#love letter

we fell in love because of our differences,

we believed in opposites attract.

but now it feels like two worlds colliding,

and i dont know if we can handle the shake.

how can i not be in love with you when your presence alone can light up my whole mood? how can i not be in love with you when you treat me better than anyone ever could? how can i not be in love when your simple laugh makes my knees weak and brain dizzy? how can i not be in love with you when you saved my life? i must be really stupid if i ever fall out of love with you. the only time i’ll ever stop being in love with you is the day i die.

im too in love with you to be doing things that can hurt our relationship. im so in love with you that i can’t even think about anyone else. im always craving your presence and everyone else just seems so boring.

you make me want to do all the right things. im losing interest talking to other people or be in places you’re not around. i find staying up late boring since you sleep early. i constantly wonder what you’re doing or who you’re with. is this what its like to be in love?

dismissive attachment style.

I’m broken. Not broken as in wanting someone to come and fix me. I’m broken because I believe there’s nothing wrong with me yet I’m hurting the people around me. I’m broken because I choose to let go of people when things get too rocky. I’m broken because walking away is more appealing to me than solving issues. I truly cannot accept the fact that someone loves me so much they want to be with me forever. I cannot believe someone will actually fight for me. It does not make sense in my head and I don’t know when I’ll finally open up to you. My friend told me that maybe sometimes I picked fights with you to see if you truly care about me. Sometimes I wonder if this relationship is even worth changing myself for. But you really are someone I do not want to let go of. You are someone I do not want to walk away from. You are someone I see myself opening up to.

lets take our time exploring each other a bit more, as we got all the time in the world to spend together. even if i die tomorrow, im grateful that i can spend my last seconds being yours and only yours. you’re my safe haven, my comfort zone and my shoulder to lean on. i hope you feel the same way about me too.

i know its painful when someone you thought will be your forever just turns out to be another heartbreak. its hard to let go of someone who made you feel safe and needed. maybe you’ll even promise that you will never love another again.

but you will be okay. you will pick yourself up once more, like you always have. you’ll learn to let go and continue your own path.

i hope you’re able to see the love around you again.

you told me how much you like me but i still find it difficult to believe you. im trying not to doubt your intentions but my mind still play tricks on me. you’re so kind to me but sometimes i want to push you away because im afraid. i never had anyone treat me the way you do. i never felt safer with anyone but you. can you please be gentle with me?

i like spending time alone. i dont mind not having anyone to call after a long day. i dont get sad after watching romantic movies and wishing i was the main character. i dont crave for love but for once, i think it’d be nice knowing someone will always be there for me. its a nice feeling to have someone constantly cheering for you. love may not be the most important thing in life but i’d be very lucky to have it.

cant eat, cant sleep, my mind is only filled with the thoughts of you. i like you so much that im forgetting how to take care of myself.

for once i just want to love someone without the fear of being unloved.

you were the main character in my story

i felt like the happiest girl in the world for a month

but turns out our romance ends in chapter nineteen

and soon you disappeared from my life

i didnt fall in love with her because she was pretty, though she was beautiful.

i fell in love with her because of the way she made me feel. it caught me off guard and never have i imagined you’d be the girl i would fall for.

and i never thought you’d fell for me too.

i fell in love with her because she made me fell in love with myself as well.

and i think thats the beauty of love.

why do we even bother playing games? what if i dont want to act cold towards you in hopes of you noticing me? can i just be obvious with my feelings? im so tired of games.

you’re constantly on my mind and often i wonder if we ever think of each other at the same time.

im curious about what made you you. im curious about your taste in music. im curious about the way your mind thinks. im curious about how your body likes to be touched. im curious about your late night thoughts and how they make you feel. im curious about every single thing about you.

i wonder why i have to look away when you glance at me. i wonder why i have to pretend to be unbothered when we accidentally touch. i wonder why i have to act like i dont care about you even when you’re the only person i want to protect forever.

i thought love doesnt have to be complicated?