I hope that when you kiss her you taste my lips.

I hope that when you taste my lips you go to look at me,

Yet you won’t see me, you’ll see her.

And that will break your heart,

Then you’ll finally realize,

“Damn, I miss my baby”

While I was walking hand in hand with another soul. You approached me, after shouting my name. My breathing became heavy because you murdered my heart nearly half a year ago. You proceeded to look into my eyes, once my favorite image. And speak to the guy, whose hand I was holding. You said to him “ I loved this girl with all of my heart and I still do, I was planning on marrying her one day but I did not think that I was making her as happy as I should have been so I left her for a girl that would not care anything about me, a girl that I could not hurt. I regretted losing her weeks after I made the biggest mistake of my life. I think about her everyday. So please take care of her heart and love her endlessly like I should have. Please love her for me There is no other girl out there like her, trust me I know.” and then you walked away. 

No. 22 - REGRET (Alt. 12)

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Ely is stolen from @epochandeons as per usual :)

“I don’t understand why you’re in such a mood with me!” Fao exclaimed, exasperated. Ely had been off with him since he’d come in late the night before, and he’d finally lost it with her.

“Oh, I don’t know, maybe it’s because you’ve done close to an 80 hour week this week! I hardly see you, and you’re supposed to be taking things easy! You’re not long after major surgery, or had you forgotten that bit?”

“I’m recovered, I’m fine! I got the all clear to come back to work.”

“You got the all clear to take it easy at work! You’re so bullheaded!”

“It’s not my fault the department is down two surgeons. I have to work otherwise we’d have no trauma cover! You know what it’s like.”

“Not to the point of working yourself to death. They can get locums in, you’re going to end up hurting yourself Fao!”

“I’m not going to hurt myself.” He snapped. “I’m fine. You can’t wrap me in cotton wool forever, let me life my fucking life!” He turned away from his girlfriend, grabbing his boots. “I’m taking the dog for a walk, I’m not having this conversation anymore.”

“Oh, so we’re just going to ignore it, then. Sounds about right, you ignore everything else.” Ely retorted sarcastically.

“Oh, charming.” He muttered, resting his leg on the edge of the bed to tie his laces.

Finn had been standing outside his brother’s door for most of the argument. He’d been about to knock before the raised voices, and he’d hesitated. His stomach was still flipping though, and he knew he couldn’t leave it. He couldn’t risk being alone.

He knocked gently. “Fao? Ely?”

Ely frowned. “Finn? What’s wrong?” She called.

“Can I come in?”

Ignoring Fao, Ely crossed the room to open the door. “Are you alright?”

He shook his head. “Feel all wrong. Didn’t want to be alone.”

Leg still up on the bed, Fao twisted to look at his brother, concerned. “Finn?”

“I need help.”

“Why don’t you sit down?” Ely said gently.

“Can’t.”

“Sit on the bed.” Ely told him.

She didn’t get it. “Can’t.”

Fao twisted further, trying to work out what the hell was going on. Really, he should have known better, but he wasn’t thinking. Finn was always his priority. That was, until pain overwhelmed him, and he struggled to stay upright. “Fuck.’

Finn was too distracted to pay attention to Fao, grabbing at Ely to stop himself falling.

“Oh, you have got to be kidding me.” Ely muttered, struggling to help Finn. “Fao, what’s going on?”

“Uh, I, fuck. Think I’ve done my hip.”

“The fuck do you mean done?!”

“Well, uh, it hurts.” He said weakly. “I think it’s dislocated. I’ll live. How’s Finn?”

“Ely.” Finn managed between absences and myos. “’s Fao?”

Desperately trying not to keel over, Fao grabbed at the bed and tried to sit. “Ely, there’s midaz in my bedside drawer.”

“Why can’t the two of you just take it in turns?” She grumbled, grabbing Finn’s meds. “Fao, are you going to be alright?”

“I need help getting on the bed.” He whimpered.

Finn finally lost his fight against the seizure, slipping under and convulsing.

Keeping an eye on the time, Ely swore as Finn started to seize. But there wasn’t a lot she could do, and so rushed to help Fao.

“You’ve got to be kidding me.” Fao groaned. The pain was immense, but he was more worried about Finn. He couldn’t help manage the seizure, couldn’t do much of anything. He was settled enough, and then pushed his girlfriend’s hands off of him. “Sort Finn, not me.” He snapped.

Ely knew better than to argue with him, and wordlessly crouched next to Finn. They at least had pillows to protect him a little, but really it was a waiting game until they could give Midaz. She just hoped he resolved before then.

It did, thankfully. It still left him unconscious and out of breath, his tongue bleeding and running down his cheek. Finn didn’t move, taking his time to come round.

Worried, Ely took a quick set of obs (as many as she could, anyway, and then left Finn to come round in his own time, propped up on his side. She turned her attention to her boyfriend, but one look told her all she needed to know.

“Well, that’s dislocated.”

“I can’t fucking believe this.”

Day 5

The theme is shadow.

I was interested in learning a bit about the shadow theater and interestingly enough, no one knows where exactly it started. It’s assumed that it started in India or in Central Asia-China.

Another thing that got my attention is that you can make the shadows appear to walk, swim, run etc if you’re a talented puppeteer and i never thought of this, that the actions are the difficult part and not how you tell the story.

Day 5

“regrets”

I checked out the most common regrets people have in their life and it was eye opening.

Most of them are:

• Not being healthier
• Not being spontaneous or adventurous more
• Letting friendships to die out
• Not being yourself
• Caring what others think of you
• Quitting studies
• Not going after your goals
• Worrying too much

I never thought to google what people regret the most but it’s definitely an interesting theme.

Day 7

The theme is “Chinese”.

My first impulse was to learn some Chinese but i have decided to watch a documentary about Wu Zetian.

Who is Wu Zetian? An empress of China. However, unlike the other empresses who were just partners for the emperor, this one ruled after the death of the guy.

I rarely question history and discoveries that are Nth hundred of years old but her documentary makes me suspicious of everything now.

This woman is portrayed as a tyrant and to some degree, she might be. However, many discoveries from the territory of that time and of some of her people who were hired by her, describe her otherwise.

The people who appear in the documentary also say that they think many things got destroyed after her death and she left a plank stone so the people after her write about her. That backfired because on that stone, people wrote lies and that twisted her view in history.

This is why now i can’t seem to trust everything i hear just because it happened any years ago and there are writings about it. People can still lie and have an agenda supporting or defaming something/someone.

Her documentary was very interesting and it seems like during her time, the land was very prosperous. Wu Zetian seems to have been quite the badass ruler.

Here you have the previous days and @sayitaliano makes posts for each theme/word as well so check their posts to see how they approached the topics.

Id give up all the world to go back, before I fucked everything up…

But now that you hate me..

And its over

I just wanna hold you.

..I gotta try to live with the mistakes i made..

And im having a hard time living with myself today….

royalbelial:

When I die…

… plant catnip on my grave. I want to be visited by lots and lots of cats.

TWO YEARS LATER: (muffled) “I was wrong! This is too many cats!”