head instead of the stressful and burdening thoughts his line of work caused.
If he was being honest with himself, he felt as though he had fallen in love with you the moment your eyes met for the first time. The way your face looked was now engraved in his mind and he liked that, he never wanted to forget you, even if you never ended up calling him.
But Kylo still hoped that you would call him sometime soon as he desperately wanted you to be in his life. Even though he didn’t even know your name yet, he didn’t care about that because you still had him falling for you either way.
He knew you would change his life for the better, that is if you let him into your life and gave him the chance to get to know and love you.
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Let The Devil In — Series Masterlist
Pairing:mafia!Kylo Ren X fem!Reader
Series Summary: You had never thought that you would ever find someone you wanted to love for the rest of your life, then you practically fell into his arms.
Warning:This fic a modern au. This story is not meant to glamorize/romanticize the mafia/mob or violence. Nor is that my intention. I don’t claim to have have a vast knowledge of mafia/mob life, but I will do my best with the help of research.
* = smut
Chapters:
His beauty never failed to astound you.
The morning light crept through your window and you slowly opened your eyes, sighing contently. For the first time in weeks you felt well rested, all thanks to him.
He was here. He was home. He was safe.
He had been gone for a month this time, one of his longest trips yet. A resistance mission to the outer rim to rescue young slave children, some possibly even force sensitive. It was an overwhelming success for the dwindling Jedi population.
You understood why he often had to leave. Gifts like his could not possibly be wasted, especially when focused on helping others.
Though he would never admit it, you knew in your heart he felt as if he could never right all the wrongs he had committed in the past. He knew that no matter what goodness he fought for, who he rescued, or what sacrifices he made, it would never be enough to redeem him. Yet, he persisted. He would never, ever fall back into his old ways. His darkest days were behind him, and he worked with every piece of his soul for the triumph of goodness in the dark world surrounding you.
He never imagined that dedicating his life to the resistance and fighting for the good of others would lead him straight to you, and you certainly never imagined falling for someone with a past like his. But his still-healing heart was one of gold, and you knew it.
Ever so slowly, as not to disturb his fragile sleep, you rolled onto your side to face him.
Your teammate. Your best friend. Your person.
You had been together for a short while now, yet you still couldn’t help but admire him as he slept. His dark hair partially covered his eyes as his chest slowly rose and fell. Minor cuts and bruises now joined the familiar scars littering his hands and arms. In this state he looked so relaxed, vulnerable, fragile even. Every fiber of his being seemed to be completely at peace. He never let anyone see this side of him when he was awake. Not even you. Not even for a single second.
That peace had been especially sparse lately. Though he felt further and further from the sith with every passing day, there were still periods when his demons took hold of him for days at a time. He would lay in bed blankly staring at the wall, sometimes attempting to meditate to keep the nightmares at bay, too afraid to move for fear he would hurt someone. He wouldn’t let you hold him or talk to him. No solution, no help, no amount of trying to get through to him, nothing could break him out.
You knew it had nothing to do with you and everything to do with his own growing and healing, but not being able to hold him through his hardest times took a toll on you. You could sense the loneliness and desperation in his bouts of darkness, but knew he didn’t trust himself to stay in control in those moments. If he ever hurt you in any way, he would never forgive himself. He would let you in on his own time, and you would be there waiting until he was ready.
He was still learning to truly trust again.
So, you settled for admiring from afar, for now. At least until you could fully convince him you were a source of healing, a safe place, that you were in this for the long haul.
And oh, you were. Lord knows, you were.
Today the demons, nightmares, and demands of the world seemed to be far away. He was all yours again, sleeping peacefully. His breathing was deep and even, face relaxed, vulnerable as ever, and in that moment you truly believed there was no way you could love him more.
You took hold of his hand and brought it up to your lips to kiss the new scratches on his knuckles. His eyelids fluttered open, revealing the gorgeous brown you had achingly missed for a month, and you could feel your heart jump just as it did the very first moment you locked eyes.
Your heart sank ever so slightly. Now that he was awake he would surely retreat back into his head, losing the state of peace you so loved to see him in. You figured he would give you a small smile and quickly turn his back to you not out of malice, but out of self-protection.
But, for once, you were wrong.
He did smile, that much you predicted, and oh how you had missed that smile. The way his face scrunched as his lips curved up. However, instead of turning his back to you, he took his hand from yours and ran it along your face, slowly caressing your cheek, seemingly trying to memorize the moment and the many freckles on your skin.
You could still feel the peace and tranquility radiating from him, and you were elated. He was choosing to trust you in this moment, to let you in and allow himself to simply breathe and feel.
His big, beautiful eyes shone in the morning sun, and you couldn’t help but smile back.
He placed a strong hand on your back and pulled you close. He pressed a light but lingering kiss on your forehead as you nuzzled into his thin shirt. You closed your eyes again, holding him tight and savoring the moment, knowing it was fleeting and the demons were bound to eventually return.
“I missed you.” He whispered into your hair.
You smiled into his strong chest. Demons be damned. In this moment, this man was yours, and you were undoubtedly his.
“Welcome home, Ben.”
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