What it’s like to be me #1

Every Thursday morning my mom checks the big trash can to make sure I cleaned the cat box the night before……

I’ve been cleaning the cat box…. Since forever…

She goes through the fucking garbage to make sure there’s garbage

I swear I’m gonna kms

sometimes I have this urge to set tsrw on fire and chuck it off the face of the earth

Today I did the most ED thing in my life, crunches in my room at midnight, watching mukbangs and chewing mint gum, with a diet coke at the side ofc.

Purged again, the guilt just follows me.

I feel like I’m never gonna be able to escape my body and mind, they all work against me somehow, and idk what to do. At times all I want to be is happy, but my mind is clouded by food, i can’t stop the revolving inner monologue about calories and I’m so sick of it. I just want to be carefree and normal.

12 year old me: imma do the military diet for the fun of it.

*develops a life consuming ED*

bruh how did being in a psych ward induce a relapse.

anyways, long live monster ultra and coffee.

druck really said how many characters can we get to apologize to ava in other POVs before bothering with her own POV season? sky is the limit!

i hate it when you meet sm1 really flippin cute and amazing, but you’re f’ed up mentally and end up isolating yourself for 2 months, then to come back to them with the same feelings and interest, just for the person to only answer every other day, because they probably forgot about you and what you had together, and has moved on and doesn’t want anything to do with you anymore, but doesn’t wanna just cut you off because they’re a decent human being, but you’re too scared to say “i miss you, i want to be in more contact with you”, because they probably don’t feel the same way, and that just makes you hate yourself even more :’’’’)

for every 1 book i finish off my TBR, i somehow add 5 more ???