My tampon string keeps getting stuck in my butt crack

My smile doesn’t always mean ‘Im happy’. Sometimes it means 'I can manage’. Sometimes it just means 'Im tired of crying’.

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• Listen to the song with the lyrics and romanization here
  
• The tag for “EXO”
  
• Other vocabulary lists

These are listed in the order in which they appear in the song.

• 目（め）: eye(s)
• が: (particle) indicates sentence subject
• 覚める（さめる）: to come to one’s senses, to be disillusioned; to wake up; to regain consciousness; to become sober; to sober up
• -よう: added to verbs to indicate one is “thinking of [doing something]”
• な: (sentence ending) (masculine language) indicates emotion or emphasis; (when used with dictionary form verb) prohibition, “don’t”
• ヴィヴィッド: Japanese spelling of “vivid”
• の: (particle) modifier usually translated as “of”
• 中身（なかみ）: contents, interior; substance; filling
• は: (particle) adds emphasis; topic marker
• 独り占め（ひとりじめ）: monopolizing; hogging; having all to oneself; keeping for/to oneself
• に: (particle) indicates a direction or state; to; into; toward
• して: (particle) adds emphasis; acts as a connective
• も: (particle) even if, even though, in spite of; too, also, as well
• 良い（いい）: good, fine; agreeable; okay
• の: (sentence ending) indicates a confident conclusion; indicates emotional emphasis; (if in a rising tone) indicates a question
• 甘い（あまい）: sweet, sweet-tasting, sugary; fragrant; tempting, enticing, luring
• 罠（わな）: trap, snare
• って: (particle) indicates certainty, insistence; indicates a rhetorical question; indicates supposition (if … then); casual quoting particle
• 所（ところ）: whereupon, as a result; about to, on the verge of
• 狡い（ずるい）: sly, cunning, dishonest, sneaky; unfair
• よ: (particle) indicates certainty, emphasis, contempt, request, etc.
• 傷付ける（きずつける）: to wound, to injure; to hurt someone’s feelings; to damage
• 気（き）: heart; mind; spirit
• なんて: (suffix) such as; [things] like…
• 全然（ぜんぜん）: (if used with a negative) not at all; wholly, completely, entirely
• ない: (indicates a negative form) no, not, none
  
• お: (prefix) honorific/polite/humble prefix
• 遊び（あそび）: playing [a game]; to play (as in, “playing” in the margin of on and off, the gap before pressing a button or lever fully)
• なんか: (particle) things like…; …or something like that (often derogatory)
• じゃない: is not, am not, are not
• 君（きみ）: (male language) you
• 決まってる（きまってる） (present progressive of 決まる): to be decided, to be settled
• よね: Isn’t that right?
• 街（まち）: town, neighborhood; street, road
• で: (particle) indicates location of an action
  
• 見かけた（みかけた） (past tense of 見かける): to notice, to [happen to] see, to catch sight of
• の: (particle) nominalizes/turns verbs and adjectives into nouns; substitutes for が in subordinate phrases
• 僕（ぼく）: (male language) I; me
• 似る（にる）: to resemble, to look like, to take after; to be similar
• 誰か（だれか）: someone
• さ: (sentence ending) (masculine language) indicates assertion
• 答え（こたえ）: answer, reply, response, solution
• だって: (colloquial) after all; because; but; (particle) they say, I hear, you mean; even; too, as well, also
• 一つ（ひとつ）: only one
• いつだって: always; at any time
• 本気（ほんき）: seriousness; earnestness
• でも: (conjunction) but, however, nonetheless, even though
• 両手（りょうて）: [with] both hands
• 丈（だけ）: only, just; merely, simply
• -なんだ: indicates that the word it is attached to is the reason/explanation for something
  
