#mentalhealth
7 Signs You’re Not Broken, It’s Your Unhealed Trauma
5 Signs You’re Emotionally Exhausted, Not Lazy
6 Signs Someone Fakes Being OK
7 Signs You’re Burnt Out But Don’t Realize It
This is a very personal comic, even though it’s not very long and doesn’t have many details. There were many opportunities in my life where my ADHD should have been caught, but I felt like I had been failed several times by the same professionals I had sought help from. It all boiled down to the fact they thought they knew me better than I knew me and therefore what I had to say was not deemed important enough to listen to.
It wasn’t until I started seeing my current therapist that I was actually allowed to speak for myself. At first it seemed to only confirm my Generalized Anxiety Disorder, but the more I talked, the more she began to realize that there was something else going on. One day she politely asked me to stop for a moment and point blank asked me “Bri, have you ever heard of Inattentive ADHD?” I had not.
And it was then I began my true journey.
New painting: “On the Side of Hope”.
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As someone with severe mental illness, hope is not something that comes easy for me. I’ve lived so much of my life in fear. I struggle to fight against that, but I’m learning. Small, 8”x10” Oil on canvas panel.
This painting is still drying, but will be available soon. Message me if interested.
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#fineart #oilpainting #artist #artistsoninstagram #sun #light #green #nature #landscape #hope #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mariahlynnart #oc #creative #forsale #purple #gold #clouds #sky #valley #originalart #painting #landscapepainting #landscapeart #contemporarylandscape
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#poetry #poetryblogger #darkpoetry #sadpoetry #quote #mentalhealth #bookish #iread #readpoetry #poetryisnotdead #igpoet #pain #depression #numb #poetscorner #writtenbyme #poetrybook #mayapoetbe #readerforlife #instapoetry #poetryporn #crying #writer #writersofinstagram #poetryaddict
https://www.instagram.com/p/ByTNRkVlKCW/?igshid=1d374d1mb66l1
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Spectator
Live your life, don’t be afraid.
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Check out my Debut Poetry Book! Link in my profil!
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#poetry #poem #instawritings #writtenbyme #spilledink #darkpoetry #sadpoetry #mentalhealth #depression #dosomethingfornothing #dontbeafraid #livelife #igpoetry #instaquote #poetryofig #youngwriter #selfpublish #fight #wordswithqueens #quoteoflife #poetryoftheday #iread #bookstagram #books
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No one can see me like this.
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#poetry #author #indiebook #indieauthors #poem #igpoetry #instawritings #writtenbyme #writerscommunity #poetryportal #spilledink #spilledwords #bibliophile #poetrybook #chapbook #amazonkdp #writewritewrite #mentalhealth #depression #sadpoetry #wordswithqueens #instapoet #instaquote #anxiety #feeling #crying #writers_creed #bymepoetry #omypoetry
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My debut poetry collection ‘Teenage Journal’ is out today! On Amazon.
It’s a wish come true for me. I did everything myself and decided to self publish it. I mostly did it for myself, but I also really hope you like it
Check it out! (https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07QGWK49N?ref_=pe_3052080_397670860 o. https://www.amazon.com/dp/3982086604?ref_=pe_3052080_397514860)
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#poetry #napowrimo #nationalpoetrymonth #indieapril #poetrybook #selfpublish #poet #author #writtenbyme #writersclub #bibliophile #spilledwords #sadpoetry #feeling #darkpoetry #mentalhealth #depression #hidefeelings #poetryporn #mayapoetbe #poemoftheday #quotess #quoteoflife #authorofinstagram #igpoetry
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In April of 2018, I started Chronic Readers Club. Chronic Readers Club is a program that sends personalized care packages to young, chronically ill people. Each package contains a book from the recipient’s wishlist they provide on the application, as well as many other small goodies!
Chronic Readers Club is something that I’m really passionate about. Running this program is one of my favorite things to do! I’ve been chronically ill since I was 18, which was 8 years ago, and I’ve found reading to be one of the few sources of solace in my time of illness. So it makes my heart happy to be able to share the magic of reading with other young, chronically ill people! Having the opportunity to support the chronic illness community is something I’m very thankful for. This is a community that has supported me through the most difficult years of my life, and I’m so grateful to have a way to give back.
Since its founding, I’ve sent out 52 Chronic Readers Club packages! The program is more popular than I ever anticipated, which is incredible! But that also means I need more help than I expected. Right now, there are still 18 applicants on the waiting list from 2019! So beginning tomorrow, I’ll be sharing the individual ways you can help raise funds to get those 18 remaining people their packages by the end of the year!
I’ve gotten so much wonderful feedback from those who have already received a package, but these kind words from one chronic reader are especially touching: “Thank you for making this life easier.” I think this quote sums up why I strive to keep this program running, even in the midst of my own struggles. I think this quote also does an excellent job of illustrating how much good you’re doing by supporting this program in whatever capacity you can!
So please consider supporting Chronic Readers Club! I’ll be posting about the different ways you can help over the next two weeks on the Chronic Readers Club page, but here’s the full list if you’d like to help out now:
- Purchase a “chronic reader” shirt! Available through November 3rd, these shirts will make the perfect gift for all the bookworms in your life! https://www.bonfire.com/chronic-reader/
- Join our Patreon and provide month-to-month support for the program! As a patron, you get access to exclusive benefits from Chronic Readers Club! https://www.patreon.com/chronicreadersclub
- Use PayPal for a one-time donation! paypal.me/warriorgoddessmk
- Purchase something from the CRC Amazon wishlist! https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/1QZ21JK43CH8N?ref_=wl_share
- Donate a gift card to a bookstore! Contact me at [email protected] to do this!
