#life quotes
“I’m sorry that I still love you”
-Day 584
“Break my heart”
-Day 583
“You should never love a person like me because I’ll go from loving you to hating you in a matter of minutes.”
-Day 583
“I created the monsters that haunt me and they will follow me until the end of time.”
-Day 582
“I keep dreaming of you and waking up sad because those dreams will never become reality.”
-Day 581
“People always ask me how I can be friends with my ex’s and I tell them I can because I no longer love them like that but when in reality I don’t know how to let go of the ones I love.”
-Day 580
“I just want to feel like I matter to someone”
-Day 579
“You kissed me like you were desperate for that moment to never end.”
-Day 578
“How many lives do you think we have lived where we have loved each other”
-Day 577
“It’s sad isn’t it? I once thought worlds of you and now you’re just another lesson.”—Beau Taplin, The Lesson
“You can never visit the same place twice. Each time, it’s a different story. By the very act of coming back, you wipe out what came before.”—The Last Little Blue Envelope by Maureen Johnson
“You’re always you, and that don’t change, and you’re always changing, and there’s nothing you can do about it.”—Neil Gaiman, The Graveyard Book
I miss being a kid
When I was a young child, I told myself I wanted to live up to 100 years old— that was my goal. I wanted to live a long life. I was absolutely terrified of dying.
Ten years later and I’m begging the universe to kill me. I’m praying to God— if there even is one— that this will all end.
Honestly, I didn’t even expect to make it this far. I never thought I’d be able to see myself turn eighteen. I graduate high school in a month. I should be happy but I’m not. I feel so lost. I wasn’t planning on being alive for this long. I don’t know what to do, what steps to take, which direction to go— I’m lost.
Is anything even worth it? Should I keep on pushing? Should I go to college? Should I continue working?
Or will it all be a waste of time? “I won’t be alive in the next ten years so I guess nothing really matters.” I find myself often repeating that line.
That’s the thing about life though. You never know what the future will hold. Maybe I will be dead in the near by future. Or maybe I’ll be alive and finally happy.
The only thing I can do now is focus on the present. Let’s just hope I have enough strength to even do that…
This is a poem I wrote a few months ago for my creative writing class. I’m working on my mental health and I’m trying to better it. It’s hard though.
Anyways tell me what you guys think :/
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LONE
Inspired by the song, Snow by XXXTentacion
The world is in black and white
My own brain is against me in a fight
I think too much and it ruins me
I’m looking for any chance to flee
What’s the point in living if you’re already dead
I couldn’t wait to grow up but now I feel so misled
I’m scared to face the problem so I run away
Weight on my shoulders while my heart decays
The only friend I have is the reaper himself
My life is deteriorating along with my mental health
The thought of happiness scares me, beyond and above
I use people with the intention of feeling loved
It never works, I end it, I tell them they did nothing wrong
I feel so sorry that I stringed them along
They become hurt and angry, I know it’s my fault
I always make sure that I’m locked in a vault
I surround myself with strong walls
Walking through life while I stumble and fall
I will always be alone and that will never change
For I am a lone wolf, venturing the cold mountain range.
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“Some won’t appreciate you no matter how much you do for them. Release yourself. Go where you’re appreciated and understood.”—Robert Tew
People don’t actually go from 0 to 60. If you think they did you have failed to notice how long they’ve been at 59.
“Don’t forget - no one else sees the world the way you do, so no one else can tell the stories that you have to tell.”—Charles de Lint, The Blue Girl
