So I stopped exercising, restricting and purging for quite a while now. This past week has been really shitty and I’m kinda having a relapse and I’m kinda sorta very disgusting. I’m still the same weight as when I stopped all my bad behaviour, but I’ve gotten a lot bigger due to muscles shrinking and more fat taking over my body. I started fasting, exercising and writing in my journal and stuff and I hope to continue to do so in the future.
Right now I’m looking for effective exercises, foods, tips and tricks to melt all of this fat off fast. If you could leave a note it would be greatly appreciated :)
i’ve been fasting more lately and binging less and i am starting to feel a little more in control of my eating but overall really worried i’m gonna binge again its been 4 days minus my wine binge yesterday.
**this is my edit** The 2nd clip makes me cry inside I love Stefan and Elena together ugh:/ I feel myself self slowly braking again and I’m 2 weeks away to my clean goal and I’m not gonna let myself break.
“I’m scared that if I let myself be happy for even one moment, that the world’s just going to come crashing down. And I don’t know if I can survive that.
Spring break is over, Tomorrow back to school I’m very nervous and might relapse, going to try very hard not to self harm I haven’t In 3 weeks. My longest is 6 weeks and I’m going to go longer. But I’m going to focus on my eating disorder right now. I’m trying to stay strong because I know there’s hope! Stay strong all xoxo
~~If I ever get thin like them I’ve considered presenting female (I’m non-binary masc presenting) just bc why the fuck not they look gorgeous why can’t I?