- Donate small items for the packages! Again contact me at [email protected] for more info!
- And finally, share this post!
I thank you from the bottom of my heart for your support!
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Today’s prompt is “Ooh La La! (Not necessarily risqué, but something that made you feel confident!)”. I don’t talk about my body/weight issues online cause thankfully I’ve always been pretty confident in my body and most importantly happy with myself. But, a couple of years ago I was so depressed (hostile work environment) that I gained the most weight I ever had in my life. I hated my body, not because I weighed more, but because I knew that I was letting myself slip and was eating my feelings instead of trying to improve things. I walked in the Geek Fashion Show at Silicon Valley Comic Con, and even though I had a lot of fun, I hate all the photos of myself. I didn’t feel confident and I can just feel my sadness through them. I also wore Spider Woman at the con, a skintight bodysuit. I don’t like a lot of the photos, and I wore tight spanx, tried to suck in my tummy, etc. There are a few photos that I like thankfully where I felt confident, and I had a lot of fun posing with my spidey pals. Today I actually weigh the same or even more than I did in these pics, but I feel 1000% happier and more confident. One of these days I want to put on this suit and retake photos! Idk why I rambled about this, but basically don’t force yourself to cosplay/be in the spotlight if you don’t feel confident, and your mental health and happiness comes first!! If you feel happy inside it will radiate to the outside!!
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#shepropchallenge #sheprop #cosplay #cosplaychallenge #costume #spiderwoman #spiderman #venom #juliacarpenter #juliacarpenterspiderwoman #spandex #marvel #marvelcomics #comic #superhero #comicbooks #confident #selfconscious #selfconfidence #mentalhealth #bodypositivity
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William Blake’s Ancient of Days illuminating St Paul’s cathedral - it’s worth getting chucked out of the Tate Modern’s top floor for (“Private event” my anglo-persian tush…)
Blake suffered a lot from depression, fell out with a lot of people and probably never had the recognition he deserved. He was buried in an unmarked grave. This was his final work, it’s on for four nights from 16:30 onwards.
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#art #stpaulscathedral #williamblake #ancientofdays #artwork #church #artoftheday #artistic #artporn #artlovers #artlover #artlife #artlove #artgram #stpauls #london #londoncitylife #londoncalling #hiddenlondon #night #skyline #thames #cathedral #art_spotlight #artista #motivation #inspiration #depression #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness (at Tate Modern)
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I’m choosing me.
I’m not choosing to gain weight. I’m choosing to be me.
because I am not …
* saying no to plans that might involve food.
* body checking after every meal to know how much self-loathing to carry with me that day.
*rigid. numb. foggy.
*stuck in my head. distant. never present. &never truly joining in.
because I am …
* sitting at a bar, alone, having margs just because //no special occasion needed to treat myself//.
* splitting an unplanned slice of cake with a best friend.
* spontaneous. clear-minded. emotional (for the good &for the bad).
* living life. experiencing the world around me. joining in &making memories with the ones I love oh so much.
gains.
positives to weight gain
*you wear clothes, no more clothes wearing you.
* &you get to buy new clothes
*moving without fear of breaking
*discovering your body does more than hurt &be cold.
*stepping out of the fog &being present.
*social eating is actually social (not a stressful clusterfuck)
*finding ways to define yourself other than the skinny one.
*feeling. having enough energy to experience&show emotion.
*freeing up brain space to think about so many other //better// things.
*having an all natural glow up.
i’m home.
how can a place feel like home when you’ve never been there before now? how can a place make you feel so you, so complete&whole? how can a place lift all the weight another place held you down with? how can a place be everything you didn’t know you wanted, needed, &more?
do you get what I’m saying? feel what I feel?
alive but not living.
so afraid of imperfection, never actually living,feeling,experiencing.
so scared of not doing right, never being genuine &living truth.
so fearful of a mess up’s consequences, never taking chances at what could be.
face the fears. be a boldness. embrace this life. because what is being alive if you aren’t actually living?
so what now?
you work hard, minus the play hard, for four…eight… years. you achieve [insert goal here] &then what? you feel zero, not a bit, in no way different. you bust your ass working towards the big day of your life. &then what? the day was way over hyped. or worse, the day actually just sucks.
this very true (&unbearably so) storyline is our harsh reality that life is ~ all about the journey ~ ¬ about the destination. yeah achieving a big something is an awesome thing. but it is not ~ all the things ~ cause I am pretty sure if reaching the goal was everything, I would at least feel a little different this morning as I wake up.
if I could, would I go back &change my journey now realizing all this? nope. because all those kind of couldawoulda wishes are pointless&depressing. but I will keep this lesson learned in mind as today starts my new journey towards another something.
words vs actions.
you can tell me you care, but if you act distant,uninterested,unengaged I won’t believe you. if as soon as you come over you start looking for a way to leave, don’t bother saying “I love you” on your way out. if you can’t show it, don’t say it.
you can say all the right things, but if your actions don’t match up, your words do not mean shit.
that’s all I’ve got on this for now. end rant.