• 本当（ホント）: truth, reality, actuality, fact
• のに: (particle) and yet, although, despite, even though; if only, I wish
• 鳴り（なり）: ringing [sound]
• 止まぬ（やまね） (negative form of 止む（やむ）): won’t stop, won’t cease
• 読み（よみ）: reading
• 切れぬ（きれぬ） (negative form of 切れる): to be unable to break off a relation or break up; to be unable to sever ties; to be unable to disconnect; to be unable to break, to snap, to cut
• 今夜（こんや）: this evening, tonight
• 何処にも（どこにも）: anywhere; anyplace; everywhere
• もう: already, yet, by now; now, soon, shortly, not long
• 逃げられ（にげられ） (potential form of 逃げる): to be able to escape or run away
• やしない: (auxiliary) indicates the emphatic negative form of a verb
• 頬（ほお）: cheek
• 残る（のこる）: to remain; to be left
• 痛み（いたみ）: pain, ache, soreness; damage, injury; distress, grief
• 掌（てのひら）: palm [of one’s hand]
• 感触（かんしょく）: feel [a tactile sensation]; touch
• 呆然（ぼうぜん）: dumbfounded; in a daze; overcome with surprise; in blank amazement
• ベッド: Japanese spelling of “bed”
• 上（うえ）: above, over, on top; surface, on
• 待ってる（まってる） (present progressive of 待つ): is waiting
• から: (particle) because, since
• 響く（ひびく）: to resound; to be heard from far away
• 叩かれる（たたかれる） (potential form of 叩く): to knock; to strike, to tap
• 此の（この）: (something/someone close to the speaker or ideas expressed by the speaker) this/these
  
• 空（そら）: the sky; the heavens; the air
• 散らばる（さらばる）: to be scattered about
• 星（ほし）: star(s)
• 夜（よる）: evening, night
• 開ける（あける）: to dawn, to grow light; to end (a period or season)
• 時（とき）: moment; time; hour

msstarsword:

Being a Online Female Gamer and What we Face…

So my BF and I were playing a mod called Osiris something (don’t remember the name) on a video game last night called Mount & Blade Warband. He bought it for me as a gift because he is amazing, but that’s not the point of this post.

Anyway, as we played I got called the usual names like “tits” and “pussy,” and he kept apologizing to me for how rude they were being and he was worried how I was taking it. I just kept responding with the same old “it’s fine, it’s been this way forever, it’s nothing new, it’s not the first time and it won’t be the last.”

But I realized something as I woke up this morning— It’s NOT fine. Women should be able to play games and not get lewd comments all the fucking time. And although it may not phase me (I’ll admit it sure as hell phased 14 year old me when I started online gaming) it may still phase other women a lot! Being objectified for our genitalia and being told to “go save yo pussy starsword, it’s the part worth savin!” Is definitely not ok, this wouldn’t fly in real life. I just wanted to put this out there, I don’t know if there is some movement specifically against this but I feel it important to talk about. Thanks for listening to my ramblings.

-MsStarSword, who is sick of saying “it’s fine.”

So we talked everything out and smoothed everything over, or so I thought. He told me that he doesn’t want to be poly but just was okay with it possibly in the future, that he would never do anything that I wasn’t comfortable with or that wasn’t agreed upon before hand. Which I can accept. You can’t say no to things for the future because years down the line you can be a different person and have different feelings towards things that you do today.

Usually after work I wait for Mozart because there is only a couple hours difference and it isn’t safe for me to walk back by myself ( 45min walk at 2am). Today on the other hand was different because his bar was open way longer than mine, plus he had to do all the clean up and stock and so on, so I agreed that I would just take a taxi home and see him when he was done.. He said he may have a few drinks at the club with his work crew (they often get a free drink on long nights at the end of their shift) and then he would walk home. So I figured he would be home around 5 or 6. Well currently it is slowly creeping towards 7:30am and there is still no sign of him. I can’t help but to think that as the clock continues to click, so does my anger. I’m not trying to be a possessive girlfriend but come on. Least let me know that you are okay and not laying dead on the side of the road.

I’ll guess I’ll just have to wait and see and try not to explode at him as soon as he walks though the door. What makes matters worse? Today was our 2and a half years…which to me means something….

So I gave writing on here a rest for awhile. I thought I would take life by the balls and try to actually live it instead of complaining about it. If I really think about it, Ireland isn’t bad at all. Yes it may have been hard to get established and yes I may have had way higher expectations, but the reality is that I have everything I really want. I have a job (some people see it as seedy, some people think I don’t have a degree and should work towards “doing better for myself” and some people assume that I’m a student and simply don’t have time for any other job. But it’s a job that allows me to see my boyfriend. Allows me to travel and allows me to be outside), I am with the person I really wanted to be with and thought that I lost forever, and I am able to travel. Really what’s so wrong with those things. I should be greatful.

While things are better I still go through rough nights, and last night was one of them. Mozart and I have found it difficult to get into a groove we are completely happy with. Because we both work nights we find it hard to do things during the days, and we find it hard to hang out with other people. He found a group of guys that get together every couple of Saturdays to smoke after work so that helped a bit, but we still don’t really have a friend group. Which frankly is sad after being here for so long. That may be my fault I guess. Maybe I am selfish with time. I’m afraid that I may loose him again or that really we only get to spend one, and if we are lucky two days a week fully together, that I kinda just want it to be the two of us. But I know the lack of social interaction with other people is really getting him down and frankly me as well. I loved being in the UK not because the place itself was so fantastic, but it was because of my friends. I feel lost on how to make friends though, it’s definitely something I need to work on.

Mozart and I are really good….until we aren’t. I feel like things are okay and we are happy and then things come crashing down around me and I’m left wondering what the hell just happened. We had a big blow out last night over something so incredibly stupid that I can’t remember. But then a whole lot of things came out. He states he cant do this anymore, thag the only thing holding us together is the house. He told me that he doesn’t think of the future and can’t be pressured into marrying me, or even being with me. That the likelyhood is that we will break up, because a lot of couples do. (Personally I am an optimist so that statement killed me) he also said something to me that I am still personally trying to deal with. He told me that he is okay with us being monogamous but he frankly wouldn’t care if he were to go polyamerous, which completely shocked me. Personally, I don’t think I could do that. He told me that it is just ego in the way, but I would be crushed. He said he would never cheat, but that’s just how he feels.

He said all of this while he was tipsy and after a while of talking/arguing we decided to give it a rest. He stated that some of the things he said was true but the way he conveyed it wasn’t the best. That when he gets mad he can sometimes feel trapped because we have a place together but the reality is, that most of the time he is really happy. And the whole poly thing? Well maybe that will have to be a discussion for today. I guess you can never say never but I frankly can’t really see myself doing it.

What bothers me the most though is that in a heated argument he will say all these things that devastate me and then at the end of it track back by saying they just came out wrong, leaving me to try to figure out what he really means, what parts are true and what parts simply came out wrong. I think this time I have gotten it. I know I pressure about the future, it is just because I’m scared. We both have things to work on, we both have our lives to get in order. So really I don’t know what’s going to happen. And while that’s frightening it’s reality.

I am just going to write some lyrics from Lana del Rey. I just feel them so much.

I was in the winter of my life and the men I met along the road were my only summer. At night I fell asleep with visions of myself, dancing and laughing and crying with them. (…) My memories of them were the only things that sustained me, and my only real happy times.

(…) When the people I used to know found out what I had been doing, how I’d been living, they asked me why, but there’s no use in talking to people who have home. They have no idea what it’s like to seek safety in other people - for home to be wherever you lay your head.

I was always an unusual girl.

(…) And if I said I didn’t plan for it to turn out this way I’d be lying… Because I was born to be the other woman. Who belonged to no one, who belonged to everyone. 

Who had nothing, who wanted everything, with a fire for every experience and an obsession for freedom that terrified me to the point that I couldn’t even talk about it, and pushed me to a nomadic point of madness that both dazzled and dizzied me.

No food tomorrow

Only water or fruit juice from any type.

i kept wondering why i was being such a bitch today for no reason, and then i remembered i’m on my period. oops. 

Babygirl listen…

• He aint shit
• His new chick aint shit
• You a bad bitch
• Keep gettin your money
• Stay the hell away from the drama

Y'all, I just graduated, and I feel like the girl on fire from Girl on Fire by Alicia Keys. I feel on top of the world!

abbygalev:

Dear all young women,

As a young person who recently graduated college, my hope is that women can start focusing on something other than appearances - like career building and education. Like, why are we still talking about appearances so much and still placing so much value on the body? Like, wear makeup if you want or don’t. Wear a bra or dont. Dress like a hobo or go all out like Blake Lively, but at the end of the day, please remember that we are so much more than our bodies. Pursue your dreams. Turn your passion into a career, and stop being a slave to an industry (i.e. the beauty industry) that really only wants your money. You are so, so much more than that; I guarantee it!

HAS ANYBODY ELSE WONDERED WHAT WOUD HAVE HAPPENED TO BELLA WHEN SHE GETS HER PERIOD?!? LIKE WHAT HAPPENS?? 

DO FEMALE VAMPIRES EVEN GET PERIODS-?

I aM sO CONFuSEd rN  ILY GUYS - GEEGI