#i want to die
I hope one day I find the right person.
It’s hard to keep hoping though.
Since I’m still alone, after trying so hard and waiting so long to find that person.
I don’t want just anyone.
I want mutual, genuine, long term love.
True love is the hardest to find…
But it’s the only kind I want.
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I want someone to give love to.
I want someone to love me.
Genuinely, loyally, mutually, and for a lifetime.
I want my soulmate. I hope she exists.
That is the main thing I want in life.
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I haven’t even had cuddles in almost two years.
For a very affectionate person, this is literal torture.
With that said, I want it with the right person. The One person.
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I’ve been unloved far longer than I’ve ever been loved.
I hope one day it will be the opposite.
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Everyone says you should love yourself before you can love anyone else.
Well, I do.
I love myself enough to know that:
- I deserve better.
- I shouldn’t have to be alone.
- I would be a very loving boyfriend/husband to the right girl.
- I shouldn’t have to suffer and have to continue this unfair life where I only see everyone else (even shitty assholes) get love besides me.
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I want to be wanted as much as I want others.
I want to be someone’s favorite person, mutually.
But no matter what I do, I’m still always the side thought.
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I’m considering just ending my life if I don’t find my soulmate in a year or so. Maybe less.
I’ve waited long enough.
All I’ve gotten is pain. No matter what I do. I’ve been lied to too often also.
I just want to find the right person. I don’t want to have to continue being hurt in this unfair life.
All I want is love. But it’s the only thing I can’t get.
Why bother living? There’s no point in life without love, as least that’s how I feel. I’ve felt that way my whole life.
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It’d be nice to feel fully wanted by someone I want. But I can never get that. It’s just a fantasy.
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I go from “I’m fine being alone for a little longer” to “I can’t handle being alone anymore and want to die” too often.
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Jonathan
I want to message him but I’m not sure if I should. I want to talk to him but I’m not sure if he wants too. The last thing I said to him was that he’d never hear about from me. Or about me every again. I was upset. I was mad at what he did. I didn’t mean it. I still dont. I wish I never meet him. I wish he was never in my life. I want to die. And hes the reason why. Yet hes the reason I’m here. I dont know what to do.
Fuck you…
I hate to say
But i regret you
I regret giving you something
That was so important to me
But you just took it in a second
And act like it’s nothing
But to me it’s everything..
Does anyone sometimes cut to prove to themselves that your emotions are valid because you’ve been invalidated your whole life? Cause same.
My dad straight up told me to stop seeing my therapist. That I should just shove all of my bad feelings down and “put a lid on it”. I have never more clearly seen the way he fucked up my head.
Im so fucking tired of everything landing on Magnus. This entire god damn time hes done nothing but show his loyalty, especially to the warlocks. He has proven himself powerful, a strong leader (gasp yes even the best of leaders can fuck up!), and someone who cares for his people. He deserves time to fucking relax, be happy. Its absolute total bullshit that hes not the high warlock. I know warlock politics are different but from a basic understanding of both warlock and vampire politics, is raphael no longer gonna be the clan leader? Because its been shown with camille the clan leader can be overthrown. Whys everything gotta fuck Magnus over?
ppl started rbing this again and my god did this age ugly remember when magnus not being hwob was the saddest thing
Might just fuck around and take too much
Lo que quise contigo no lo tendría con otro hombre…
Mientras tú lo vives con alguien más.
Quisiera siquiera haberte besado, sentir tus brazos alrededor de mi cuerpo, tus dedos enredados en mi cabello, tus labios junto a los míos mientras sostengo tu cabeza para luego mirarnos a los ojos y susurrar un “te amo” entre lágrimas porque al fin se cumplió nuestro sueño, que solo quedó en un veremos.
Te amaré hasta el último de mis días, aunque no pueda estar contigo.
Quisiera siquiera haberte besado, sentir tus brazos alrededor de mi cuerpo, tus dedos enredados en mi cabello, tus labios junto a los míos mientras sostengo tu cabeza para luego mirarnos a los ojos y susurrar un “te amo” entre lágrimas porque al fin se cumplió nuestro sueño, que solo quedó en un veremos.
Te amaré hasta el último de mis días, aunque no pueda estar contigo.
Why does every day feel like a fight to survive? “If I can just make it one more day everything will get better.” Over and over again, it’s a never ending cycle of longing to die but trying to live. I’m tired of it now. I just want to turn off my brain to end the pain.
It’s hard to want to live when the world around you is telling you to die.
You love them with all of your heart. They leave you broken in pieces. They force you to watch as they move on, never to be whole again.
A break from life would be nice. Especially if it were a never ending one.
All those moments where I could’ve gone away, why in the world have I chosen to stay? ….because I’m afraid of being forgotten…
fucking-voices-kill-me
Who am I?
Don’t look at me…not like this
I never knew how hard it was to die until I actually tried
fucking-voices-kill-me
What a fucking lie. You’re a fucking liar how could you do me like this man. I thought you meant that but i guess i was dumb to believe you :)
You play with my loose screws
Ever just had a really good day and you get home and thought “today was a good day” then suddenly the sadness hits you and your head just plays a flashback of every sad memory you have and you just drown in the sadess and forget why you felt happy for once in the entire year.
