#truth quotes

So thank you for showing up,

Thank you for choosing to love me when I was ready to break-

You didn’t have to.

-I love you too

Thinking about the future, I long for a little bookshop in a bustling city- there’s a tiny space for coffee and a corner dedicated to out-of-fashion antiques- with ladders to climb up the ceiling high shelves, filled with stories of wisdom and monsters and hope.

-All I Want

You have no obligation to keep being the past version of yourself. Knowing this helps me keep myself afloat in this sea of change- and I have changed. Somewhere over the course of the past year I dug the grave of the girl I used to be and I lay down in it. Now everybody talks about being honest, but none of them want my truth. Everything changes, why should I be the exception?

-“to love someone long-term is to attend a thousand funerals of the people they used to be” Heidi Priebe

“and healing isn’t linear because so much of it is going back. Healing is the art of revisiting the scene of the crime to clean up the blood. It is going to the dark alleyways of your own mind to put up street lamps. It hurts so much because the past is a bone that was broken and mended itself in the wrong way. It is excruciating to reset it, but in the long run it is for the best”

-what love looks like now.

“I guess some people just feel like home in a way, their arms an anchor in the midst of this storm we call life, and you, you have always been my grounding when it begins to pour.”

- I know the sun will rise, 2am love letters.

Nothing is the same anymore,

when you turned your back my heart followed out the door.

-these days there’s just an empty cavern in the space you left.

Why is it that little girls who are told to stop crying turn into women who scream silently, and boys who are told crying is for girls, grow into men who seek to hear a silent scream?

Perhaps we are teaching them wrong.

-Cry if you want to darling, it is your right.

For me it’s all the good and bad and everything in between. It’s the light that glimmers in your eyes when you get excited, it’s the pain you try to hide when you struggle to open up. It’s your ability to be vulnerable and kind after everything. It’s your will to change and want to be better. It’s your laugh at the stupidest little things that make you fall over and hug yourself. It’s your passion for the things you love. It’s how intelligent you are without realizing it. It’s your humor to turn a bad mood into a good one. It’s your compassion to help wherever you can. I could keep going but it comes down to the fact that as imperfect as you may feel at times you are so much more than you realize. You are a total goofball, stupidly smart, annoyingly kind, intriguingly complex, genuinely handsome, and are beyond good enough. You are so much more than you give yourself credit for and deserve nothing less than spectacular.

4/20/22 03:00

She was the girl that had all the love in the world to give. He was the guy who couldn’t love her back, who couldn’t show how he really felt, who couldn’t give her the love that she deserved and it broke her. She would question why she wasn’t good enough. Why? No matter how much she gave, she never got it back, and instead of blaming him, she blamed herself. She stayed up countless nights wondering where things went wrong or what she could do differently to change them. When it came down to it and it wasn’t working anymore. He left and she was still broken. She thought maybe he was the only reason that she was ever happy, but the truth is he didn’t make her happy. It was the love that she was giving that made her happy. It was caring for someone and seeing someone else smile that made her happy and even though she didn’t feel that happiness herself, she was okay with that. He was happy and he was all that mattered to her.

02:19 4/20/22

I don’t remember the night we met much besides bits and pieces, but the next day I knew I was going to be in trouble. You were so real and reminded me so much of myself, my home, and I knew you were blind to it, so I did what I do best and ignore it and let other people be happy. Then you were suddenly him, my new go to, my best friend, a new piece of myself I found.

Life is blurry though, things happen we can’t control and I remember why I don’t cross these lines, it’s easier to push it down and make someone else happy. I want to be happy though, I know I deserve it, I just don’t think I’ll ever get it. So it’s time for me to stop trying and shut up and go back to the place we were, to keep looking elsewhere because you don’t want what’s right in front of you. I have to be content with where I am and trust where I’m going, you’re special and I know it, but life has other plans and that’s okay, i just need time.

4-19-22 01:24

Why is it the scariest thing you can do is be yourself? Because at the end of the day when you let down those walls and show someone all the good, bad, and grey in between they often leave. It’s one thing to have someone judge you and leave when your walls are up. But to show all of you unapologetically and not be enough? For love to turn into hate? There’s nothing more cruel than to feel as though you are the problem and being yourself is a crime. So it’s easier to hide. To be the wild child, the life of the party, the one who doesn’t care, because if they don’t like it then it’s easier to deal with knowing it’s not the real you.

4-18-22 1:05am

“What are you supposed to do when you spend your entire life worried that you’ll never be enough and terrified you’ll always be too much?”

2/16/22 3:20am

“I’m still trying to learn how someone could ever love me.”

2/14/22 3:06

“Sometimes people surprise you…not everyone is a villain, not everyone will lie to you, there is still good genuine kind soft people in this world. You just have to keep looking.”

1:13 10/6/21

“New people are scary…it’s a blank slate but at the same time I get all these butterflies and act a fool.”

1:10 10/5/21

“Time doesn’t always mean healing time means preparing yourself to just keep going, because some people never change, and all you can do is just keep going.”

22:59 7/13/21

Just when you think everything is ok again, you’re finally happy, gaining trust, doing everything you’ve always wanted, it can shatter in a tenth of a second.

23:17 6/26/21

“Holding you is something more special and peaceful than words can describe.”

1/11/21 00:41

“I always loved you more than you loved me, I tried not to I knew I’d get hurt but I’ve never stopped loving you in spite of that.”

1/7/21 21:24 j

“From the day I met you I wanted you, now I want you again. I loved you once and I want to fall in love with you all over again and every time after that till we get it right.”

1/7/21 01:33 j