I turned myself into someone I absolutely love. I light candles when I’m alone, I cook what I want for myself, I listen to music other people hate, and sometimes I even dance like a complete psychopath. I used to not cook with mushrooms because my ex hated them, I used to base my cleaning around when other people were coming over, I used to save the good wine for friends houses. But now I save the best for myself. I do what I want for me because I’m the most important one in my own life. Because what do we have if we can’t enjoy our own company?
If I stayed with my ex, I would be married with kids right now and honestly I would be really happy, I know that. But I wouldn’t have met you or your sister or my neighbors or any of the guys I’ve dated in the past 5 years or any of the people I consider my best friends right now. And there are thousands of pictures I wouldn’t have taken and memories I wouldn’t have made and trips I wouldn’t have gone on and favorite outfits I wouldn’t have bought. And I wouldn’t live in this apartment and I wouldn’t have taken this job. I was so close to my entire life being completely different. My life that I’m in love with almost didn’t exist. That’s why I’m thankful for that breakup and all the worst moments of my life. Because I wouldn’t have what I have right now without every decision I’ve made leading up to today, even the bad ones.
Who told you flowers are beautiful and weeds are a sore to the eye? Who told you bugs are disgusting, but not the butterfly? The flowers are welcome, but not the dirt. Do you know how hard it is to feel love when you’re hurt?
I am so incredibly excited to share the cover for my newest book, girl made of glass, coming in september 2022.
if you think often about the past or battle with overthinking and self-esteem, girl made of glass is for you. this collection is about finding yourself, forgiving yourself, and loving yourself. it explores the many ways our past haunts us, but will leave you feeling hopeful about your future.
don’t let anyone tell you that self-love is a linear journey. that once you find acceptance for yourself, there will never be a day of doubt again. don’t believe that you are alone in your battle, that others aren’t facing the same obstacles as you (even if the armor they’re wearing looks different). don’t believe there’s a fast fix to finding yourself, loving yourself, accepting yourself. believe that you will find yourself, love yourself, accept yourself. no matter how long it takes.
The problem with this generation is that everyone is searching for happiness in every soul but their own. Stop searching for happiness in things that are temporary and start searching for it within yourself. And from there you will be able to transform everything you touch into something beautiful.
