#wlw longing

sending virtual hugs to everyone struggling, whether that be physically or mentally, during this pandemic. stay safe gays ( ~.~)♡

if a girl with a sword doesn’t duel me in the next two weeks and then fall in love when we lift our masks is there any point in continuing in this life?

we fell in love because of our differences,

we believed in opposites attract.

but now it feels like two worlds colliding,

and i dont know if we can handle the shake.

how can i not be in love with you when your presence alone can light up my whole mood? how can i not be in love with you when you treat me better than anyone ever could? how can i not be in love when your simple laugh makes my knees weak and brain dizzy? how can i not be in love with you when you saved my life? i must be really stupid if i ever fall out of love with you. the only time i’ll ever stop being in love with you is the day i die.

im too in love with you to be doing things that can hurt our relationship. im so in love with you that i can’t even think about anyone else. im always craving your presence and everyone else just seems so boring.

lets take our time exploring each other a bit more, as we got all the time in the world to spend together. even if i die tomorrow, im grateful that i can spend my last seconds being yours and only yours. you’re my safe haven, my comfort zone and my shoulder to lean on. i hope you feel the same way about me too.

i know its painful when someone you thought will be your forever just turns out to be another heartbreak. its hard to let go of someone who made you feel safe and needed. maybe you’ll even promise that you will never love another again.

but you will be okay. you will pick yourself up once more, like you always have. you’ll learn to let go and continue your own path.

i hope you’re able to see the love around you again.

you told me how much you like me but i still find it difficult to believe you. im trying not to doubt your intentions but my mind still play tricks on me. you’re so kind to me but sometimes i want to push you away because im afraid. i never had anyone treat me the way you do. i never felt safer with anyone but you. can you please be gentle with me?

i like spending time alone. i dont mind not having anyone to call after a long day. i dont get sad after watching romantic movies and wishing i was the main character. i dont crave for love but for once, i think it’d be nice knowing someone will always be there for me. its a nice feeling to have someone constantly cheering for you. love may not be the most important thing in life but i’d be very lucky to have it.

cant eat, cant sleep, my mind is only filled with the thoughts of you. i like you so much that im forgetting how to take care of myself.

for once i just want to love someone without the fear of being unloved.

you were the main character in my story

i felt like the happiest girl in the world for a month

but turns out our romance ends in chapter nineteen

and soon you disappeared from my life

i didnt fall in love with her because she was pretty, though she was beautiful.

i fell in love with her because of the way she made me feel. it caught me off guard and never have i imagined you’d be the girl i would fall for.

and i never thought you’d fell for me too.

i fell in love with her because she made me fell in love with myself as well.

and i think thats the beauty of love.

why do we even bother playing games? what if i dont want to act cold towards you in hopes of you noticing me? can i just be obvious with my feelings? im so tired of games.

you’re constantly on my mind and often i wonder if we ever think of each other at the same time.

im curious about what made you you. im curious about your taste in music. im curious about the way your mind thinks. im curious about how your body likes to be touched. im curious about your late night thoughts and how they make you feel. im curious about every single thing about you.

i wonder why i have to look away when you glance at me. i wonder why i have to pretend to be unbothered when we accidentally touch. i wonder why i have to act like i dont care about you even when you’re the only person i want to protect forever.

i thought love doesnt have to be complicated?

thank you for giving me the privilege to love you and i really hope i was worth your time.

i know i should not have fallen in love with you. we will never be together and that your heart belongs to someone else.

but what am i suppose to do when words are stuck in the back of my throat every time you smile at me? what am i suppose to do when my breathing stops whenever you lean in close to me? what am i suppose to do when i feel lightheaded every time you say my name?

and the worst part is that you dont even like girls. you hold so much power over me without even knowing it.

though we didnt have a happy ending, i never once regret the time we spent together. i dont think neither of us expected our future to be this way, none of us thought we would get separated from each other. i wish we had more opportunities but at least i got to experience what its like to be loved by you.

i swear i would do anything just to touch you again. i would give up everything if that means i get to see that smile of yours for the last time. i would happily rest in peace if i have the chance to tell you how much i loved you just once more. why is life so unfair?

i wonder what would happen if we ever meet again. would you be happy to see me? or would you just treat me like another stranger crossing the road?

even though life can get sad and overwhelming sometimes, the thought of us existing in the same universe feels comforting. knowing that we’re living and thriving underneath the same sky makes me feel closer to you even when we’re not speaking to each other. i wonder if we ever looked at the moon at the same time. have you ever wished that i was right next to you? sometimes i think the world is too big for you to be my only person but i truly believe that you are.

tell me about your favourite books. tell me about the characters that made you swoon for days even after they’ve said their goodbyes. tell me about the storyline that changed your point of view regarding the real world. tell me about the sentences that you had to read multiple times as they felt so precious. tell me about the emotions you went through while living in a different reality. tell me about the experiences you gained after reading the last word at the last chapter. tell me what made you fall in love again and maybe i can understand you better after knowing what your imagination looks like.

i used to love airplanes. i loved going to the airport and packing my suitcases. i used to crave escaping to a different point of view and meeting strangers from all around the world.

that was before i met you. that was before i had to say goodbye to you while staring hopelessly at your sad smile. i never thought i’d look at you in that state and i never want to experience that heartbreak ever again. that was all before i had to feel what its like to be an ocean away from you.

how i wish im still as naive as before.

you can feel hopeless about anything and everything but never at yourself.

promise me to never discount your ability and worth.