#dying inside

Yaa i like this feeling..

All I want to do is close my eyes and when I open them be somewhere far away from where I am right now, where no one knows me but everyone wants to, and I a chance to finally be something.

I just wish I could tell you that I miss you,

I’m mad at you but I still love you

And I want you back in my life.

The worst you can say is no, so why am I so scared?

Good things are coming

.

.

.

at least that’s what everyone keeps telling me.

I’ve been tossed from the road I once was on

The path before me is paved with uncertainties

My mind is lost in a labyrinth of turmoil

Now all that I know is nothing at all

I’ve decided to go to war.

Not with anyone in particular but with my life.

For too long I have just followed life wherever it led me,

My life took away friends, family, and opportunities from me all while I was too busy being at war with what what going on in my own head.

Now, the fear, anxiety, and depression I have that were once my enemy have issued a treaty.

And we are going to take back my life,

Together.

why am i still alive?

because im really tired of living

depression

thingxiwouldneversay:

Gonna take drugs until I’ll collapse.

still haven’t gone to bed

have you?

Gemini:*having a laugh all day*

Also Gemini:*dying*

Friend: So how do you cope with all of the feelings?

Me: What do you mean?

Friend: Like in your fandoms, how are you supposed to handle these so called “feels”?

Me:

bleekay: